As soon as they cornered around the building, Nate couldn't hold on any longer as he hunched over and everything he'd eaten that evening came out in full force.
He retched and vomited everything from his throat, Spade leaned in and placed his hand on Nate's back, slowly rubbing on it.
Nate retched some more until there was nothing else to let out.
Before Spade reached into the bag from which they just brought stuff and pulled out a bottle of water, he opened it and handed it to Nate, who washed his mouth and drank some, Spade even helped him sprinkle some on his face, as his face had gone completely pale, from the vibrant pale it had on a few minutes ago, to a deathly pale.
He got up and used the back of his hand to clean his mouth, Spade collected the water and looked at him
"Are you okay"? He asked, concern dripping off his voice, he looked at Spade and could barely even say anything as he nodded
He swallowed as he didn't even know how he was feeling at the moment
"Can you take me home" he whispered and Spade looked at him before he nodded and placed his hand on Nate's back leading him back to where the car was, they got there and Spade helped him into the car, he got in and took a quick glance at Nate, the young man wasn't looking bright at all.
Even his eyes looked drain, and his lips looked parched as he was suddenly too quiet and sullen
"Are you sure you're okay"? He asked and Nate just looked at him before he nodded again
"I knew we shouldn't have eaten that lobster" Spade muttered before he started the car and drove them away from the restaurant.
Nate was now looking out the window as the drove back to Spade's place, never in a million years did he think he would see that man ever again, not after he suddenly disappeared after their mother's death.
But seeing him now, everything he'd done to Nate was starting to crawl back up, trying to corner the young man, it felt as if everything he'd done with Spade, every moment with Spade had been erased from his mind.
All he could think about was the person he just encountered, and worse, the man was Spade's uncle.
Oh God, everything he'd had since meeting Spade was now hanging by a thread, what if he told Spade what happened years ago?
Of course he would tell Spade, he was his uncle after all
Nate felt his head go hot, his chest burn and his eyes were suddenly stinging but he didn't want to cry, not while he was still with Spade.
What would he even do now.
Not only did he meet a constant nightmares of his life, but the man was related to the man he'd fallen in love with.
He didn't even know how to deal with this
His mind was a mess and he couldn't think straight, he couldn't even form a straight sentence at the moment.
His life that he thought was finally getting back on track, everything comes crashing down, with just one meeting, his very existence was shaking.
Spade kept stealing glances at him, he didn't like the way Nate had suddenly gone silent, it was irking him.
Did he do something wrong, or was it the sexual joke he made at the shop?
Did he offend Nate with that?
But the young man didn't seem offended or angry, he seemed rather shaken up and lost, just like he used to look when Spade just met him, maybe Nate was just sick from the lobster and he was overthinking things.
What the hell was Salvatore doing in Manhattan? And why didn't he know about it?
Whatever it was, he hoped the man stayed out of his business, he didn't want to add his uncle's shit to his already piled up business.
They arrived at the house and Nate was quick to get out of the car, as if it was burning him, he rushed into the house, Spade just furrowed his brows as he stepped out of the car and shut the door.
He walked towards the door and followed Nate inside, Matteo was not in the living room, so he guessed the blonde was already asleep, it was pretty late
He dropped his car keys on the table and walked towards the bedroom, he got in and Nate was already on the bed with his clothes off and him wearing sweatpants and tank top, when did he change his clothes?
Spade could feel that something was off but he didn't know what, this felt like when Nate had gone to see his father, but Spade was still second guessing that it was something Nate ate, maybe the young man was sick, because he didn't want to believe that it was the sexual joke he made that suddenly switched Nate's mood like this
He sighed out and took off his own clothes, picking out a sweatpant from the closet, he put it on and walked towards the bed, he laid on it and pulled the covers on his own body too, he scooted closer to Nate and placed his hand on the young man waist, but Nate scooted away from him, making him frown.
That has never happened before, he sighed out and did it again, but Nate just moved even further away from him.
What was going on?
Nate had never done this before.
Suddenly something came to his mind, did he already notice it? Was it that obvious?
But he wasn't showing it and it would be impossible for Nate to notice it, no it wasn't that.
Nate couldn't have possibly known that he was in love with him.
He decided to try again and this time actually, Nate didn't move as he pulled him closer, but he felt the young man tense up.
Nate didn't mean to shrug off Spade's touch but everything was just so clouding he couldn't stop himself, he didn't really feel very comfortable with Spade touching him again, and he couldn't exactly tell the man that, but when Spade tried for the third time, he just had to swallow it and let it be.
He was currently shaking inside, his whole system was in a fix, everything he'd been feeling for that few weeks was suddenly feeling very different and weird from how it usually felt.
It was like he was never comfortable with Spade, and it took just one meeting with that man to shake everything he'd been building with Spade for the past weeks
He didn't want it to be like that, but his mind and body couldn't help it
He wished everything would just rewind back to earlier that day, then maybe he would have asked Spade not to take him out in the first place, before he would meet that man, that nightmare.
He closed his eyes and tried to will himself to sleep, but Spade's arm around him wasn't even helping at all.
Not that he was disgusted but it suddenly made him feel aware, too aware of his presence.
*****
Flashback
The house was quite as always, something Nate feared all the time, he hated it when he was left alone in the house, because he knew something bad would always happen.
He looked through each corner in the living room, clutching tight to the pillow in his hand, he didn't know when his mother would come back, but he hoped she would come back earlier than required, he didn't think he could stand being alone in the house.
Even his sister hadn't returned from school yet, since their father agreed for her to be on the cheerleading team, she usually spent more time at school.
He wished he would be as brave she and ask his father if he could be in a team too, but he knew what the man would tell him.
