Rashaud's P.O.V
As Soon As She Said I'm Sorry, Everybody's Eyes Widened And She Had Everyone's Attention.
Dr. Schold ~ We Are Trying The Best We Can, She Isn't Breathing On Her Own, She Is Hooked Up To A Machine That's Breathing For Her.
Rashaud ~ Doctor, Can I Talk To You Outside For A Minute Please
I Couldn't Let Lashay Wake Up And This Shit Be The First Thing She Hears Cause I Know It Would Crush Her Hearing That The Baby Isn't Doing Good.
Dr. Schold ~ Yes, Of Course
We Both Walk Outside The Room And I Make Sure The Door Closed Behind Us.
Rashaud ~ Doc, What's Going On With Her? Is She Gonna Make It?
Dr. Schold ~ I Have No Definite Answer To Give You, She Is In A Very Fragile State And Is As Stable As We Can Get Her At The Moment.
Rashaud ~ There Must Be Something That Could Be Done Man. Money Is No Problem, Whatever The Cost Is To Have Something Done, Just Name A Price.
Dr. Schold ~ Money Isn't Gonna Help Her Right Now. Try Patience, Time, Prayer, And Love Will Help Her
Rashaud ~ Where Is She Doc? Can I See Her?
Dr. Schold ~ Of Course You Can. Right This Way
We Walked Into The Elevator And Went To The 3rd Level Of The Hospital. We Walked Around The Corner And I Followed Her To The ICU Section Of The Hospital. As We Inched Closer My Heart Started To Race And Damn Near Jump Out Of My Chest. This Was My Baby Girl, My First Girl, And The Youngest Of All My Kids. She Is Supposed To Be My Princess, And I'm Supposed To be Her Protecter, And I Feel Like I Have Already Failed Her. She Opens The Door And Leads Me Down A Hall Which Had Other Babies In It. She Opens Another Door Where, In A Huge Glass Crib Like Box, Laid My Baby Girl. There Was Tubes In Her Connected To A Machine That Kept Her Heart Pumping And Her Chest Expanding. I Walked Over Closer To Her And Kneeled Down To Get A Better Look At Her Face.
Dr. Schold ~ I'll Leave You Too Alone
I Nod My Head And She Closes The Door To The Room And I Can't Take My Eyes Off Of My Daughter. She Looks So Innocent, So Precious. She's As Beautiful As Her Mother And So Little. I Open The Little Circle Door And Put My Hand Inside To Touch Her. I Rubbed Her Tiny Hand With My Thumb And She Grips Tightly On My Finger. It Was As If She Knew I Was Her Father, And I Couldn't Help It When A Tear Fell Out My Eye And On To The Floor.
Rashaud ~ Hi My Beautiful Briella, Daddy's Got You, He Won't Let Anything Happen To You
She Cracks A Small Smile In The Corner Of Her Mouth As If She Understood Me. I Couldn't Help But Smile As Well After Seeing That, It Gave Me A Sense Of Hope That She Would Be Alright. I Stay In The Room Talking To Her For About An Hour Until I Hear The Door Open.
Nurse ~ Sorry Sir I Gotta Run Her Vitals
Rashaud ~ Do I Have To Go?
Nurse ~ Rashaud Pierce?
Rashaud ~ Yeah That's Me
Nurse ~ Its Karma Romaine, From Middle School. Remember Me?
Someone Please Tell Me Why God Tryna Play With Me Today Mane. This Girl Was My Stalker Through Out Middle School. For Kids That Shouldn't Have Known Nothing About Sex, She Wanted To Fuck Me So Bad. Even Back Then A Nigga Never Wanted To Settle Down With One Female, Not What I Wanted For Myself. She Was Determined To Be The Female That Changed That. She Tried To Hard To Get With Me And Even Try To Show Me How Good Of A Girlfriend She Would Be. One Time I Was Leaving My Basketball Game And She Pulled Me Behind The Gym Just To Give Me Some Congratulations Head. To Say She Was Obsessed Would Be An Understatement, That Girl Told Me She Wanted To Have My Babies In The 7th Grade. Like What The Fuck I Look Like Man, A Nigga Had A Future And Kids Didn't Fit In Those Plans. She Looks Good Though, Back Then She Was Chubby, No Ass, Braces, And Bald Headed. She Had Slimmed Down A Lot, Braces Were Taken Off, She Got A Lil Booty And Some Expensive Weave In Her Head.
Rashaud ~ Oh Yeah, Wassup Karma
Karma ~ Nothing Much
She Said With A Fat Ass Smile
Karma ~ You Look Great, Not Much Different From Middle School
Rashaud ~ Thanks, But I Think I Look Way Better
Karma ~ Still The Same Conceited Ass Rashaud I See
Rashaud ~ You Would Be The Same Way If Your Head Was Boosted As Much As Mine Was
Karma ~ Well They Definitely Have A Reason To Boost
Rashaud ~ Anyway, Back To My Daughter, Do I Gotta Leave As Your Run Her Vitals?
Karma ~ Nope, I Just Need You To Stand Over To The Side
Rashaud ~ Ight
I Get Up And Stand By The Window In The Room So She Could Get To Briella. I Watch Her Very Closely To Make Sure She Don't Hurt Her.
Karma ~ She's Beautiful
Rashaud ~ Thank You
Karma ~ Is She Your First?
Rashaud ~ Nah, She's My Fourth
Karma ~ Oh Yeah, That's A Nice Big Family
Rashaud ~ Yeah I Can't Complain, My Family Is Everything To Me
Karma ~ Really? Rashaud Pierce The Family Man? That's Something I Would Have Never Thought To Happen
Rashaud ~ Yeah, Well A Lot Has Changed Since You Have Seen Me
She Turns Around And Looks At Me
Karma ~ Mhm, I See
Rashaud ~ What?
