Kabanata 49)
Sometimes you were handed a second chance, and all you had to do was close your eyes and step into it.
--Jean Oram, (Champagne and Lemon Drops)--
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Zea POV
He never change. Basagulero parin ang asawa ko. Now I know how Mom panic nang mabalitaan nitong nakipag-patayan ito sa bar ni Nicholas, his cousin. Kaya naman agad ako nilang tinawagan para patahanin ang asawa ko. Nag-eskandalo kamo ito sa bar at pati ang mga pinsang kasama nito ay natatakot na sa maaaring mangyari at hindi siya kayang paamuhin.
Mom was almost crying nang tawagan ako sa telephone para pakiusapang puntahan at paamuhin ang asawa.
Kusa na akong pumunta dahil ayokong may mangyaring masama sa kanya. Still the concern as his wife is there. Kahit papano ay mahal ko parin ang gagong yon no matter how worst could have been.
The crowd was there, na parang may pinapanood na live show. Mabilisan akong lumapit dahil hindi na ako mapakali sa subrang kaba.
Nic and Darren was struggling for convincing him to stop what he's doing. May binugbog na naman siguro itong walang kalaban-laban sa kanya. At hindi ako nagkamali when I saw him na sinuntok yong parang walang huwisyong lalaki. Napasigaw ang karamihan lalong lalo na ang mga babae.
"Nathaniel!"
I shouted nang makita kong susuntukin na naman niya yong lalaki.
The high pitch of my voice makes almost everyone got disturb of what's they're observing for. Halos lahat ng mga tao napalingon sa akin.
Galit ko siyang tiningnan sa mga mata. Bigla siyang naalarma. I can see the familiarity of that looks. I can sense he's scared if I'll get mad of what he did. Still my poor husband.
Lumapit ako and I easily grab his arms.
"What do you think you're doing huh?"
I tried not to louder my voice coz I don't want everyone here will get notice. In my face right now I knew I looked like sadist wife to my husband because of the deathly glares I thrown to him.
"Come here."
Para naman itong maamong tupa na sumunod sa akin. I knows he's still mad at nasa stage pa siyang nagpipigil ng kanyang galit.
Alam ko naman kung paano siya pakalmahin kaya mabilis ko siyang niyakap at hinalik-halikan saang parte ng kanyang adonis na mukha.
"I told you not to hurt anyone else. Please have self-control."
May himig na paninermon kong pagsasalita. His eyes that storm in madness a while ago turn into a soft side of him. He's beginning to restrain his temper. I cup his face gently. Gusto ko siyang pagalitan pero mas nangingibabaw ang pag-unawa ko sa sitwasyon niya. Nakatitig lang siya sa mga mata ko.
"I already told you. Are you drunk?"
I hissed. He looked at me frowning. Binabasa niya kung ano ang iniisip ko.
I sighed.
Walang mangyayari kung magtitigan lang kami buong araw.
"Let's go home. "
I grab his hand and pulled him out in the bar. Hindi naman ito umimik at nagreklamo.
Wala kaming kibo sa kotse hanggang makarating sa mansyon. Buti na lang natutulog na si Nathan. Pansamantala ko munang iniwan ang dalang kotse sa private parking lot ng bar. Tutal VIP member naman ang asawa ko besides si Nicholas ang may-ari nun.
Were sleeping in a different rooms. Ako ang gumagamit sa masters bedroom. At siya nagtitiis sa guest room. Ganun kasi ang pinag-usapang set up namin.
Hinila ko siya sa kwarto para makausap ng mahinahon.
"Mom called me dahil napaaway ka daw. My God with you Nathaniel! Hindi mo ba naiisip na may sakit ang Mommy? Your ridiculous, umiinum ka't nakikipagbasag-ulo. What's happening with you? "
I crossed my arms in his front at pinagalitan siya. Nagbuga siya ng hangin bago nagsalita.
"It wasn't my fault, he provoked me to hurt him."
