HOSEOK'S POV
As the sun dipped below the horizon, the fleeting colors of dusk began to fade away. The charcoal-black rocks circled around small pools of water, shimmering confidently before dark fell upon them.
The music system was bursting with music to which we were dancing and twirling a few minutes before. The empty lunchboxes by its side. She really brought all what one could expect. Her Pandora's box turned into the Doraemon's pocket, having literally everything one could ask for.
Exhausted and restless we were sitting on the picnic blanket. The soft pastels of tangerine and indigo stretched over our heads and stars flaunted their luminosity looking absolutely breathtaking and courageous to outshine the dark.
Our legs were spread straight and our hands supported our little lean backwards. I turned my sight towards her who was looking towards the sky. Her sunkissed skin made her such a beauty I never found in any woman. She was special. Her eyes shone aspirations like the twinkling stars concealed by tufty clouds sporadically.
My gaze averted to her hand on the blanket, her slender fingers moved a little and suddenly, I was jealous of the blanket for it gets to touch her. My right hand itself went and landed over hers. My heart raced at the touch, her skin felt like rose petals when it brushed against mine.
She looked towards me, then towards our hands and then back at me. Her lips bore the semblance of a smile.
"What?" She asked and I shrugged.
"The stars are so beautiful," I changed the topic and her gaze averted back to the darkening sky.
"They are just giant balls of gases."
I was not very much appealed by her reply, "you know what, if you're just going to ruin it then I-"
"And yet none of them is as huge as my love for you," she continued. I honestly had chills on hearing that. I felt butterflies swarming in my stomach like some hungry beast when she spoke the words so delicately.
She looked back at me with a broad smile, "I love you Hobi. We are here today, under this brilliant sky and seriously I could have said something so much better. But I just cannot string the twenty six alphabets in a sequence that would describe my feeling. It's just that I honestly love you."
She took a deep breath without realising the effect her dulcet voice caused to my soul, "I'm totally in love with you. The kind of love that burns so intense it feels like an explosion of fireworks in your body. The love that leaves you sleepless but exhilarated, speechless but poetic, lost but exactly where you're meant to be. The feel-so much-you-get-scared kind of love. The can't-sleep-can't-breathe-can't-eat kind of love. The love I never knew I was searching for, I found in you, meri jaan."
"Mary Jane?"
She chuckled, "Not Mary Jane, 'Meri Jaan', it's a Hindi phrase that means my life."
"You know Hindi?"
"Not much, just a few phrases. I am a bit intrigued by the Indian culture," she smiled.
"Marry me YN," I asked, completely out of the box. No, I didn't plan this, I spoke it without realising but I nowhere regret it.
Her lips parted and her expressions dropped. I knew I hastened it but now there was no going back. I absolutely loved her.
"I don't know why things never go as I plan for them YN, the proposal I did earlier and now today. I know it's very sudden and bland and I don't even have a ring. I just have my love. I know it's just our second date and it has been just months since we started dating. As far as our friendship is concerned, it has been somewhat an year. But you, you're special to me. When I'm with you I feel something is just right.
More than a girlfriend, you're like my best friend. Someone with whom I can share anything and she won't judge and someone who would never let me lose faith. Someone who understood me when I didn't even spoke a word. I am lucky to have you. You're like my bestfriend except that you make me feel things. Like when I look at you right now, I just wanna kiss you-"
She broke the eye contact we were having and looked straight towards the reddish horizon.
I almost felt guilty, "I did not-"
"Then do it," she mumbled, still looking towards her feet in front of her eyes.
"Huh?"
Our eyes met once again, and she added, "kiss me."
That was all I needed, I cupped her face delicately in my palms and took her plump lips to mine. A soft brush of her skin against mine sent shivers down my spine. In that moment, the universe fell away. I have never been so lost in a kiss before. I have kissed before but it didn't burn me alive like that.
Her breath was hitting my face, tickling me lightly. My eyes were closed, savoring the feeling she gave me. Her hand touched my cheek and I was levitating, my skin was burning under her touch.
I let go of our liplock, eyes still imaging how alluring she may be looking. Brain fogged with incomprehensible thoughts, all having her. My lips felt deprived of life, moist and sensitive even to the wind passed by them.
I slowly opened my eyes and hers were still closed. Her lips parted slightly, seeming plump and glossy. Her skin was a brush of crimson. Her eyelashes fluttered, making her lustrous eyes meet mine. Her hand from my cheek went to her lips, touching them lightly. Her eyes widened all of a sudden. "I- I kissed you," she fumbled.
I smiled at her reaction. She was breathing heavily and I could feel it, her facial expression was so confounded as if starstruck.
"That was my first kiss," she mumbled.
"It's an honor, meri jaan."
Suddenly she yelled making me flinch. She yanked my light hold over her face and ran towards the sea and dancing like a maniac.
"HOBI!!! I love you! I kissed you! Me? I did it!" She exclaimed with unbelieving eyes that made me laugh. I too got up, still a bit dizzy after the drug she let me taste - her.
I went to her and I could not stop smiling standing in front of her.
"Could you believe it? I kissed you," she said almost in a breath. Her feet weren't landing on the ground as she was jumping.
I embraced her and my heart matched beats with hers to form a symphony.
"Yes. I believe it because you are the only woman I want to kiss. Or do anything with. You are the face I wanna see in the morning when I wake up, with messy hair asking me not to disturb you. It's you YN. Will you marry me YN?" I questioned, blood pumping throughout my body in nervousness.
She parted from the hug with a dull expression and my heart sank.
Maybe because of her brother? Or her job? Or maybe... She doesn't feel that strongly for me. I wanted to know the reason.
She looked up to meet my eyes and suddenly smiled, "yes Hobi, I'll marry you."
I was perplexed. My senses numb and her mellifluous voice ringing in my ears.
"You... You will?" She nodded to my question.
Without realising, I yelled and ran around with fidgety movements. I was behaving just like she did a moment prior and she was laughing just like me. But, did I care? Hell Nah. I was beyond happy.
BEYOND HAPPY WITH HER. I rushed to her cupping her face and peppering it with small butterfly kisses all over.
"Could you believe it? I'll marry you," I said jubilantly watching her smile uncontrollably. She pulled me down by my collar a bit, landing her lips on mine again, very softly. In that moment, I got the feeling. The feeling I got when I signed for BTS. The feeling I got when I accepted dance as my career. The feeling I got when I became me, J-Hope. The feeling that - I belong here. This is it.
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