Warning: mild fluff+hints of smut
Miz
I smiled to myself and snuggled closer into Aquaria's embrace, I completely forgot about my mother, and I shockingly didn't care anymore; as long as I'm with Aquaria, I didn't need to worry about anything. Her breath on my neck made me feel such comfort, and the way she pet my hair makes me feel safe, in her warm arms.
"You okay?" She whispered into my neck. I smiled and lifted my leg over her thighs.
"More than okay." I kissed her cheek with a beaming grin.
"I promise I'll be here for you. Always."
"I know, that's why I feel so safe with you." I opened my eyes and a sudden thud make me jump slightly. Aquaria let go of me and sat up, however, still remained close in my comfort.
"What was that?" Aquaria held my hand and I shrugged.
"Probably my mother--" I raised the corner of my mouth into a sad smile.
"Want to go on insta?" Aquaria asked, leaning down and most likely grabbing her phone from her jeans' back pocket.
"Sure!" I pulled the covers over my chest and she sat up with her phone in her hands.
"I haven't posted in ages. Mainly because I never hear from my friends anymore." Aquaria typed in her password and it unlocked, she pressed on the Instagram icon.
"We can take a picture now! It doesn't matter if no one will see." I pressed my body against hers and I felt her snuggle close to me.
"Of course baby girl." She opened her camera and set it to selfie mode.
"I look awful!" I covered my face and she gasped.
"No! You look beautiful! Show your face!" Aquaria pressed her lips into my cheek, I removed my hands from my face and smiled, making eye contact with the lenses. Luckily only our faces and necks were visible in the picture, nothing below that! She giggled into my face, indicating she had taken the picture already. I turned my head to face her, placing a kiss on her soft lips.
"I love you," I said bluntly. She giggled and averted her eyes to the screen, admiring the picture she took.
"You're my baby girl-" Aquaria rested her head to the side, against mine. She typed a caption I wasn't able to read and she posted it.
"You always say that!"
"But you are! You're such a cutie!" She giggled and nibbled my ear lovingly. I smiled to myself and felt her hand sneak under the blanket and grope my chest.
"What's it with you and doing that?" I asked, smirking. I shuffled slightly and groaned quietly under my breath, feeling her grip tighten.
"It may sound odd, but I love how they feel."
"That's not odd!" I chuckled and saw her eyes suddenly fix on the screen.
"Can be in certain contexts." She scrolled and I scrunched my nose.
"Stop speaking like a posh person!" I smiled and looked away, slightly embarrassed.
"Better than speaking like a not posh person!" She mocked my voice and I laughed. She laughed too and ran her fingers through her silky hair. "I'm joking!"
"You better be!" I bit my lip and pulled the covers off my body and sat on my knees. "I'm gonna get some snacks." I smiled and she looked up at me and nodded, before gazing back down at her phone. I stood up and got myself dressed in my underwear, I didn't bother with a bra, and wrapped myself in my gown. I skipped out and trotted down the stairs happily, walking out into the kitchen, only to see my mother holding a mug, staring at me straight in the eye. "Uh-" I quickly covered my face and tears stung my eyes. I backed out and turned around, looking back up. I ran into the living room and closed the door; I think waiting for her to leave would be a better idea. I heard the door open and a gentle expression plastered on my mothers face. She sighed sadly and put the mug down, walking over to me slowly.
"Baby--what I said was horrible, and I don't think saying sorry is enough-" She stopped and saw my broken face; I was crying silently, I quickly buried my face in my hands and let out a sob.
"I'm so sorry! I shouldn't--have done what I did!"
"Stop! This isn't your fault! and never was, to begin with! I hurt you, and I'm sorry!" She crouched down and held my hand in both of hers. "Aquaria isn't any of the things I said! I was just so agitated and--I'm so jealous of you!" My mother rested her forehead on my knees and cried desperately.
"Why?" I asked, petting her wavy hair; she must have taken out the braids, because it is so wavy now, and she looks so beautiful.
"You know why, Cracker!" She snapped, looking up at me and wiping her eyes.
"Don't be, you don't need to be!"
"Please just forgive me, and that will be all I need from you right now." She whispered, I sighed and lifted my legs slightly, making her look up at me.
"Get off your knees! Because you shouldn't be down there! You shouldn't be feeling guilty!" I cupped her cheeks and she nodded, standing up and sitting next to me. "You are my mom! I-I love you so much!"
"I know, Cracker!" She forced a smile and wiped her eye with the back of her finger. "It's just how you ran out like that--the sound of you crying is torment for me!"
"Mom-" I batted my eyelashes shut and hugged her tightly.
"Miz, I can't do this anymore, I can't live like this!" She took deep breaths and tried to stop the hitching in her lungs.