He reasoned out. And I laugh in sarcasm.
"Narinig ko na ang dahilan mong yan noon. Kung hindi ako dumating baka nawalan na ng buhay ang lalaking yon. "
He snorted. He looked at me with irritation in his eyes.
"Sino ba ang kinakampihan mo? Ako o ang lalaking yon?"
Again he's being unreasonable and it's so damn frustrating.
I didn't talk. I was just glaring at him. He come closer. I jerked when he grab me suddenly and give me a mind blowing kiss.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. But then I enjoyed the kiss. It was intimidating.
Tinitigan niya ako ng matagal. There's something in that stares. I ignored it and I looked at him blankly.
"Dumating na sa akin ang papers ng annulment."
There was long paused after he said that. I shook my head. May pait at lungkot sa boses niya which made me confused in myself at the same time. Bakit masakit para sa akin ang magdesisyon na maghiwalay kami?
"So itutuloy mo?"
There's pain in his voice when he asked that, again I was aghast in myself for making sudden decisions. Naghain na ako ng annulment for us to be free with each other.
Walang kibo ko siyang tinitigan. Hindi ko alam kung itutuloy ko ba. Nakausap ko ang abogado kahapon at ganun din ang tanong nito sa akin.
May bahid na pait ang mga titig nito. I looked away. I had never seen that kind of regrets before. I took a deep breath before I speak with a heavy heart.
"Siguro. Hindi ko alam."
I shook my head trying to hide the confusion and pain.
Bumuga siya ng mabigat na hangin. Lumapit siya at napatalon ang puso ko nang biglang hawakan nito ang chin ko. He's staring at me intensely, sinusuri ang kaibuturan ng aking nararamdaman.
"Tell me Zea, yun ba talaga ang gusto mo?"
I can feel his hot breath na tumatama mukha ko. I gulped. Hindi na ako makagalaw sa subrang lapit ng aming katawan. Our eyes locked. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang ibig-sabihin ng mga titig nito. I was captured with that looks.
Napaawang ang bibig ko. I don't know how to answer him and I don't know if that's what I want.
"Hmmmm.. "
My throat went to dry. Nanatili lang akong nakatitig sa kanyang mga mata. His eyes were longing for me. It was as if he's been missing a lot of me for almost five years away.
I shook my head kasabay ng pagtulo ng luhang hindi ko alam kung saan nanggagaling. Mabilis kong pinahid yon. But to my surprise bigla na lamang akong niyakap nito.
"I'm stupid. I know andami ko ng pagkukulang at pagkakamali sayo. I was always making you cry many times before at alam kong napakahirap na sayo ang magpatawad. I'm sorry for everything Zea. I know it isn't enough but if ever you give me a chance to show you how much I regretted for leaving you without giving----"
He paused, took a deep breath and looking straight to my eyes. I was lost with that stares. My tears won't stop falling and he 's wiping it softly na para bang isa akong babasaging crystal na dapat ingatan.
"Without giving you right reason about it. I'm a worst person you'd ever knew. I was blinded by my own insecurities. I am fool. But this fool man is still crazily inlove with you."
Oh.
That was touching. Do I have to forgive and forget everything just to get back with him and be happy? I admit na masyado akong nagpakahina at hanggang ngayon hindi man lang nabawasan ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. I am still inlove with my husband. As the days passing by I'd realized that mas lalo kong naiisip ang kapakanan ng pamilyang ito. Ang pagmamahal at ang pagnanais mabuo ang pamilya. Pero andun parin ang takot. Ang takot na sumubok muli. Madali lang naman ang magpatawad pero mahirap makalimot. At higit sa lahat ang tiwala. Natatakot na akong muling masaktan at tuluyan ng marugmok.
I closed my eyes, ang init na hatid ng kanyang daliri ay naglalakbay sa buo kong katawan.
