marta: you look pale whats wrong?
maricela: painful cramps huh ill be ok i have to go finish off some work gio will be home in a couple hours vivis down for her nap and
marta: go its fine my love be careful though get something to drink on the way out take a dam day off
maricela: thank you and ill see haha
they left .. she sat back in pain
emiliano: your to quiet
maricela: these cramps are going to kill me
emiliano: is this normal? i have a dick so i dont know
maricela: can i kick you in the balls like 10 times? thats how this feels
emiliano: really? hell naw im good with that shit
they got to the office she tried walking but she felt faint emiliano helped her sit down
emiliano: ok this isn't normal what the fuck?
maricela: fuck.. can you call a doctor in for me please? im gonna use the bathroom i think i know whats going on
emiliano: what do you mean you know maricela? let me take you to the hospital?
she shook her head as she got herself up
maricela: no .. i dont wanna deal with it dont text or call giovani either please
emiliano: what the fuck are you talking about? maricela?
maricela: just fucking listen to me! emiliano!
she went to the bathroom but she was bleeding to much she screamed in pain .. emiliano knocked
emiliano: mari the doctors coming but come on? let me take you? your screaming in pain?
she took a deep breath and got herself up she cleaned herself up and sat down on the floor emiliano kept knocking
emiliano: im going to call giovani fucking answer me! maricela!!
she unlocked the door he got in and saw her on the floor
maricela: dont say a fucking word is the doctor here yet
emiliano got down to her level and looked at her face
emiliano: you over dosing? what the fuck?
maricela: wheres the doctor fucking tell me
emiliano: security letting him come here get off the floor
he tried to help her up
maricela: upstairs carry me upstairs please the apartment keys in the first drawer in my desk
he nodded he grabbed the keys and took her up kept breathing heavily
emiliano: i dont get why you dont want me to take you to the hospital? whats wrong? maricela please? your a mother?
he said as he got her in and set on the couch
emiliano: why is this place furnished?
she laid there in pain as the doctor came in
maricela: miscarriage i think i miscarried
doctor: did you bleed? have you stopped?
maricela: yes.. yes i have i saw the blood earlier but i ignored it i thought its the start of my period haven't had it in a couple months but then the pain came in it got heavier then i think i past out from the pain not the blood loss it just hurts so much
emiliano stood back and shook his head
emiliano: she needs to go to a hospital? doesn't she?
maricela: take me and ill fucking shoot you in the head! im not moving!
doctor: calm down just breath ok are you still bleeding?
maricela: no in pain only
doctor: i have antibiotics and pain meds you can mix them but you have to set an emergency appointment with your gyno ok i cant perform anything this isn't safe?
maricela: emiliano get my phone ill set up an emergency one
he nodded and went to get it
doctor: here take this its a high dosage you might knock out for a bit but it'll be ok ill leave some pain meds but go see this doctor you need to be seen
maricela: i will thank you
he helped her sit up she took the meds as emiliano ran back upstairs with her phone and things
emiliano: your purse is weird here
she took it and made the call
maricela: ok ill go in the morning .. fuck huh
doctor: keep on this till you get there it'll help with stopping the infection
maricela: thank you so much emiliano pay him please ill send you the money
emliano: dont worry i got you
he paid the doctor and walked him out he walked back up
emiliano: you scream in pain one more time im taking you to the hospital whats wrong with you? i get your this strong bitch but maricela? you can die? you have kids? you have me you have giovani come on?
maricela looked at him
maricela: you dont fucking think i know that? did you hear me? i miscarried i lost a baby and its not giovanis either
emiliano sat down next to her
maricela: i fucking hate myself .. i should've fucking seen the signs but i never fucking do! i never do i almost lost javi but i saw the sign i did .. like huh and everytime i go threw this it reminds of when i gave birth to viviana that fucking pain just throws me back in the loop of it all .. i fucking hate myself but i know i couldnt of brought this baby into this world
emiliano: why not? its not there fault?
maricela:no emiliano.. i dont wanna even think about it ok? please?
he nodded and hugged her as they heard a knock at the front door
emiliano: want me to tell whoever it is to leave?
maricela: check who it is please ill be right here just need to catch my breath
he nodded and opened the door
emiliano: briana?
maricela looked his way as she walked in
briana: i know you said never to like come here but i think you butt dialed me? and i heard you screaming in pain and i panicked are you ok? you weren't answering me either i can leave? i can
maricela got herself up and walked up to her and hugged her ..
briana: are you ok? why do you look weak? emiliano?
emiliano: ill um be down stairs i have take some calls
maricela: ill be right down im ok i promise
he nodded as he walked down
maricela: im fine just had a scare thats all
briana: are you sure? you dont look ok?
maricela broke down briana sat down with her and hugged her
maricela: im sorry im huh i had a miscarriage and its not my first i just go threw the waves of everything .. but im ok i took pain killers i have an appointment in the morning im ok
briana sat back and looked at her then hugged her
briana: its ok to not be ok its ok to feel the pain and cry it out? a miscarriage is a big thing and im sorry but girl not your first one? and well i shouldn't even ask but
maricela: ill feel these feelings for a bit and pull myself out i have kids now i have to think about ill be ok but yea not my first things happen ya know .. but ill be ok i always am
she got herself up and shook it off