He'd probably say Nate didn't need any of that, because he'd only end up quitting halfway, or he'd call the boy pathetic because only pussies did sports in school
As he sat there thinking about his 12 year old kid life, he heard the door suddenly open up, he almost sprang up from his chair, thinking it was his mother, or his sister, but he froze and the color drained from his face when he realized it was neither of them.
Instead, at the entrance stood the man he really didn't want to see right now, his dreaded fear and nightmare.
He gulped loudly and looked out through the window, hoping someone would come in.
He saw the smirk and look the man had in his eyes for him, he really never liked it when the man looked at him like that, it always made him so scared and alone.
He already knew why the man was here, but he prayed in his fragile heart that the man didn't go through with it, at least not today.
He didn't think he had it in him to keep going through that.
"Hey Natey boy" the man's hideous voice bounced off the wall and sent shivers down Nate's whole body as he felt his hands going sweaty
"Where's your daddy"? He asked, and Nate Instead of answering just looked out through the window
He wished his sister would show up now, no not his sister, this man would kill her, his mother or maybe even his father.
The man started advancing towards him as he shifted back in the couch, he really couldn't run even if he wanted to, it would only make it worse if he ran
"Is your mom home" he asked again, and Nate didn't dare answer but by the sinister smile on the man's face, he already knew the man knew no one was at home, it was just him
"I see they left you alone at home again" he said to himself before he sat himself down close to Nate on the couch.
He moved his hand and tried to wrap it around Nate's shoulder, but the boy shifted away from him, making him frown a bit before he smiled again
"Where you going, I just wanna play with you Natey" he whispered sinisterly, Nate's eyes were already turning glossy and blurry with tears blinding his vision
The man leaned closer and let his lips rest on Nate's ears, making the boy to suck in a harsh breath as he started shaking visibly "I always wanna play with you Nate, and I bet you want to play with me too" he muttered before his hands went down to Nate's private area, he shuddered out of fear and disgust as the man grabbed him down there.
The man groaned out into Nate's ears, the sound making Nate to want to gag as the tears were already leaving his eyes in drops, he was shaking his head slowly.
"You know, I can't wait for this to grow big so we can have a lot more fun" the man muttered, and before Nate could say anything, the man had pulled down his pants and left him bare, completely naked as his eyes stared at Nate's 12 year old penis in hunger, as if he would chew on it
Nate wanted to cry and scream out, but he knew it was no use, this man was very evil, and screaming would only make him hurt Nate the more.
He gripped Nate's hip and pulled him out of the couch, turning the little boy so his ass was up in the air as he groped it, the boy was already crying silently
"Ple...." He choked out, unable to complete it when the man leaned forward, pressing his hard crotch on Nate's small ass
"Shhhh, you're going to love it this time, I promise" he whispered before he leaned away and Nate heard the sound of his belt clinking, the man's free have was roaming his body, touching every little thing there was to touch on Nate's body.
Nate felt it hard against his butthole, making him tense up as he tried to shuffle out of the man's hold, but his hand held the boy firmly on the couch as he used his length to probe the boy's entrance.
And then suddenly the door opened and they both heard gasps as the man let go of Nate quickly and looked up, Nate too got up and wore his pants, cleaning his eyes he was grateful for once someone had come to his rescue and it was his mother.
"What's going on here"? She asked, her eyes moving from a fumbling Salvatore, who was trying to put his pants back on and her crying son.
"Nathan, what's going on"? She asked, rushing towards her son who was now crying even more loudly and hiccuping, she cupped his cheek and pulled him closer to her.
The kid was crying because finally someone had come to save him, for once this man wouldn't have his way with him, he'd been suffering this for a year now, and finally he would have someone he could talk to and confide in.
"What were you doing to my son"? She asked, and Salvatore just looked at her before he scoffed
"I wasn't doing anything to him, I was only trying to make him a man" Salvatore grunted out, Nate's mother's face contorted into disgust and anger as she stared at him with pure rage.
"You were raping him"? She asked, almost yelling and the man just shrugged
"Clearly you're mistaken, I wouldn't stand here and watch you insult me" he muttered before he made to walk away and Nate's mother stopped him
"Wait until I tell Greg what you were trying to do" she spat at him and he just turned around and started laughing, Nate's mother frowned, her brows furrowed in confusion
"And what do you think is gonna happen then, you think your husband's gonna believe you? He gave your son to me and asked me to mould the boy into a man, i was only doing him a favor" he said sadistically, hearing the woman scoff lightly.
"Doing him a favor, by raping his son"? She asked, her own voice trembling
She quickly pulled out her phone "I don't know how long you've been doing this, but I know one thing, it all ends today" she muttered out, and it all happened so fast, none of them saw it coming.
In a swift second, Nate's mother's neck was slashed open and there was blood coming out of her neck, Nate's hands flew to his mouth as he covered it, his eyes grew wide as he watched in horror, his mother's hands wrapped around her neck as she stared at Salvatore, slowly she fell to the ground with a loud thud.
His eyes landed on Salvatore and the man had blood stains on his face, and a very animalistic look in his eyes, before he walked closer to Nate and gripped the boy who was still looking at his dead mother on the floor.
He yanked him and had the boy now looking at him
"If you breath a word of what happened here today to anyone, first I will tell your father that you killed her, then I'm going to do to your sister what I've been doing to you for the past one year, and then I'm going to kill her too" he gritted out, Nate just sat there shaking and tears streaming down his face, Salvatore shook him "do you fucking understand me" he growled out before he yanked Nate away and walked out of the house.
Leaving Nate there, staring at his dead mother, whose eyes were wide open.
He was shaking and unable to breathe.
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This is just so sad