Kiss me hard before you go (#Wattys2015)

CHAPTER 26 (Damn they're so right)

Back to reality na kami.

I’m now in my house preparing stuff I will need for work, and I need to file a two-week leave of absences dahil nga kasal ng friend namin ni Romeo sa Texas. Damn, he’s marrying that rich cowboy. We are actually planning of making it a surprise kasi nga nagtatampo siya sa amin noong engagement party niya, biglang balik kasi ako ng Pinas.

Andrei, on the other hand still drives me crazy and I don’t know how to make it up to myself for giving him my pure, chaste self. Anyways, okay lang naman kasi my parents assume na hindi na ako pure nung nasa US pa ako, which is they think normal sa mga nasa US.

I pouted while looking at the sleeping face of my dear Andrei. I took some photos while he was sleeping kagabi. I can’t help but feel awesome since sa kanya pa rin pala babagsak ang puso ko. I so damn want to feel him all over at nakakaadik pala makipag… ganun.

“Really, Victoria? Addicted to sex?” I said to myself.

I felt addicted for the first time in my life, not that I wasn’t addicted to Andrei, but that feeling drive me nuts! I was literally gasping for air but the feeling is too frenzy. Damn, is that the reason why girls go crazy for him? He too delectable for me stop.

Kung pwede nga lang buong araw namin iyon gawin! Damn, I’m insane pero nagpapakatotoo lang naman. I want to taste him all over again at feeling ko sobrang pervert ko na! I want to feel him skin to skin and tongue to tongue.

This is definitely the first time na naging malandi ako o higad or whatever ang itawag mo, basta I want to be a perv only to him. Pakiramdam ko, lumalakas ang imagination ko.

Romeon came over para pag-usapan ang nalalapit na kasal ng aming American friend. He seems to be excited kasi miss na niya agad ang barkada namin.

“Damn you girl. You smell hot sex!” Sigaw niya habang binubuksan ang pintuan ng kwarto ko. He smirked dahil alam niyang matagal ko na iyong pangarap.

“Gaga! Of course it was a hot sex pero please, marinig ka ni daddy.” Sabay bato ko ng teddy bear sa mukha niya which by the way he dodged pretty fast.

“You became a biatch really fast in a span of three fvcking days! Nakakalandi ba ang tubig dagat ng Cam Sur at ganyan ka na kakiri? Oh my goodness, Vickie girl. You’re such a bad girl!” Then he threw the bear back to my face.

“Hindi ang tubig ng Cam Sur ang nakakalandi, ang presensya ni Andrei ang sisihin mo. Naglalakad pa lang siya ng nakadamit, gusto ko na agad sunggaban at hubaran. I was never a pervert until I got a tast of him. He tasted blueberries and cream… fvcking blueberries, Romeo dear!”  Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit at tinulak niya ako na parang diring-diri siya sa akin.

“Bakit? Mabango naman ako, gaga ‘to.” Tumayo ako at nagsuklay. Kakaligo ko lang at bukas pasok na naman and I still don’t know how will I control my hormones kapag nakita ko na naman si Andrei. Haay, naiimagine ko pa lang iba na ang nararamdaman ng katawan ko.

“Hoy Vickie. Nadevirginize ka lang akala mo kung sinong pervert ka na. Where’s the shy nerdy girl from Ivy League? I guess I lost her.” Nagpout pa siya at lalo lang akong naasar. Inirapan ko siya para kumuha ng cream pants sa closet. I need to look demure tomorrow, baka isipin ni Andrei nilalandi ko na siya.

“Romeo dear, matanda na tayo at ngayon ko lang narealize how good iit feels to bea goddamn adult. I love being an adult and I want to do all adult things to Andrei at hindi ako papayag na may ibang susunod na babae pagkatapos namin gawin iyon. I’ll definitely shave their heads if they try seduce Andrei.” Nagsmile ako at naglagay ng moisturizer sa mukha.