Karma ~ Absolutely Nothing
She Turns Back Around And Covers My Daughter Back Up
Karma ~ I'll Bring The Results For The Testing To Your Room In About 3 Hours
Rashaud ~ Ight, Sounds Good
Karma Walks Over To The Door And Walks Out. Of Course Out Of All People She Is Our Nurse. My Past Stay Coming Back To Me. I Walk Back Over To Briella And Sit There Just Watching Her. Every Couple Of Minutes She'll Kick Or Wipe Her Face And It Made Me Laugh Everytime. I Only Stay Another 2 Hours So That I Can Be With Lashay When They Tell Us Briella's Test Results. I Walk Back To Shay's Room And She Was Talking To Dani While Holding Braylon. She Smiled When She Saw Me And Motioned Me To Come Over. I Walk Over And See Braylon Is Awake And Staring At Everything. I Take Him From Her And Walk Around the Room Holding Him. He Had These Big Ass Eyes And Chubby Cheeks. He Grips On To My Finger And Smiles At Me Showing His Dimples When I Look Down On Him. He Was Perfect In Every Way And I Was Very Happy That He Was Okay. Karma Walks Into The Room And Smiles At Me When She See's Me. I Hand Braylon Back To Shay And I Motion For Karma To Come Outside With Me. Shay Calls my Name, But I Know It's Only Because She Doesn't Want Me To Keep Here From Hearing What Karma Has To Say, So I Just Keep Walking.
Rashaud ~ Ight, So What Is It?
Karma ~ She Was Super Pretty
Rashaud ~ Thanks, I Will Let Her know You Said That. Now Back To My Daughter
Karma ~ All We Can Tell You Is That She Isn't Breathing On Her Own, And If She Isn't Able To Do So Through Out A Couple Of Months, Then There Is Not Much We Can Do.
Rashaud ~ There Isn't Much Y'all Can Do? Y'all Forreal?
Karma ~ Sadly Yes, If She Isn't Breathing, Its Out Of Our Hands, We Need Her To Start Breathing And Responding To The Treatment. I'm Sorry Rashaud, That's Just What Has To Happen.
I Take A Deep Breath And Try To Calm Myself Down. Karma Rubs My Arm And Gives Me And Apologetic Looks.
Karma ~ Pray On It Rashaud, It Will Be Okay
She Gives Me A Hug Then Walks Away. After Getting Myself Under Control, I Walk Back Into Room.
Lashay ~ What Did She Say?
Rashaud ~ They Doing Everything They Can Shay
I See Her Lip Start To Quiver And Tears Form In Her Eyes
Rashaud ~ Don't Cry Baby
Lashay ~ How Can I Not Cry. I Can't Help But To Blame Myself For This. This Is All My Fault And Now My Daughter, Our Daughter Is In Danger Because Of Me.
I Walk Over To Her And Take Braylon And Put Him In His Bed. Everyone Leaves The Room To Give Us Some Privacy And I Sit Down In The Chair And Look At Shay.
Rashaud ~ This Isn't Your Fault Shay
Lashay ~ How Is It Not?
Rashaud ~ You Could Only Control What Happened To The Outside Of Your Body, Not The Inside. Don't Put That Stress On Yourself, That Weight Is Way To Much To Carry.
She Wiped Her Face And Looked At Me
Lashay ~ Rashaud I Need Her To Be Okay, That's All I Want
Rashaud ~ Me To Babygirl
I Grab Her Hand And Kiss It As She Lays Back And Closes Her Eyes. I Know She Has To Be Exhausted Right Now, And He Worrying Isn't Doing Her Any Justice. I Brush Her Hair Out Of Her Face And Leans Her Bed Back Farther So She Could Be more Comfortable. She Needed To Sleep And To Let Me Worry About Everything Else. A Nurse Came In And Took A Now Sleeping Braylon Out Of The Room. Danielle Volunteered To Take Adrian To Her House To Spend The Night And I Agreed To It So That He Could Be Comfortable In A Bed And Not A Hospital Chair. I Kiss Adrian And Khalil Goodbye And They All Left Leaving Just Me, Braylon And Shay In The Room. At Around 8 p.m A Nurse Comes In To Check On Shay And Tells Us That Her And Braylon Can Come Home In 3 Days, Which Is Great News, But There Is Still No Update On Briella. Nothing But Her Has Been On My Mind Since The Second She Came Out. I Lay On The Couch By The Window And Get Comfortable While Watching Tv. I Glance At Lashay As She Starts To Snore Lightly, Signaling That She Fell Asleep, And I Couldn't Help But Laugh To Myself Because She Only Started Snoring When She Got Pregnant And I Thought It Would Go Away, But I Guess Not. It's Okay Thought, I'm Glad She's Getting Sleep, And Good Sleep At That. I Have Been Up Since 6 With The Boys And You Would Think My Ass Would Have Been Knocked Out, But There's A Million Thoughts Running Through My Mind About Briella. I Wish I Could Go See Her But Visiting Hours Are Over So I Have To Wait Till The Morning. I Wish I Didn't Have To Leave Her Side, She Got Me In My Emotions Bad As Fuck, But Thats My Kid And First Daughter So Of Course I Have An Over Protective Feeling Over Her. Lashay Started Snoring Louder So I Got Up And Got My Headphones That Were In Her Purse. I Plugged Them In And Bumped Some Future Trying To Drown Her As Out, But Also To Try To Get My Mind Off Of Briella A Little Bit. I Finally Started To Yawn And Took That Opportunity To Close My Eyes And Fall Asleep, Cause If I Didn't Now, Then I Never Would. Hopefully Tomorrow Is A Better Day For Us. I Wipe My Face And Lay My Arm Over My Face Getting Comfortable As I Drift Off.