im so so sorry i’ve been MIA i suck i know but im back and with an update so enjoy :~)
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[Kellin's POV]
Walking into the doctor’s office, I was as nervous as can be. My palms where sweaty, not to mention shaky. I felt like everyone was judging me, eyeing me with they’re misunderstanding eyes, which made me even more nervous. The only person keeping me sane was Vic, who was sitting right next to me, I was a mess.
We were at a therapist’s office, the guidance counselor at my school thought it was the best option. You see, yesterday Vic and I were thinking about how we were going to find me a doctor to go to, and he suggested going to the guidance counselor at our school for help. I was reluctant, mostly for the reason I don’t want even more people knowing about my personal life.
Anyways, we talked to her and she let us know we have to go to a therapist to get evaluated before they can diagnose me. She gave us a local therapist’s office to go to, and then the next day we’re here. The best part about this whole thing is that we don’t have to tell my Uncle, as long as I pay for the sessions, it can stay a secret.
Right now I was currently filling out paperwork the receptionist lady gave me. I was on the last page when a middle aged lady walked up to me and spoke.
“Are you Kellin?”
“Yes..” I said hesitantly.
“Hi Kellin, I’m Phillis, and I’ll be your new therapist.” She paused to shake my hand. “When you’re done there have Laura send you back to me, and we can go over some stuff to get you more comfortable with being here.” She said sweetly. She seemed like a nice lady, I was glad she was working with me.
“Okay.” I said with a smile.
“Alrighty, I’ll see you then.”
“Wait,” I said before she walked away, “can my boyfriend come back?”
“That’d be lovely. What’s your name sweetheart?”
“Vic.” He said charmingly with a smile.
“Well it’s nice to meet you Vic, I’ll be seeing both of you soon.” We both smiled with a nod and then she walked back into the back where I assume her office was located.
"Well she seems nice." Vic said.
“Yeah, she does.” I answered
After I finished my papers – which was like 3 minutes later – I handed them to the receptionist so she could check them and then I was led back into her office.
“Kellin!” She said with a bright smile, “Take a seat, please.” She moved out of the way of the door, and let us in. I had knocked instead of just barging in.
The whole session was basically getting to know each other, what my age was, why I’m here, if I played any sports, hobbies, pets, family life. All of that stuff and more. I was really nervous in the beginning, but after a while I loosened up and got semi-comfortable talking to her, plus Vic was here and he helped.
“So tell me about your Uncle. You live with him, right?”
I nodded.
“What’s your relationship like with him?” Hearing that made me really nervous all over again because I didn’t want to lie, but I felt like I had to. Sure, I didn’t like being in my Uncles care, but I wasn’t living with him anymore and I like my life the way it is now. If I tell her about the abuse and rape, chances are I’ll be taken away and put in foster care, also taking me away from Vic, something I couldn’t handle.
“Um, things are good. He’s a nice guy, so yeah.”
“Kell, don’t lie.” Vic spoke up out of nowhere. That’s the first time he’s spoken this whole session besides answering questions. Who does he think he is? I’m lying for us. What’s wrong with him?
I shot him a death glare, then looked back to Phillis to be met with her curious eyes.
“If you don’t want to talk about your Uncle yet you don’t have to. It’s okay sweetie.”
“Thank y-“
“No, I think he should talk about him. I mean he’s the whole reason why we’re here.” Vic interrupted me.
At this point my blood was boiling, who the hell does he think he is interrupting me during my therapy session, and making me talk about something I don’t want to talk about?
Phillis looked at me expectantly, which made me even more nervous than I already was. So I did the only reasonable thing I could think of.
“I think our time is up for the day.” I said, then got up and high tailed it out of there to the car. Not long after, Vic came out started the car to drive home. It was an awkward silence, because I was too mad to speak and I’m sure Vic is thinking of the right thing to say to start this obvious fight that’s about to happen.
Sure enough, I was right when he spoke. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
“Don’t.” I seethed, feeling as if I was going to explode if he didn’t stop.
“Don’t ‘don’t’ me. What’s your problem?”
“My problem is I have a nosey ass boyfriend who likes to butt into my business. Who the hell do you think you are trying to make me talk about something I don’t want to talk about? Especially when the consequences are as serious as they are?!”
“I’m trying to protect you, you and I both know that you being in your Uncles care is extremely risky, and goddammit I’m gonna do everything in my power at the moment to make sure you’re taken away from him while I still have the chance.”
Hearing that just made me even madder, and I raised my voice so I was practically screaming. “I don’t know why you think you can just come in my life and make decisions for me! Do you know what will happen if I’m taken away from my Uncle? I’ll more than likely be put into a group home or foster care and we’ll be separated. Do you want that to happen?!”
“I would rather that happen then you get raped again.” He said, sounding just as mad as I was.
“Just stop!”
”Stop what?!"
“Stop trying to fucking protect me! I’m fine, I don’t need your fucking help nor do I need your goddamn protection!”
“Fine if that’s the way you want it, then next time when you come to me crying and begging me to die I won’t calm you down and tell you everything’s okay, and next time when Chris and his gang come after you I’ll make sure I won’t be there to save you either.”
“Whatever.” I spat.
“You’re just like Jeremy.” He muttered under his breath.
“Do not compare me to him! I’m nothing like that bastard!”
“Oh but you are, more ways than you think.”
“You’re blowing this way out of proportion like you always do.” I scoffed at him. He was being completely ridiculous.
“How?! How am I blowing this out of proportion?!” He screamed at me, taking me off guard and scaring me a little. He continued, not looking at the road anymore, but at me. “How do you expect me to sit back and watch your life be threatened and in danger when I can finally do something about it?! Need I remind you, this is the man that has beat the shit out of you for years upon years, kicked you out and sent you to unknown place halfway across the country, and raped you! Of course I’m going to do something about it, I love you, and I’d do anything to make sure you’re safe and have a good life. But I guess that’s illegal in your book, so I won’t do it anymore. The next time you’re in trouble or need my help, I’m not gonna do shit about it. Since you wanna be all dependent and want no assistance, you’re on your own. I’m do-“
“Vic!” I interrupted him, pointing and trying to get him to notice that we were going off the road into a tree, but it was too late. We veered off the street and went full speed into the trunk of a maple tree.
My head flew forward and was collided with the airbag coming full force at me, instantly knocking me unconscious.
I wanted to make sure Vic was okay. I wanted to take back every word I said. I wanted to restart this whole day. But I couldn’t, the damage was already done.