Chapter Nine
-Baby girl-
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"So.....what happened for you and daddy to get back on good terms again?"
"Well.....I had to let it go. Let all of the hurt...all of his b.s. and everything else....go. That sadly was done by me...breaking down in front of him. But it was well needed for me to calm myself afterwards. And then we had a nice....friendly conversation" I smiled.
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:: The next day, June 5th ::
(JayJay's Pov)
"Awww, she's so cute" The lady said, staring down at my daughter.
"Thank you" I smiled. "Do you like the cut sir?" I asked the lady's boyfriend.
Yeah, I'm a barber now and I work in a shop around my neighborhood. I'm still low on my though sadly, but I gotta do what I gotta do to provide for myself and my baby girl of course.
"Yeah, man. It's nice and clean, Thanks. I'll be back here, trust me" he chuckled, getting up from the chair.
"Aight. Good doing business with you" I shook his hand and collected the 20 dollars.
Turning around, I noticed sadly that Des had crawled off somewhere else in the shop. Man, after she learned how to crawl and sit down all by herself, nothing could stop her.....she was out from here on out.
"Yo? You see my daughter?" I asked Ricky, seeing him in the middle of shaving this guy's fade.
"Uh-nah man. Better go find her though, homie. Before her mama kick yo a**" he teased, laughing.
"Ha ha ha. Funny"
I shortly walked away from him and went into the waiting room next door, relieved when I saw her indeed on the floor crawling away. Hearing my foot steps approaching, she stopped from crawling and turned to me, sitting her little butt down on the hard wood floor as I came up to her.
"What chu' doin huh? Is that my baby?" I baby talked her, seeing her smile happily up at me.
"Come on with Dada" I smiled, reaching my arms out.
Reaching her tiny arms towards me, I picked her up and gave her a kiss to express my love. I loved spending quaily time with her, I just never thought I'd be like this before she came into my life. But now.....I just couldn't imagine life without her and her slobbery kisses.
Just last night, Dyme called me to come pick her up. She said it was because she needed some "me time" and that I needed to see her anyways. So without complaints, I drove over and picked up my daughter. As I came through though, they both were already standing outside and Dyme herself was dressed up in some dress and black hot heel boots.
Of course, I complimented her and asked where she was heading. In which she simply just said "I'm going out and here's your daughter", then she walked off and got in her car.
So yeah, she still hates me but hopefully we can talk this ish out today when I drop Des off.
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(Dyme's Pov)💕
"How did you sleep?" I smiled, seeing her come over to sit at the table with me.
"I would've slept like a baby, if someone didn't kick me in the stomach" she gritted her eyes at me.
"I said I was sorry" I laughed. "You know I sleep wild but when we cuddled it was cool right?"
"Yeah.." she smiled at me.
I yawned and stretched my arms out a little. "That alcohol had me f*cked up last night Kehlani and I'm blaming you"
"Good. You needed to get drunk for once. Just that party alone was good for you, because now you're happy again, and smiling..."
"I just really had fun. I wanna thank you for....giving me such an amazing and well needed night, yo. Me and you both know I needed that"
"That's what best friends are for right? Even though I had to beg you to come"
"That's crazy how we can literally sleep with each other and still be best friends the next day. And just only friends "
"Nigga please. Ain't no sense in catching feelings now, I've known you since what....kindergarten?"
"1st grade, bitch" I corrected her.
"Right" she laughed. "But when are we going to Babies 'R' us again? I got a birthday coming up..."
"Whenever my baby father bring me this money, he's coming by soon. I think he's just getting off of work as we speak but he better bring his b*tch-ass straight here with my baby" I looked at my phone.
"You're so mean to him" she laughed again.
"I know, but b*tch betta have my money and my child unharmed, is all I'm saying" I looked at her, being ghetto.
"His daughter can pee herself crazy, do you hear me. I'm already running low on pampers again and I just brought a big pack 6 days ago" I added.
*Door bell Rings*🚪🔔
"Speaking of the devil" she said.
Getting up from the table, I walked on over to my door and opened it up for Jacob and Desiree. As soon as my baby saw her mommy's face, she smiled at me, making my heart glow inside. "Hi my baby" I instantly took her from Jay's arms. "Mommy missed you so so much" I covered her in kisses, feeling her tiny hands exlore my face. "Thanks. You got the money I asked you for?" I asked her father, who's still standing in the doorway.
"Uh-- *Digs into his pocket* I got 35, I'll give you the rest tomorrow"
I rolled my eyes. "Jay, I asked you for 50..." ...I know the nigga lost all his money from the raid but he gotta full-time job now. Which means he should at least be able to give me a little percent of his pay check for his daughter.
"Well Dyme I really don't have it right now. I promise tomorrow"
"You promised today and you wonder why I yell at you" I said, giving him an irritated look.
He sighed. "Tomorrow okay--"
"Bye..." I attempted to close the door on him, feeling him push it back open.
