Jake POV
Time jump since this is the last chapter before the epilogue!
Song is perfect for this and lyrics are as followed...
Well, I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain't no healing
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge
I'm telling you that
It's never that bad
Take it from someone who's been where you're at
Laid out on the floor
And you're not sure
You can take this anymore
So just give it one more try
To a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell
I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
'Cause I have faith in you
That you're gonna make it through another night
Stop thinking about
The easy way out
There's no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you're not done
You're far too young
And the best is yet to come
So just give it one more try
To a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell
I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Well, everybody's hit the bottom
And everybody's been forgotten
When everybody's tired of being alone
Yeah, everybody's been abandoned
And left a little empty-handed
So if you're out there barely hanging on
Just give it one more try
To a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell
I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Well, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
It's been a few years since Connor has been home and it has been hard. He used to wake up screaming and thrashing around on the bed, has ripped his IV's out, his bag in his belly and the tube in his bladder so he had to go back into surgery a few times because he would harm himself when he would do that. Scott had to sedate him quite a bit because of how he reacted when he woke up but I wished he didn't, Connor looked like he was fighting the demons in his sleep and wasn't getting rest, I hated seeing my baby boy like that.
I discovered the people who took him were from the same pack that came to challenge me and I killed one of their warriors so they had planned revenge on me by taking my son.
A couple were human and the rest wolves so Scott had to do an HIV test on Connor since we have no idea what all he went through or who hurt him.
I cried when I read the positive result, I cried so bad I stopped breathing and had to have a breathing tube in for a bit until I woke up because I passed out from not being able to breath.
When I was ok I ordered my brothers and their mates to stay in Connor's room and I went on a rampage and killed the Alpha and Beta that Jayden had brought back for questioning but it didn't get that far, once I found out my son was sick, there was no way I was letting them live.
I sent their heads to the pack with a note and sent my warriors and a few trackers over with the heads and had them kill the whole pack. I didn't give a flying fuck if they were innocent, innocent meaning not harming Connor physically but they knew he was there and were just as guilty as the rest so I didn't let them live.
Once I got word they were dead I told them to bring the pups home, I wouldn't kill children I'm not that cruel and they have adjusted well here.
A little boy who has befriended Connor, told me he has helped Connor the best he could and he is a sweet little boy, his name is Issac and he is twelve and he has been by Connor's side since he got here after settling in, just being close to Connor for anything he may need. They are the same age so it's sweet to see Issac be like a mother hen type to Connor.
Issac
Connor
I only left the room that one time and I knew I needed to handle my pack but at the time, my son needed me more. I have let him down in the worst ways possible and I won't do it again. Sawyer was right beside me for the most part, he would leave to help Jayden when he needed it because they all knew, I wouldn't leave that room.
"Ahhhhh stop, stop hurting me! Leave me alone please!! It hurts!" Connor screams out and opens his eyes and fights at nothing, just the air but with his nightmares, he isn't in the right mind set.
"Shhh it's ok son, you are safe. You are home and they can't hurt you anymore. I swear you are safe." I said trying to reach out to him but he doesn't let me touch him.
He doesn't let anyone touch him, he screams in pain when we try so we stopped. It hurts knowing my own son doesn't want me to touch him, to soothe him, to help him. I don't know what to do, I feel so lost and useless when I know my son needs help. I just want to be able to hold him like I used to, to hug him and kiss his cheek and forehead, for him to feel my love for him. I feel like a failure as a father.
He hasn't gotten better, he has night terrors more so than nightmares and at times he thinks they are here or he is there even though when he's awake he knows he's safe, it's when he sleeps he feels unsafe and is scared.
We have tried to get him to talk to a doctor about it but he won't say a word, he just sits there and they talk to him. He doesn't socialize with others, he doesn't talk to anyone but Issac and if it's urgent or important, Issac will tell me. He doesn't eat with us, he eats in his room.
He won't leave the suite, to scared he will get hurt again. He also feels ashamed due to his body and the tube and bag, I told him he doesn't need to be but he doesn't listen, he's a preteen boy going through changes and I can understand how he feels so I don't push it, I want him to be comfortable.
I know once he shifts he will be healed and healthy but that's not for a few more years. I just wish I could take his place, take his pain and his shame he feels toward himself away and have my sweet energetic little boy back but he is so lost, I won't be surprised if he never returns. Eight years is a long time to find your way back, especially when you were so young when you were taken away from your life and all you know.
I just hope and pray that my beautiful son does come back to me, come back to his family who love him and want to help him and be there for him, as I told him before, I am not going anywhere and I will never let him down again.
This is it, the last chapter of A Bond That Lasts, I hope you enjoyed this book! Next up is the epilogue so be on the look out for it!
Marissa.