Love is the light scaring Darkness away | CAPTAINSWAN FANFIC

Dark Lust | Chapter 5

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EMMA'S POV

"Robin called... I guess I should be going." Regina said.
It's good to feel again his fingers between mine. His soft skin. His long fingers squeezing mine so tightly.

"I should go too, love." He said.

I wanted him to stay with me tonight.
No pressure.
We all know the next step.
I just wanted him to stay.

"Tomorrow, 8:15 at your car?"
I nodded.
I walked with him towards the door while Regina was still laughing with my mom in the kitchen.
I wanted to invite him to stay.
But maybe he wouldn't want it.

I opened my mouth to ask it but he cut me off. "Night, love."
He kissed me. After a long month - that's the time he told me I was left - I could feel his lips again sucking my bottom lip and kissing it softly.
My hands touched his cheeks and he pulled away.

"Night." I said with a smile and he walked away.

"Sorry Regina. About today."
"It's okay... It was Gold." She grabbed her jacket. "How was it in the dark room?" I found her voice tone a bit sarcastic.

I'm sure it was worse than staying here making out with your loved ones.
I simply walked away and ignored her question.

SNOW'S POV

"Night Regina."
"Is Emma alright?" She asked changing the subject.
"Why wouldn't she be?" I asked now concerned.
"She's acting strange... Just be careful. Emma is still the dark one. You see how Rumple changed when he turned and he had no magic before. Emma had before it and now... It's even worse."
Her phone rang again and she took it of her pocket. "It's Robin again... I have to go."

She picked it up and waved at me and David who had just came here.
"Neal is asleep." He said next to my ear with a sleepy voice.

EMMA'S POV

"Hey kid... Where's the pho-"
"Oh- Killian has it."
I sat on the bed now with my pyjamas on and I looked at Henry with a confused look.

"He came here once... And he saw the photo... I told him he could take it."
I smiled. It was adorable. "He really missed you, you know?"
"Did he?" I smirked.

"Of course. It's true love."
"Whoah kid... You've been reading your story book way too many times."
"You just don't want to say it." he laughed.

We both laid down under the sheets and I turned off the lights.
Then my mother walked in.
"Emma are you alright?"
"Yeah why wouldn't I be?" I said with a sleepy voice.
"Nothing... Night."
"Night."

Next day

KILLIAN'S POV

My phone rang.
I woke up and noticed it was already morning.
Emma.

"Morning, Swan. Up so soon?" I smirked.
"Killian... I-I need your help."
"Where are you?!"
"I'm right at the docks."

I grabbed my leather pants and I quickly put them on.
I stayed with my grey t-shirt and ran outside.

Getting off the ship I saw a nervous Emma grabbing the dagger in one hand.
I let out a sigh of releaf. She was okay.

"Emma what is it?!" I said out of breath.
"I need you to stay with this." She said quickly giving me the dagger.
"Wha-Why?!"
"Because I had a nightmare last night. It keeps happening. It's like every night I go back to the dark room and I rewatch over and over again your deaths. And I-I-I woke up and everyone seemed so annoying and I yelled..." She couldn't stop sobbing. "I yelled to Henry. I feel different. I am different. It just felt right at the moment and then I noticed I screwed up it all. Then my parents tried to help me and I just yelled and ran off to here and I don't know what's happening to me I just can't..." She couldn't speak anymore because the tears didn't let her.

I leaned to her and placed my arms around her.
"Please use the dagger whenever I'm out of control." She whispered with sobs into my ears.
"I won't control you." I said squeezing her more.

I felt her warm cheek touching my neck. Her chin upon my shoulder. Her breaths on my neck. And her cold tears falling upon my shirt.

I pulled away grabbing her arms.
She looked at me and started laughing embaressed with all this and looked down.
"I'm sorry I just- I don't know what walked into me." She said wiping her tears.
"It's okay, Swan. I don't blame you... All this bloody thing lately has been hard to you."

She looked at me and smiled.
I cuped her cheek with my good hand.
"If I keep it... Will you feel better?" I said looking at the dagger in her hand.
She nodded.
I sighed and grabbed it.
"Let's take a coffee. Let me just leave it in the ship."
"Thank you." She said with a smile.

I placed my arm around her hips. And we walked towards the ship.

"You've been here once... Before you were even born." I said.
"It was steamy downstairs..." She smirked and I looked at her making her blush.

We walked downstairs and I kept the subject.
I wanted her to unserstand there were no pressures between us.
"Sorry about that, love... You know I'm not that man anymore."
"Yeah I know." She said behind me and I turned around to look at her.

"What is it?"
"I just don't want you to think that you're like that." I said looking at her eyes.
"Like what?"
"Like just another woman to me..."
She looked at me not expecting this answer.

"I've changed. You changed me. And don't ever think I'm with you just- I want to be with you because I love you and you make me this-this handsome man with love, happy and handsome again." I joked a bit to not make this moment too awkward.

"You said it." she smiled.
"Said what?"
"You said it back."

Then I realized what she was talking about.
I said it without even notice. I guess it's because I'm always saying it in my mind.

I smiled. Now nervous. Without knowing what would be her reaction. And without knowing what to say or do.

She took a step forward.
Her eyes never moving away from mine.
She cuped my cheek and then her hand slid to my ear and then my hair.

I placed my hands on her back.
And then we kissed.
Slowly.
Our lips looked like fragile glass. One single wrong move and it would break.

I focused more on her bottom lip. Kissing it while she kissed my top lip.
Suddenly her lips started moving to the corner of my mouth.

She then kissed my neck.
We started walking not stoping the kisses and when I reached the table I left the dagger on there.

Her hands started taking off my grey t-shirt.
I know what's about to happen.

"What are you doing, Swan?" I whispered between kisses.
Once my chest was completly exposed we fell on the bed "You know exactly what I'm doing." she whispered.

I raised my eyebrow while she looked at me up and down with a smile.
She looked back at me.
And that's when I realize it.

Her face was white. Red circles around her eyes.
Her hair darker than before.

"Are you alright, love?" I sat on the bed.
"Let's just finish this." she said and pulled me down again.

She started kissing me deeply.
"Emma, let's try another time... Y-You need to solve the things with your family."
"Shhh" she whispered against my lips.

She then sat on top of me.
"Emma I don't want this. Not now." I finally said and it made her stop.

"W-What?" she breathed disappointedly.
"I-It's like it isn't you."
"Y-You said you loved me!"
"And I do!"
"So why don't you just fuck me?!"

This shocked me.
"Emma... what the hell?..." I breathed.
"Is it all because of her? Milah? You're not over her?"

She got up and shook her head.
"I gotta go." she said and left.

This is getting bad. Really bad. This isn't Emma.