"I wasn't done" he looked at me, annoyed.
"What now?"
"We need to talk..."
"Tomorrow" I smiled sarcastically, doing the same as he did to me.
"It's important Diynara. If you don't talk to me now so I can find up what's up, then I ain't gon' try no more. And when I come get my daughter, I'm a buy her ish myself and not affiliate you. That's what you want, right?"
I huffed angrily and rolled my eyes annoyed. "Kel, you gotta go sis..." I said loudly so she can hear me.
Seconds later, Kehlani came over to the door and spoke to Jay on her way out. "Hey playa"
"Hey lan, how's it been?"
"Good good. You take care okay and call me D...." she gave me a hug before giving mamas a kiss too.
We all watched her leave from my house and made her way down the street to the bus I assume. Then Jacob and I went back inside, where he closed my front door behind him to meet up with me in the living room.
:: 15 minutes later ::
"She knocked out ain't she" Jay chuckled, seeing Des rocked out on the side of me.
"Yep, our lil fat baby" I rubbed her stomach softly, taking in the sight of her sleeping peacefully. "I'm a go put her to bed" I told her father and picked her up gently.
I carried her upstairs and into her bedroom down the hall. Placing her softly inside her crib while I pulled the blanket over her small frame next. Giving her a kiss and a small rub, I turned on the baby monitor and closed the door behind me on my way out.
From there, I went right back downstairs and into my kitchen to make me some grub. Not even bothering to pay her father any mind, since things were still very much complicated between us. I pulled out some packaged meat from my fridge and grabbed a knife to start chopping, hearing footsteps behind me.
"Hey, can we talk now" Jay asked.
"About what Jay...?" I grabbed a plate from my dish rack.
"About whats goin' on. Why you acting so different towards me..." ...ha.
"Thats just how I am now" I shrugged my shoulders.
"Why is that?"
"What do you want from me yo!?" I turned around annoyed by him nagging me.
"To know what the fuck is your problem!" He lost his temper too.
"Jay just go home please, go be happy with ya girl and leave me be..." I turned around.
"Why does she always have to be brought up in our conversation? What is it with me and--"
"Because you love her Jay! And since you never loved me, just go be with her. Stop trying to make us... us again" I showed him how teary my eyes got when I realized that I was nothing compared to her. ...but yet I'm the one who carried his baby.😞
He sighed lowly. "I love you too though..."
"You don't..." I replied.
"Why don't you believe me?"
"Because you screamed it to me Jay, right after we conceived our daughter. I will never forget that yo. Its like what we had before that..... never even happened when you said that, like we weren't just making love in the next room. But it's okay, you just wanted to have sex with me and nothing else. And I only agreed to that because.....I thought you'd fall in love with me again" I confessed. ...maybe I was hoping for too much💔
He look down from my confession.
"But it's okay Jacob, you don't have to love me. I'll stay as the baby mom from now on okay. At least our daughter loves me the way that I am" I turned around once more to chop again.
"So now you think I don't like the way you are, huh?"
"Nobody fucking does! I'm fucking crazy to people, I'm a slut in your eyes, I'm nasty...., I'm ghetto..., I'm weird, .....misunderstood. Thats all people see me as *a tear runs down my face* They don't see me beyond those things. They just wanna use me....like I don't have feelings too" I cried, reliving the past.
"I would never use you, Diya..."
"You fucking did already! ......Why don't you love me. Why Jay? ....What does she have more than me! When I gave you everything! I gave you all of me--......I'm doing the same stupid shit all over again that left me hurt from the beginning! ...What is wrong with me.......I'm so fucking stupid--" I broke down in front of him, yelling and screaming.
Suddenly, I rushed over to pick up the knife to end my pain. Holding out my arm to cut a slit with the sharp blade as blood emerged from the new wound immediately.
"Diya! ...Stop!" he yelled, grabbing me from behind and holding my arms up against my will.
Blood quickly dripped down my skin, splattering drops of the red liquid on to my hard wood floors like a murder scene.
"Put the knife down. ......Drop it" he said into my ear, hearing me cry still.
Taking a minute to come back to reality, I finally released the knife from my hand and turned to him immediately. Hugging him tightly while I gripped my bloody hands on his shirt and neck. I felt so....low at that point. My vulnerability increased for him and his comfort, sated when he wrapped his arms around me in return.
"I'm sorry--, I'm so sorry..." I cried.
"I know I know. ......it's okay" he laid his head with mine before sitting us down on the floor, next to the small blood puddle.
He leaned up against the counter and held me tightly on his chest, laying his head down with mine to calm me down. I turned my head from his and cried into the corner of his neck to hide. I felt so embarrassed to do that in front of him and even worse when I let....my feelings get the best of me yet again. Resulting in another scar on poor poor bruised body.
"Shhhhhh--....everything is okay. Stop crying..." he combed through my hair.
To be continued...
~End of Chapter Nine~
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