“You’re freaking me out Victoria. Don’t tell me mag-iinarteng girlfriend ka na ni Andrei? You know that guy’s a fvcking playboy and he hurt you way back then. You need to guard you heart a little bit.” Then I stopped from what I was doing and got shaken by his words.

He’s damn right.

“You’re right. I need to guard my heart. Nawalan na agad ako ng kontrol. Thank goodness you’re fvcking here or else makakalimot ako. You know how stupid I was way back then the first time I met you, right? I was hopeless dahil sa puppy love ko sa kanya.”

“I know. Kaya nga you should hold back a little. May tip nga sa Cosmopolitan na, ‘Absence makes the heart grow fonder’. Make him come to you at wag kang maghabol pero show affectionate gestures para lalo siyang mabaliw sayo. Talk to other guys para naman hindi lang sa kanya umiikot ang mundo mo.”

“Wow, Romeo dear. You’ve been a guru.” Tapos binato na niya ako ng unan dahil naasar na naman sa akin. I smirked and opened the box of donuts he brought.

“Pasalamat ka lang talaga nagSkype kami ng boyfriend ko or else hindi kita bibigyan ng donuts.” Nanlaki ang mata ko. Nginisian ko siya at alam niya kung bakit ko ginawa iyon.

“Oh my gawd, Romeo dear. You’ve… skyped?! Alam na!” Tawa ako ng tawa at hinawi lang niya ang buhok niyang mukhang panlalaki at hawig ng brushed up hairstyle ni David Beckham.

“Always remember what I always say. It’s not good when you’re drowned with that man’s presence. I know he can definitely drive you insane, pero please naman Vickie be responsible. Your mother suffered heartbreak when you left then here dahil lang sa matinding puppy love na iyan and I bet hindi sila boto sa Andrei mo.”

I looked at my hands like I’m realizeing every bit he’s telling me. Tama siya. Should I be that crazy again? Mali na iyo dahil nasaktan na ako ng isang beses dahil sa iisang lalaki. It’s no longer reasonable kapag nangyari na naman ito. I bet magagalit ang parents ko kapag nalaman nila na may relasyon kami ni Andrei.

“Yes, I understand. You’ve been there and know what happens to me if ever he breaks my heart again. Pero ang hirap kasi he said he was too crazy for me. He said he loves me and I just have to hold onto that and make him crazier towards me, am I right?”

He hugged me. “Yes dear, make him too crazy that he’d die if you leave him. Is that okay? I guess he needs to taste a little dose of his own medicine para naman malaman niya how it was like in your shoes. You’ve been through the thickest.”

“I know, at pakiramdam ko ang landi kasi high school pa lang heartbroken agad ako.”

“Gaga, uso na iyon dati pa.”

I smiled at him and we went downstairs to eat the donuts he brought. I went to the kitchen to prepare some coffee and tea. I began making the coffee when my mom appeared just came home from work.

“Ma!”

“Vickie, sweetie andyan na naman yata ang manliligaw mo ha.” She winked and I laughed. Akalain ba naman ni mommy na manliligaw ko si Romeo? That’s a one sick joke I can never tell her. No one knows na gay siya dito sa Pinas. Sa US lang siya nakakapagladlad kaya naman I make my mouth shut everytime na gusto kong i-correct ang sinasabi niya.

“Ma, he’s a long time friend at may… girlfriend na siya sa US. We’re really close kasi sa iisang circle of friends kami nabibilang. Please, don’t add some color mom.” Then she helped me out with the coffee and tea.

“I hope you find a guy already Vickie. Matanda na kami ng daddy mo at alam mo naman na hindi kami forever na nadito. You’re the only child and we regret na dapat nagkaroon ka ng kapatid. It’s my fault kaya I want you to have someone you can count on.” Then she gave me a weak smile.

“Ma, I will find the right one if he ever really is for me. I know na mali ang nangyari sa akin dahil natakot ako sa lalaki pero, I guess he’ll come along as long as he is the right one for me.” I hugged and brought the coffee out para sa naghihintay kong kaibigan.

Damn they're so right.