Jay's POV
It's funny you know, How often you spend your life trying to find a person that you feel Is right for you. Yet we never stop to think about whether we are right for someone else. Are we then considered to be selfish because we are perfect for someone else and we don't do anything about it. Or are we ignorant in thinking that we can only find someone that makes us happy and not worry about how someone else thinks or feels? I don't know If I want to associate anything with myself anymore since you left. It's been months and I haven't seen or spoken to you. You even blocked me after the fight we had. It wasn't even that bad. I told you how badly I loved you. And now I'm getting messages from people.Telling me how much I mean to them. And about how worried they are for me. But there is this one guy. This one guy who doesn't want to talk about the past or the future. He just wants to talk about me.
????: "How are you today?"
Jay: "Same as every other day."
????: "Naw I'm sure it's not all that bad. Your a great guy and your young. Live life and go do what Australian people do."
Jay: "If Australian people get on planes and fly over seas then I guess I'm doing myself a favour."
????: "Oh your flying? Where are you off to? Not going to lie I wish you were coming to me haha :)"
Jay: "Your sweet man.I'm heading over to you actually. I want to meet you. In person."
????: "Wooflan are going to be PISSED! But I love it."
Jay: "I don't care about them. I only care about meeting you properly."
????: "Are you sure?I'm nothing special."
Jay: "Look Mate. You have kept my mind off some major topics. And without even realising have done so much for me."
????: "I'm just helping this cute guy out. He's not too bad. Has a bit of a bite to him but I guess that's what Australian boys are like."
Jay: "You have helped me. A lot. And I want to meet you."
What if instead of looking at what we want. We let go and started to think about what we need? What we need to feel whole and complete. It's an interesting Idea yet it seems as though most people don't think like that. I wonder why that is?
????: "Well how long until you get on the plane? And how long are you staying for?"
Jay: "Honestly. It depends on you man."
????: "What do you mean?"
Jay: "I mean. How long I stay. And when I come over. It depends on how long you think you could last without kicking me out."
????: "Well I'm supposed to have Rob and Lachlan coming over for a few nights in a couple of weeks. It depends on whether you want to be around him after what went down."
Jay: "It's funny. I think this is the first time we have spoken about him and what happened."
????: "Well who likes to dwell on the past. Yeah you guys had an argument but I don't think that you should let yourself become down because of one moment. Life goes on babe. Gotta keep your head up."
Jay: "Did you just call me babe?"
????: "Uh. Um. Fuck.Well at least you can't see my face."
Jay: "Are you blushing beautiful?"
????: "Shut up. How old are you?"
Jay: "21? Why?"
????: "Do you still live with your parents?"
Jay: "I don't think that matters does it?"
????: "Well. You could move in with me."
Jay: "Wait really?"
????: "Well I mean.If you want to? I'd like you to come and stay with me."
Jay:: "Are you asking me to move in with you and we haven't even gone on a date?"
????: "And how the hell are we going to go on a date. When we are thousands of miles apart."
Jay: "Aw gross you use Miles."
????: "Shut up you love me. Also I won't lie. I'd love to make Lachlan jealous. He does still ask if your ok. He just refuses to talk to you. I reckon if you came over here. And moved in with me and he arrived with Rob and saw you. Holy hell he would freak the fuck out. And it would be incredible."
Jay: "I feel like I may be a bad influence on you."
????: "I doubt it man. I really want you to come over. It will be fun. And if it doesn't work. I'd happily help to pay for your flight home if you didn't want to stay here."
Jay: "This is slowly turning into an experiment."
????: "Well let's hope you were good science. Cos I've been grinding my Intellect stat lately. ;)"
Jay: "That joke was also a pick up line. Cute. But it was still a pun and I hate you."
????: "You love me."
Jay: "I'll book my ticket now. I'm looking at the prices and times."
????: "Well hopefully I can see you soon. The sooner the better."
Jay: "There is one that leaves Brisbane to go to Sydney in 6 hours. Then from there I would get 3 hours before leaving to get over to you."
????: "Ok I'll see you in about 29 hours then."
Jay: "I haven't booked it yet."
????: ":("
Jay: "I'll book it now. I need to pack and realise what I'm doing."
????: "You ok baby?"
Jay: "Yeah I'm ok. Just uh. Compulsive decision don't you think."
????: "It all depends on whether or not you want to do it or not."
Jay: "Yeah. I guess."
????: "If your unsure I won't force you to stay. Why don't you book one way and go on a holiday. Then after a few weeks you can decide if you want to stay or not?"
