Can you feel my heart? // Oliver Sykes fan fic.

Chapter 36: my dad is an alcholic.

Picture: vic Fuentes// tuns out I cant meet them now, they cancelled there tour/VIP and I'm so sad.
Song: snakes start to sing - bmth

1 week till Xmas and It was getting close towards Christmas. I love Christmas it's my favourite holiday of the year. Last Christmas was terrible my dad being an alcoholic ruined it. I mean listen right, so we were all sat round our table, my aunt and uncles were round along with my cousins. We were eating our dinner and my dad was drunk as usual. He spat out his food aggressively on his plate because he didn't like the way the gravy tasted. So he picked up the gravy pot, smacked it against my mums head and it shattered to pieces.
(My great grandfather actually did this to my great nan one time when they were eating dinner) shit😂

Yeah after that we havent seen my aunt, uncle and cousins since last year. To be honest I don't blame them. If I could get away from my father I would.

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"I want you all to make sure you do next weeks homework!" My media teacher yelled excitedly. I sighed shoving my books into my bag and slinging it on my shoulder. We had to wait till the bell rung so I slid out my phone and checked some messages. I looked up and saw Hayley walking towards Tammy. I tried not to make it obvious that I was watching, so every now and then I glanced at my phone. Hayley tapped Tammy's shoulder and her face dropped completely. It was like she had seen a ghost. Hayley handed her something it was a little tiny pocket sized bag. Before I could get a glance at what was inside the bag, she quickly walked off.

Please do not say Hayley's making Tammy deal drugs.
The bell rung and I had a chance to stop and speak to Tammy.
"Hey Tammy wait up!" I yelled.
She turned around looked me straight in the eye but completely ignored me. I felt somewhat slightly upset. Why couldn't she speak to us about this? Or me?

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"Just buy the fluffy hangcuffs every guy likes  the girl to be the dominant one every now and then" Ashley winked.
"I so wanna bleach my ears out" I rolled my eyes and chewed on my ham sandwich.
Ashley and Lucy were discussing on what to buy their boyfriends for Christmas. Whereas I was worrying about Tammy.
Matt joined the table and hugged up to Ashley and straight away they were kissing. Lucy turned to me and laughed.

"Have you noticed anything odd about Tammy recently?" I asked Lucy quietly.
"Not that I know off no, ain't she been with Jordan a lot?" She shrugged.
"I don't know" I sighed rubbing my eyes carefully without trying to fuck up my eyeliner.
I grabbed my phone out and texted Tammy asking if she was okay. Hopefully she'll answer.

"Hey babe" a warm hand touched my arm and sent shivers down my spine. Sat beside me was Oli and god did he look fine today.
"Where have you been? I've been looking for you" he chuckled stroking my hair.
My stomach was filled with butterflies and I felt so goddamn nervous. It's weird we're together but he can still make me feel so nervous.
"Hello?" He waved his hand in front of my face.

"Oh sorry, I was day dreaming" I laughed biting my lip.
"Please don't do that" he smiled helplessly.
"Why?" I said continuing to bite my lip.
"Because it's hot" he moaned laughing.

We spent the rest of our lunch talking to the others about parties and shit. When I noticed Hayley was watching me.
Stood at the end of the cafeteria Hayley was stood there still as anything watching me. watching all of us. I shook my head and glanced back and she was gone. Well that's weird.
I decided to ignore what I saw and just blamed it on my mind, probably playing tricks on me.

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I sat down beside the fire and warmed up on oli's fluffy white rug with Oscar. I feel so warm and happy.
Oli walked in and slumped himself down beside me hugging me. Oscar whimpered and squirmed about. He is such a cute dog I can see why oli's obsessed with him. "You like him?" Oli asked.
"I adore him" I smiled stroking oscars fluffy ears gently.
"Are you sure you're okay after that night with your dad?" Oli asked hugging me tightly.
His scent was stronger today but he smelt amazing as always.

A tear escaped my eye and couldn't help but cry. "I don't know" I said wiping my tears. I hate crying in front of people. It shows how weak and how stupid I am.
"Tell me everything" he whispered gently as he stoked my hair.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because I need to know" he said.

"My dad is an alcoholic and he abuses me" I choked and that was it. I broke down completely.
Oli lifted his head up and he had the most painful expression written all over his face.
Tears and tears ran down my cheeks like there was no tomorrow. My eyes began to sting because how much crying I had done.

"Shhhh" Oli said gently. His voice soothed through my ears.
He wiped my tears with his hands and cupped my face with his two warm hands.
"Tomorrow you will collect your things and you will live with me from now on" Oli said running a hand through his hair.
"What happened? What has he done to you?" He asked angrily. His fists began to clench and anger filled his eyes.

"He's hit me a few times, constantly calls me names, beat me up etc" I sighed tiredly.
"Well I'm putting a stop to this don't worry" he said hugging me tightly trying to calm me and himself down.
I nodded and looked into his eyes. I felt sad but also happy because someone cares. Oli's eyes were filled with sadness and he couldn't stop hugging me.

He moved slightly forward and brushed his finger against my soft lips. He then moves in and crashes his lips against mine. All I can feel is his soft warm lips against mine and I felt complete already. I'm in love with him and I don't want him to leave. "Never leave me" I mumbled against his lips.
I felt him smile against my lips "I promise I won't" and he pulled away looking deeply into my hazel brown eyes yet again. I want to do so much with Oli. I have never met a person who's made me feel complete like this in forever. I love him. I love Oliver Sykes.

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My phone buzzed against the wooden cabinet beside me. I rubbed my eyes and the daylight suddenly hit them. I groaned as they stung my eyes and hit my head back down on the pillow. I don't remember falling asleep last night and I don't remember even going to bed.

"Rise and shine bitch" Oli said opening another set of curtains and danced around in his boxers. I couldn't help myself but laugh.
"Oh I love you" I laughed.
"I love you too, but I've made you breakfast in the kitchen" he said pointing towards the door like a little puppy.
"Alright I'll be there soon" I nodded and he left the room shutting the door.

I picked up my phone and Tammy had messaged me back.
"I'm fine" she replied.
Honestly what? She really isn't okay at all. Like I'm going to fall for the 'I'm fine' bullshit.

Tammy<3:
"Meet me later to talk outside the chippy"

I pressed send immediately and then shoved one of Oli's t-shirts on me and walked out his room. I headed downstairs but to be honest I'm still finding it hard to find my way around this place. It's just so fucking big.
A warming scent filled my nostrils and I began to feel extremely hungry. My belly even started rumbling.

I walked into the kitchen to find a familiar multi coloured figure standing in the room. I smiled at the thought of him and sat down at the table.
"Breakfast my lady" Oli said in a posh voice. I laughed brushing my hair out my face.
Oli placed a white plate in front of me which was filled with golden yellow waffles, with  hundreds of strawberries sprinkled with chocolate sauce.

"Thank you" I smiled and began to tug in.

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Authors note:
Hey guys! Thank you so much for 9k reads! I actually lost track on the days & I was supposed to write a Xmas chapter but I thought Xmas was gonna be like in 3 days but no literally 1 day. Oops😂
I'll see if I can get more than one chapter written tomorrow, it depends on how busy I am. But the Xmas chapters might be delayed I'm sorry! If I don't update tomorrow have an amazing Christmas ❤️