Then I met his intense stares. He dipped his head on me and kiss me softly and romantically. I slowly put my arms on his nape and pulled him closer to mine.
The soft kiss turns to hunger and eager. His naughty hands was traveling everywhere in my vulnerable body..while kissing intensely. I tip toed just to get closer over him. I'm holding my breath and I don't want this moment to end.
Binuhat niya ako while removing my dress. The excitement is killing me. I couldn't think straight anymore coz all I want to do is to to be with him tonight. I miss him so bad. I missed his touch and I miss how he make love to me like I am the only woman who can make him crazy in bed and can make his sexually satisfied.
Everything.
I unbutton his polo and threw it unceremoniously. He's kissing my earlobe while his hand was busy doing business over there. I moan in pleasures coz it brings too much kiliti to all my senses. It's shivering to my spine. How I wanted this man so bad.
"Nathaniel.. please."
I begged helplessly. I want him to claim me now because I can't hold it any longer. I'm hardly biting my lip. His lips travels to the valley of my breast. Napaliyad ako. I cried his name over and over again while he's enjoying taking me to the ecstasy of lust and pleasure.
He lick my nipple with his expert tongue, he's definitely teasing me.
Then he sucked it repeatedly with equal lust, pleasures and full of compassion. He's sucking it like a baby wanting his mother's milk hungrily. I fought so hard not to lose myself but it did. I am completely giving myself to him without doubts and burning desires.
His lips stop at my midriff. Wala ng mapaglagyan ang kapusukang nadarama ko.
I took a chance to gaze his position. He's half naked wearing only his boxer. I got rid of his brief, throwing it carelessly on the floor as he's dipping his head giving me a little and sensitive kisses down to my lower body. My breath grew heavy as he deepen the kiss with so much passion.
He's lips was moving up again. He looked at me with his eyes flooded with intense lust and desires. Then he slowly continue torturing me by licking and sucking my erect nipples that made me moan out loud.
"Your so beautiful dearest wife. "
His rough voice filled with lust. It's turning me on and on. It feels like my lungs were running out of air to breathe.
His lips went lower, dipping his tongue in my navel, kissing me teasingly that could make my body jerk in sensations.
Until his lips reach to the lower and private part of my body. My mouth draw a big 'O' coz of what he did. He licked and sucked it over and over again, that could perfectly make me fall to the edge of the cliff. I spread my legs widely. I crumpled his hair to regain strength. The whole thing was totally different than the love scenes we had before. These are hungers and full of passion and lust than the usual that we shared. I feel like were united.
I scream his name as he twisted his tongue inside, drawing pleasures to my body. I tried to open my eyes and watched his head burried in between my legs, and the sight alone was enough to drive me to the highest level of ecstasy.
I'm moist... so much.
I could no longer hold it up as I felt the familiar ache building in my body and burned me in the fire of pleasures that brings me to climax. I arched my back and shouted his name.
"Nathaniel!"
I grip the bed sheets as my body falls in exhaustion.
I helplessly lie my body and find air to breathe. Were both panting and flaming with the heat we shared.
He rolled to my side and pulled me closer to him.
"I love you, Zea. I could be the worst person if your not with me. Please give me a chance."
I close my eyes tightly. I know that voice, I am always tempted with that everytime. Its hard for me to say yes coz I already made my choice. But it's harder to say NO coz I love him so much. I had this feelings of fears might losing him forever without giving him a chance. I don't want to disappppoint him either.
I nodded my head slowly and hugged him tightly as I could.
"I love you wife. I love you so much."
That's what my heart wanted to hear. I felt like it melted with his words. I'm speechless.
"I love you too.. Nathaniel."
We will working it out. We married because we were meant to each other at yon ang panghahawakan ko ngayon.
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Pasensya na po sa one week na walang update. I tried to manage my time but it didn't work out coz loaded of works and etc. I almost had 3hrs to 5hrs of sleep. Huhuhu..
Enjoy your Christmas! Mwah..
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