Jay: "Yeah that sounds better. I'll just get a one way ticket then. I have enough saved up I should be ok."
????: "Fuck I can't wait to see you."
Jay: "Just remember.Even with the plane trip. I still have to pack and everything we won't really be able to talk much while I'm flying."
????: "Since you stopped uploading what are you going to do on the plane?"
Jay: "I don't know...Read a book I guess I have no idea."
????: "Ok well I will talk to you soon then. You go and book your ticket and start packing. Let me know when your leaving your place ok?"
Jay: "Yeah will do."
????: "What time is it over there?"
Jay: "It's currently 3 pm. So I'll leave Brisbane at 9. And leave Sydney at 12."
????: "Then add on like what 24 hours give or take? Alright no problem I'll be there to pick you up."
Jay: "This is actually kind of exciting. I can see why Lachlan use to impulsively do this all the time."
????: "It's a tonne of fun that's for sure."
Jay: "Ok The ticket has been booked. Holy shit I can't back out now."
????: "Welcome to our world. Well. Their world. I haven't had to experience that yet."
Jay: "You soon will be since you started recording so regularly with these guys."
????: "I can't wait."
Jay: "Neither can I."
I walked away from the computer and pulled out my massive duffel bag.It was big enough to fit my whole wardrobe. I started packing a tonne of clothes and placed a few books in there. I needed something to do while on the plane right? I heard my phone go off in my pocket.Vibrating the hell out of my leg.
????: "I forgot. Make sure to pack more warm clothes."
Jay: "I can fit my whole wardrobe in my bag."
????: "I'll make room."
Jay: "I can live out of my bag for a while. It's fine you know that right?"
????: "No. I won't let you. It would be too annoying for you. Just accept it."
Jay: "Fine. What the fuck am I going to do for 4 hours until I leave for the airport."
????: "I don't know. When you think of something let me know."
Jay: "Where are you going?"
????: "Make a video."
Jay: "You smart ass."
Time Skip
One fucking day. On a plane and I swear to god I could have ripped my eyes from my sockets. The old lady next to me who wouldn't shut the fuck up the whole way talking to her partner. And then the baby to the left of me. Oh my god. But it's all worth it. I finally get to see him. I don't know why I didn't plan to do this earlier. I am actually really hoping that this is going to work out. I really want this to work. I don't want it to what am I talking about I need this to work. He's the man I need. And I want him so badly. I've never felt so happy making a snap decision. He seems like he can really make me happy. Well he already has. He never asked about what happened between me and Lachlan. He only ever made me talk about myself. He was so selfless and always asked about me. And how I was doing. And I remember turning the conversation around about 4 months ago and I started asking about him. I don't think he was expecting it all that much. It would be a bit different I guess after spending so much time talking about me. But he was making me happy. I wanted to talk to him more.
Jay: "I'm about to land. Going to have to turn phones off soon."
????: "I'll meet you at baggage claim."
I put my phone back into my pocket. Putting my portable charger back into my back pocket. And pulling my book out of the pouch in front of me.As we landed I waited for the people around me to get up and leave before unbuckling myself and walking off the plain. I guess that's one good way to save time. As I walked off the plain, I already noticed the temperature difference. It didn't bother me too much seeing as we were use to this type of heat. I had to ask for directions but eventually found my way to the baggage claim. I didn't see him anywhere so I just waited for my bag. Maybe he was just in the toilet. I waited for our bags to come around. I saw it arrive on the conveyor belt and pulled it off. Pulling my phone out and taking a few steps before running into a person. I almost dropped my phone but I had caught it as he wrapped his arms around me. I felt his beard tickling my face and knew it was him. I lifted my arms up and wrapped them around him. Holding him for the first time in my arms.Where we should be. I felt him sniffle and I swear I felt tears in his eyes.
Jay:"Oh god I've wanted to do this for so long."
????:"Your so beautiful."
I had noticed while on the plain that it was night time here. I didn't know the actual time but I'm sure it was either really late or really early.
Jay:"What time is it?"
????:"It's about 1:30 in the morning. Come on I'll take you home and you can get some sleep ok?"
Jay:"But I don't want to let go."
????:"Your here for a couple of weeks Jay. I'm sure we will have a lot of time to hold each other."
Jay:"I'm sleeping with you right?"
????:"You bet your sweet, perfect ass you are."
Jay:"Then promise me one thing."
????:"Anything gorgeous."
Jay:"Will the Sandman help me sleep?"
????:"Your a fucking dick."
Jay:"I love you John."
John:"I love you too Jay."