"Mom," I said again, but more bluntly. She looked at me with tearstained cheeks, I steadily grabbed her wrist and caressed her arm lovingly, calming her down. She intertwined her fingers with mine and smiled brightly.
"Holding your hand always cheers me up." She sniffled and laughed into her arm. I stared blankly, lost in thought, I felt myself lean over her and slowly place a kiss onto her lips. She didn't hesitate, instead, she kissed back, holding me in place on her lap. "Cracker!" She quickly pulled away and looked into my eyes with worry. "I don't want to take advantage of you like last time! I practically guilt-tripped you into doing it with me, I don't want that!"
"Who said we would now?" I raised my eyebrow and she looked down at her chest.
"Don't hate me for this... But as much as I want to, I care about how you feel too, it's not all about me!"
"Mom!" I furrowed my brows, "kissing doesn't have to be--like-- s-sexual?"
"You weren't kissing me that way?" My mother asked sadly, full of disappointment
"No!" I turned my head away and she gasped.
"Oh, this is exactly what's wrong with me!" She covered her face in sheer embarrassment.
"Nothing is wrong with you!"
"I shouldn't be feeling this way towards you! I never have before, it seemed to all have started when you and Aquaria made up!"
"Mom, it's normal to love someone and get special feelings to them-"
"You're my daughter!" she almost yelled.
"Mom! No I'm not--" My hands clasped over my mouth and I shook my head, dismissing what I said. "No! I mean--I am but you're not my original mom!"
"Fuck your original mother! She deserves to rot after dumping you in the streets to just decay, no human should be treated like that!"
I pushed myself closer to her and held her cheeks in my palms.
"I know, but it's normal for you to fall in love with someone you aren't related to--I think that's how you say it."
"Baby, it's not that simple. I raised you, I made you who you are today: this beautiful human, who loves everyone and--and wouldn't hesitate to help a stranger even if they hurt you. I'm so proud of you, and I'm proud of myself for taking that shortcut home twenty-three years ago." She smiled and closed her eyes, resting her head back. I felt like my heartstrings have broken; I felt tears fall down my cheeks, but I didn't feel like I was crying? "Cracker," She mumbled, looking at me and smiling tiredly. "Let's just go to sleep, we only have a few hours left."
"Not yet!" I said with my voice breaking. She pouted and raised her shoulders, tilting her head to the side. She looked adorable. "Mom, you look so cute! Stop!" I giggled and wiped my eyes, hearing her harsh laugh. My hands pulled her closer and I kissed her once more, her eyes fluttered closed and she held the back of my neck, pushing into my lips and deepening the kiss. I couldn't stop myself, it felt like half an hour ago with Aquaria, it was like a replica. I unknowingly pinned her to the sofa and kissed her jaw, hearing her hold back a moan. I shouldn't be doing this! Aquaria will hate me but I can't stop! I cried out, pulling open my gown and biting at her neck. She had such beautiful skin--
Aquaria will hate you!
"Cracker, what are you-" She groaned, but I continued to undress. I threw my gown to the floor and felt her hands run along my bare spine. I needed to stop, if Aquaria found me like this I would lose her forever, and I would die.
"I can't stop myself!" I kissed her shoulder and along her collarbone, it was so defined and her skin was so soft against my mouth.
Just like Aquaria's skin, it was heaven. I didn't know why I was doing this, but many thoughts flooded my mind, blocking my warnings out and making me continue. She ran her hands through my hair, I opened her fluffy gown and slid my hands behind her back, unhooking her bra. I took it off and kissed her chest rapidly, biting down.
"Miz! This isn't like you?" She moaned, however, without hesitation. I was overcome with lust and want--it was like something poisoned me and was making me do this. I never wanted to do this before, but I do now?
"I can't stop myself, you're so--" I forced myself to stop, a sudden realisation hit me. "I'm sorry!"
"Cracker, I think you are just very tired!" My mother said with a half smile.
"Why weren't you pushing me off?" I looked down and desperation festered in me once more, I wanted to hear her moan so loudly.
"I didn't want to hurt you!" She said, her eyes averted from mine.
"God!" I ordered myself to sit up and crawl away, I grabbed my gown off the floor and covered my chest. "Stop making me do this!"
"Do what!?" She yelled.
"Make me want to kiss you, and please you!"
"I'm not a mind controller, Miz, that was your doing!"
"It wasn't!" I stomped my foot and groaned, "I'm going to bed! Hopefully, I won't have this feeling in the morning."
"Sweetheart, I'm sorry I yelled, I think you just need some time alone."
"Not really, just time to think!" I blinked blankly and quickly walked out, closing the door swiftly and slamming my back against the door, my eyes wide with shock.
What the fuck just happened?