"Don't you know how to knock?" I scowl at him at tinuloy ko ng hubarin yung shirt na suot ko. I'm facing my back at him.
I'm only wearing my bra and panties in front of him. Jeez.
"What the hell is that? Kanina ko pa gustong tanungin yan." he points at my back.
We just slept together last night but he didn't see maybe because the light was dim and I was covered in the morning.
"Tattoo ba yan? Kailan pa yan? What does that mean?" pagtatanong niya sa akin at parang hindi pa rin makapaniwala.
Yeah, I got a tattoo.
"It's a black Arabic tattoo that means "love yourself first." And I've had this two years ago when I went to LA for a dance competition." I explained to him.
"It's not that bad. Meron ka rin and it's showing under your arm." Sabi ko pa.
Yeah, he's got one too. Sa biceps niya, nakatago nga lang. It's a leaf which he got when he was 18, kung tama yung recall ko sa sinabi niya sa akin noon.
He just sighed in defeat, I think at least.
"May mga tattoo ka pa ba diyan na kailangan 'kong makita o ano?"
"Just this. I was planning on piercing my tongue though." I smirk. Pangaasar ko sa kanya. I know he wouldn't like that at ayoko rin naman eh.
"Don't even try." He points at me.
I giggled at him.
"Wag mo nga 'kong tawanan ng ganyan." Suway niya sa akin.
"You're funny."
"Stop it." He says but I don't. I just laughed at him and was shocked when he grabbed me by the waist and kisses me.
It's like it's a response mechanism that I'm responding to his kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pushing him unto me.
Of course I'll respond to his kiss.
I grabbed the hem of his shirt and took it off of him, breaking the kiss for a split second.
"Pinagpapawisan ka." I tell him because my hands are on his chest.
"I think I need a shower too," he smiles down at me.
I kiss him again and directed him into the bathroom.
He removes his jeans and underpants off without breaking our kiss.
Pagkatanggal niya ng mga yun, ibinaba niya rin yung mga halik niya sa akin. He carried me to the sink, unclipped my bra and started kissing me down to my jaw, neck, to my breasts... cupping and sucking each one.
"Aah.." I moan as he sucks one of my breasts.
He pulled away and looked at me.
"Beautiful, as always..." He kisses me one more time as he lowers his right hand to my inner thighs.
This is fucking turning me on.
"I missed this with you," He tells me between our kiss as pulls off my panties.
Once done, he massages my clit...
"Ohh, Kev.." I moan. Is he the sexmaster?
He inserts one of his fingers into me... in and out... still massaging my clit.
I tilt my head back. This is so intense... just as I'm near he withdraws.
"Not yet baby. Here." Alok niya ng kamay niya sa akin para makatayo ako.
He leads me to the shower as he lets the water flow onto our bodies.
Nasa likod ko siya, my back is facing him. I'm in front of him.
Inabot niya yung shower gel sa harap ko, pinatay niya yung shower, he squirted shower gel enough to his palm and he applied it to my body, starting to my neck, down to my shoulders, my back, to my breasts... to my waist... oh.
I kept my eyes closed, this is relaxing. Having him do this to me.
He kissed my neck at bumulong sa tenga ko, "my turn."
I smiled, of course. Humarap ako sa kanya at kinuha yung shower gel. I did the same to him. From his neck to his waist. His waist is muscular too, that V-shaped though? He's too hot. Napapabilis yung paghinga ko.
Inangat ko naman yung tingin ko sa kanya only to see he's staring at me.
Wala na siyang sinabi at binuhat niya ako.
He pinned me to the wall, across the shower and kissed me aggressively.
My arms on his neck, his arms under my thighs. I was surprised when he shows me a foil packet.
Wow. Seriously? I didn't see him holding that a while ago. But it's a good thing he has that.
He gave it to me, I tear it open and rolled the condom in his length.
Once done, he looked down on me as if he's asking for permission. Why would he ask me permission? We've done it before, didn't we?
I kiss him as an answer, he deepened the kiss as he enters me.
I winced in pleasure and in pain. It's not the first time, we've done it many times before but it seems like the feeling is alien to me again. Well, it's been 3 years and since I was wasted last night I wasn't aware of how good it feels of him around me... God.
"So fucking tight." he groans.
He moved out of me and slams into me again as I adjusted to the alien feeling. 3 years is a long time, indeed.
As he moves, he also gets faster. I tilt my head back in pleasure.
"Aah.." I moan and kiss him.
I'm pinned to the wall, having sex with the man that I love, with the man that I haven't seen for three long years, this feeling, sensation, desire, lust, affection, longing and need...
He continues thrusting to me, faster and harder...
He nuzzles my neck as I tilt my head to the side, he sucks my collarbone and the sensitive part there.
"Aaaahhh," I moan louder. That combining feeling sends shiver through me and I like it.
I can't take it any longer, my legs started shaking, my inner body's responding...
"Kev..." I moan his name at the same time that he moaned my name and I come around him.
He moans my name as he comes.
We're out of breaths. I'm still pinned to the wall, my head in his shoulders, his head in my neck.
