You Are The One For Me (Completed)

Chapter40:DAY-244

01/02/19

FRIDAY

JANA

"Do you love Noah?" Ryan asks, staring deep into my eyes in the darkness as we sit in the car. I freeze in my place. My lips quivering not able to reply. "Tell me, Jana," he places his hand over my shoulder, getting closer to me.

"I... don't know," I stammer. A drop of tear falls from my eyes. Why am I even crying?

"Why you don't know?" Ryan raises his voice as he shakes my shoulder in anger.

I gasp as I wake up. I immediately sit on my bed, panting for breath. Why the same dream again? I switch on the bedside lamp and grab a bottle from the table. I gulp half the bottle of water in a go. I sigh. Why do I have this dream every day? What's wrong with me?

I lay back on my bed again, eyes wide open. I don't think I can sleep again. After Serah's birthday night I wanted to ask Ryan about what he said, but I couldn't bring it up. People say things on their minds when they are drunk.

But... what if he doesn't remember? Do I have to bring it up again? Won't it be awkward? Did Ryan really feel that I love Noah? Do I love...? No! I don't. Oh god! I was just rambling because I was so happy that I got Noah back... as a friend. That was it! Ryan just misunderstood. There is nothing between Noah and me. I will talk about this with Ryan today itself, I can't handle it anymore.

I close my eyes, hoping this will be the last night with the same dream.

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I

hop into Ryan's car, trying to look happy even after knowing it's his last day at school. "Good morning, Ryan," I wish with a smile.

"Morning Jana," he wishes back. "Don't give me that fake smile."Oops! He knows me well. "I know how much you will miss me at school, but... don't you remember telling me that we should enjoy the present moment?" He asks.

I nod, "You are right." I shouldn't be a hypocrite!

He nods me to buckle my seatbelt. "But you can show the real emotion, doesn't fake happiness."

"I just didn't want to let you down," I reply as I buckle up.

"It's fine. I understand Jana," he pauses. "So make me happy! So I have lots of memories to think of when I leave the town," he cheers me up.

"Sure," I immediately take Ryan's hand in mine and squeezes. I will miss going to school with him. I will miss him a lot!

Ryan starts the engine. "So how many couple goals left?"

"There's many more. We have only done one," I inform.

"Oh... yeah. So we can do one by one," he suggests.

"Mr. Ryan, do you know that from today onwards you have a study leave and not a vacation?" I questions.

"But-" "You have to take it seriously as to get into your dream college," I cut him off. "I know-" "I don't want to distract your studies. There's barely a month left," I cut him again.

He sighs, "Please don't cut me off again." I giggle as I nod in agreement, keeping my finger on my lips, nodding him to continue. "We will make a deal then."

He always makes deals. Usually, it's hugs and kisses. What is it about now? "Okay... what kind of deal?" I ask, unsure about what's on his mind.

"We will meet twice a week and can do couple goals so we won't miss each other so much," he comes up with the idea quickly.

"Cut it down to one," I say, sternly. Ryan pouts like a kid, waiting for me to change my opinion. "We have plenty of time after our exams. But for now, the exam is the most important thing. Is that a deal?"