Kiss me hard before you go (#Wattys2015)

CHAPTER 28 (I grinned as well)

“A-andrei?” I entered the room and I saw him sleeping like a child with his face so pale and his hand injected with all these tubes and stuff na hindi ko alam ang tawag. Basta may dextrose at hindi ko gusto na nakikita siyang ganyan. My handsome Andrei in that weak sight is slowly wrenching my heart.

Earlier today, I made some chocolate muffins because I know that he loves eating them. I remember way back in high school when he heartily accepta everything I give kahit na minsan hindi perfect ang pagkakagawa, still he accepts. He’s the kind of guy na unexpressive when it comes to his feelings, at dahil nga number one fan niya ako dati ay alam ko iyon.

“Vickie ikaw pala. Tulog pa si Andrei eh, malakas yata iyong gamot niya kaya lagi siyang tulog.” Christian welcomed me with his hands on his phone, maybe texting his model girlfriend.

“Really? Goodness…  I hate seeing him this way.”

“Yep! My loser brother is that of a weakling, nakakahiya. By the way ngayon mo lang ba nalaman? So this loser is ashamed of texting you? Aba,may hiya pa pala siya.”

“Yeah, ngayon lang ako nakabisita. I filed for leave kasi kanina and the plane ticket arrived so ang dami kong inasikaso.” Napkunot siya ng noo.

“Where are you going?” He curiously asked.

“US, kasal ng friend ko at bakasyon na din. I have been working for him kind of long so I need a break. Hindi na ako sanay manirahan dito sa Pilipinas like I find it weird, like seriously. Hindi ko alam ung bakit may tumutulak sa akin palayo ng Pilipinas.”

“Vickie, walang tumutulak sayo. You’re just being paranoid at alam ko naman dahil pa rin iyan sa twin brother ko na sana pagpasensiyahan mo na. He can really be such a huge d*ck, pero mabait naman iyan. He got his pride above his head kaya hindi niya maibaba minsan.” I just giggled and placed the muffins on the bedside table.

“It’s me. Pakiramdam ko, I still have serious issues that I need to face. I realized that I held onto Andrei’s shadow for too long na hindi ko mailayo ang sarili ko sa nagawa niya noon. Like, kung may gagawin siyang mabuti, iisipin kong baka hindi iyon totoo.” Then a faint smile escaped Christian’s lips.

“I know. Alam ko naman kasi kung bakit ka ganyan. It’s my hellion of a brother’s fault, pero give him a fair chance to fight for you. He loves you, Vickie at denial siya noon kasi napatunayan niyang tama kami ng mga kabarkada namin. He denied his admiration kasi feeling niya hindi kayo bagay, which is hindi totoo.”

“Chris, I know that I am being unfair at matanda na tayo. I know that I should give him a fair chance kasi nararamdaman ko naman. I guess I have to move on, but I need to go back to US to find a missing piece of me na baka naiwanan ko doon. I hated him my whole teenage years and loved him at the same time, kaya ang hirap magmove on at maniwala.” He patted me on the back and tears formed in my eyes.

“Chris, sorry ha. Alam ko kasi ang naging past sexual relationships ni Andrei at ayokong matulad na lang sa kanila na pinaasa niya. I know the feeling kasi noon, tuwing tatanggapin niya iyong mga dala ko, akala ko may tsansa, eh. I badly know how it felt to expect something from him.”

“Sorry, Vickie. I understand. You have to take your time. You need to find that missing piece, at I’ll wake some senses into Andrei’s head para naman matauhan siya.”

I smiled at him at napatingin na lang ako sa mga kamay ko.

“He… have this reputation of sleeping around, Chris. Hindi mo naman iyong made-deny. I’m scared na baka iyon ang totoong siya at imposibleng mahalin niya ako. It’s been years, pero bakit ba mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya? Hindi ko siya magawang kalimutan.” Then he held my hand.

“Kahit ano pa ang gawin mo, you can’t forget someone you love. Your heart will still find its way sa taong gusto mo, even if it took years . Trust me, alam ko iyan.” The suddenly his face went serious and I realized na dapat harapin ko na lang. If ever he rejects me, tatanggapin ko pero kailangan kong harapin. I need to face him and this love.

“I love Andrei and no one can change that, but I have to leave the day after tomorrow. Alam kong one week pa siya dito kaya di kami magpapang-abot. Tell him na panandalian lang naman. It will just be a wedding of a friend at hindi ako magre-resign.”

Then he laughed. Thank goodness, akala ko seryoso na siya. “Of course, aba maganda kayang magpasweldo ang kompanya, ano? Atsaka, you won’t find a handsome boss just like him, well technically ako iyong kapareho niya pero you love him.”

“I do love him, Chris and I guess I just have to face it.”

“That’s my girl!”

Then he’s about to open the muffins. “No! Kay Andrei iyan. I brought you something, nasa bag.” I took out some fried oreos and he smiled really wide.

“Paborito ko ‘to! Damn, you have to marry this loser para laging may ganito! Damn!” At dali-dali niyang binuksan ang box.

“By the way, how’s Andrei’s condition? Is he getting better?” I asked Chris while touching Andrei’s pale face. By the looks of him, he feels pain at nanghihina.

“Our dad said that he’s still really weak and he needs rest so probably matatagalan pa iyang loser na iyan dito. Don’t worry, I’ll keep you posted about his condition ‘pag nasa US ka na.” Then I smile at him and played with Andrei’s jet-black wavy hair.

I love the feeling of my skin against his hair; feels like he’s mine. His cold skin sparks something inside I cannot fathom.

“He’s such a workaholic guy, and kahit ako I can’t stop him. He loves stressing his body out. Ayoko sana siyang nakikitang ganyan. You know how insane I am towards him and it pains my heart to see him this weak at nagkataon pang aalis ako. I’m so guilty to leave him this way pero nakapangako na kasi ako.”

“I know, Vickie kaya ako na ang bahala sa labidabs mo. Pack your things, and I’ll tell him you went here para naman mabuhayan siya ng dugo.”

“Sus! Ang baduy, Chris! Labidabs? Yucky ka!”

“Ikaw naman gusto mo din.” Then he winked.

I walked in from of Andrei’s bed and fixed his pillow. I’m straightening the blanket because he seems cold. I saw him sniff and brushed his hair with my hand. I love the texture of hs hair. As I was brushing his hair, bigla siyang namulat at hinigit ako para halikan.

“Whoa! Twin brother!” Napasigaw si Chris at nanatili pa rin akong naninigas sa kinatatayuan ko. I am so shocked that our lips are still locked and I felt his tongue. He pulled my closer by placing his arms around my waist.

“A-andrei! I-“

“I love kissing you, Victoria. I love it when you play hard to get. You make me fall even harder kapag nakikita kitang nagba-blush. You look too refreshing.” Then a giggled escaped from his lips and he’s still embracing me, seated at the bed.

“A-ano ka ba? Nandyan si Christian. Nakakahiya.” Then he grinned.

“Bro, lumayas ka nga muna dito. Sexy time namin nauudlot dahil sayo. Please leave this room right now.” Then he smiled wide at his twin brother.

“Oh sige. Bye lovebirds!”

Then Andrei grinned at me so wide I grinned as well.