"I love you..." I whisper to him and I feel him freeze at that phrase.
I do love him, really really love him.
He didn't respond when I tell him that and something deep in my heart hurts but I just shook it off. I don't want to spoil this moment.
He pulls out of me and he just smiled, like a forced smile? I don't know but I smiled back.
After showering, he changed into his former clother and I grabbed my shorts and I wore his shirt again. I don't know, I just love wearing his shirt.
"Why are you wearing that again?" he asked me referring to his shirt.
I shrugged, "I just like it." And smiled at him.
I saw his lips turn into smile too. Oh you like me wearing your shirt too.
Lumabas na kami ng kwarto at nagpunta ng living room.
He continued with his work using my laptop while I just lay there, leaning on his shoulders, reading a book. He's working like a robot, no ending. He's only 22 and he's achieved so much. Well, that has happened in like three years later.
But thinking over what we did a while ago, I'll always choose brunch, bathroom sex, him working and me reading than any other things any day.
"Reena," tawag niya sa'kin.
"Yeah?"
"Never mind." he sighed.
"What is it? Come on, you can ask me anything." I tell him.
"It's been going through my head for a time now. Uh... Hindi ka naman...uh..." nag he-hesitate siyang tanungin ako.
"Come on Kev, spill."
"Hindi ka naman nakipag-sex sa iba nung nasa New York ka?" deretso at medyo mabilis na tanong niya.
Nagulat ako sa tanong niya kaya napasagot ako agad.
"Of course not!"
At parang huminga siya ng malalim.
"Good." he dismisses the subject.
"I can't believe you just asked me that." I shake my head at hindi na kami nagsalita pa ulit.
I'm reading If I stay by Gayle Forman when someone ringed at the door.
Tumayo ako at binuksan yung pinto only to see Andy there.
What is she doing here?
"Hi," she greets me smiling.
"Hey," I smiled back at her.
"Nagpunta ako sa inyo pero sabi ni Tita nandito ka raw, and you moved?"
"Yeah, I did. Uhm, what are you doing here?" I ask her.
"Well... I just wanted a closure. I'm going back to Australia in two weeks and I want to clear the misunderstanding I caused." She tells me.
Eh? Aalis na siya ulit? Why? And yeah, misunderstanding.
"Do you wanna come in first?" aya ko naman sa kanya at tumabi para makapasok siya.
Oh, wait. Kevin's here.
"Uhm... Andy, Kevin's at the living room." Pahabol ko sa kanya bago pa siya makapasok ng tuluyan.
"It's fine. I'd like to apologize to him too. Actually, I was expecting him here since wala siya sa condo niya." sabi niya.
She went to his condo? Oh, does she always go to his condo? Hindi ko namamalayan, nakakunot na pala yung noo ko but I have to compose myself.
"Uh, okay."
"But I'd like to talk to you first." Sabi niya.
Talk to me first, okay. I'd like that.
I directed her towards the bedroom without telling Kev that Andy's here. Hindi niya naman tinanong o napansin niya pa kaya na may nag doobell? He's busy working so...
Nung nasa loob na kami nagsalita siya.
"I'm sorry sa nakita mo kahapon. Pinilit ko lang si Kevin na samahan ako sa mall." She confesses.
"Do you like him?" I blurted out. Well, mas okay nang tanungin ko.
"I more than like him, Reena." She directly said na hindi ko na ikinagulat. I expected that.
Hindi naman ako nagsalita.
"I tried my best to win him, but I can't. I did everything a guy would like a girl to do for him but he won't look at me like he looks at you." she adds.
"Andy..." I sympathize for her. I know that feeling which I felt too with Kevin a few years back.
"Ree, it's fine. I know. I'm just a masochist for even expecting him to like me." She sighed.
"Well, that's all. Let's go out before I cry my heart out." She sarcastically laughed.
Hindi naman na ako nagsalita at lumabas na kami papunta ng living room. I know she's leaving because she's running away too. Like I did three years ago. What she's dealing with is hard.
"Kev, Andy's here." I tell him.
Lumingon naman siya, nilapag yung laptop sa center table.
"Hey, anong ginagawa mo dito?" He greets and I can see him being uncomfortable.
"Hi, uhm. I just wanted to tell you that I'm leaving for Australia in two weeks." She tells him and he frowns.
"Why?" he asked. And I felt it there, I'm not needed in this conversation.
"Iwan ko muna kayo." Paalam ko naman at nagpunta na ako ng kwarto.
Magpapaalamanan na lang naman sila eh. I don't feel that happy that my girl best friend is leaving but it will just be complicated for us three if she stays here. I mean, I won't give Kevin up because I can't. Not anymore. It's her letting go and she needs it. I'm not being selfish here. Tingnan mo na lang, nasa unit ko ngayon si Kevin, not with other girls and I want it that way. I want him to go only to my apartment not to any other apartment.
I can't let go this time... actually, to be honest, I didn't let him ago, never. For the past three years he was just always inside my heart. Always... no matter what I do, my heart can't and won't let him go.