Hello my all Love-Loves!!!
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I am back with another update and I kid you not this time, the chapter includes some mature scene, nothing much out of line though apart from physical parts, so kindly read if only you are interested so beware or may be you can skip that part.?
I will leave that to your wisdom!
Anyways, without much delay, I will start with the Chapter!
Enjoy!
15th August 2021
Bela's pov
I am disgusted in myself, for the first time I am wishing if I did not have a mouth!
May be things would have been better!?!
I know I am sounding crazy right now but trust me, this is the only thing that appeared to me as a solution to stop the kind of humiliation I faced last night. What he did last night was heinous and no women should be made to go through that unless of course they wanted it.
I wonder why would men not think about the aftereffects of their filthy deeds?
Why would they not consider what their partner want and if they are comfortable?
And on top of that, here I am, married to a person who is least bothered about me, especially when he is drunk!
Things were finally beginning to go ok between us but then he had to ruin it.
And this is why I hate Alcohol so much, it makes men loose their sanity!
My father was enough for an example but fate had to rub it on me again!
And with Nakul, the effects are extreme!
I don't know how and why he turns this violant, it like he is possessed by some external powers. Then it is not possible to bring him back to his senses. It's not like I did not protest ever...i did...infact I am protesting against his crude behaviour since beginning but like always....he used his masculinity and he manhandled me every time I resented!
And that's exactly what happened yesterday again....Then he left me in shame to suffer on my own but he had the audacity to come back and sleep beside me and touch me again, like he did nothing wrong!
But I could not stand his presence around me!
When I woke up, It seemed He wanted to say something or may be wash off on his deeds but I was not in the mood so I completely ignored him and washed myself, more like tried to wash away his filthy acts from my body crying within the walls of the washroom and then for my sanity I joined the others to distract myself!
I know it was not the best feeling and I was faking to be normal but right now anything away from Nakul is better!
I just do not want him around me!
But how can I be that Lucky?
The devil arrived soon and behaved as if everything was normal?
I tried to keep the rising feeling of disgust and vomit out everything and keep things around me in check and it was fairly visible to the both of us, Nakul knew my uneasiness as well, as when Avyan asked about the regular breakfast.
I did not have the courage or energy to cook for them still I offered but to my surprise Nakul said that they should eat whatever is served and he stressed that I am not entitled to cook and I should just let it be.
And I did not know how to react to his fake words!
The way he said it, cheered up everyone, well except for Me!
How can someone be this confident with their fake concerns?
But things turned horrible When Suhani shoved that piece of sandwich into my mouth, i could not hold it anymore!
I felt the same humiliation when last night Nakul had...
I don't even want to think about that act, so excuse me people!
And I ran to Puke!
I could hear Suhani and everyone else calling out my name in hurry but Nakul came to my support this time, may be he feared that I will spill about his deeds!
I don't know what made him follow me but I am thankful that because of him, they left me alone!
As soon I reached the washroom, I Puked till I was white!
I tried to wash my face and control the urge as I literally had nothing in my stomach to puke more!
But that feeling of gag never left me!
I drank some water and another bout of disgust came out of my mouth!
I was vomiting as if I had consumed some poison!
And top of that the one who was the reason behind my misery was patting my back to comfort me?
What is this Man?
Did he think that I will give a flying fuck to his concerns now?
I need to set him in his Place!
A.. Are you ok Bela? - he asked not meeting my eyes
I snarled - What do you Think????
Do I look ok to you???
Han??
Your filthy act of yours is the reason of my suffering!
I can't swallow anything without reliving that filthy act of yours!
Leave me alone Mr. Trehan!
I want some Privacy! - I yelled
Nakul looked hurt but today I don't want to care about his feelings, today I want him to see that how much because of him I am suffering!
Nakul sighed but offered me some more water and I began -
Why would you do that to me Nakul?
Why would you not consider about my consent?
Am I not worth your concern?
Not even a Bit?
Bela... I... I.. It's nothing like that wife!
Trust me I did not want to do that to you.... I am sorry for putting you through that pain! - he spoke this time holding my palm gently
Why Nakul?
I want to know why did you do that?
I told you, I will be loyal to you and I value this marriage!
Then why? - I was sobbing by this time
There... Are stuff that... You don't know about me Bela!
I... I.... am not Normal! - he whispered not meeting my eyes
Not Normal???
Was he kidding me???
Did he think that I will believe his stupid excuse?
Then I dont want to be with an abnormal man like you, who is not ready to share things with me!
And especially when he treats me like a Trash! - I replied back harshly
What... Are you saying Bela!
You can't leave me? - he replied in haste
Why??? Why can't I leave you?
You have given me reasons Nakul, not to stay in this weird marriage!
Remember you Blackmailed me into this Marriage?
I still stayed!
But you never cared about my side of story!
You just judged things on your own and then you find filthy ways to punish me!
Why? - I yelled
Bela I am aware I did wrong things to you, Trust me!
But give me a chance!
I want to take care of you???
Please? - he said coming closer
What all things do you want to make right Nakul?
The physical pain that you inflicted on me or the mental torture???
Or the humiliation that you put on me?
Tell me! - I seethed pushing him away
Bela.. Please! - he almost whispered
No Nakul... Stop with your Bipolar behaviour!
I can't take this anymore!
There has to be a limit of you treating me without any trust in me!
Suhani is right, we should not be together!
All you can ever give me is, Pain! - I replied looking right into his eyes
But next moment Nakul jerked me to him and said angrily -
That is not true Bela!
Su... Suhani does not know anything!
I... I want to be with you!
See...You are doing this again.... Nakul you can not force me to be with you...! - I replied
Sighing again Nakul spoke - Bela...i know...i behave wierd around you...but I can change...it will take some time but I can give you reasons to be with me....i can give you pleasure... And I can give you Happiness..!
Just don't push me away?
And with that he smashed his lips on mine....i was hell shocked ....one moment he was assaulting me...and next moment he is kissing me like I am some of his property....I wanted to push him away... I could not stand his mind games anymore...and I did... But he held me back and began to shower wet kisses on my neck ardently...murmuring sweet nothings in between And That moment he was not the caveman...he was kissing me like a gentle lover...and suddenly there was a sexual tension around us...his closeness and his gentleness did something inside me!
My body betrayed!
Once Again???
And I hate my body for this!
But I also felt special!
Was I loosing my mind?
How can I feel like this?
Do you feel pain Bela?? - he asked slowly kissing my valley
Do you?
Now? - he asked once again lowering down to my uncontrolled heaving flesh
N.. No! - I replied without my permission
This is what I am talking about Wife....you can't deny the attraction we have for each other...even when I fuck up every single time! - he spoke biting me softly
He was hypnotising me once again with his skillful kisses and acts and then he lifted me till I was settled on his waist and I did not even realise when he took me to the shower cabin and turn on the shower.
The water washed both our bodies and then Nakul began to play with my body, his eye never leaving mine!
Warning : Mature content Ahead
(Writer's pov)
Sliding down her dress from the right shoulder, Nakul began to gift her with butterfly kisses, something he had never done before...his teeth slowly grazing her soft wet skin and Bela found it hard to concentrate.
Bela's eyes rolled back in pleasure and without her realising, Nakul slowly exposed her upperbody and began to explore her with his mouth.
His hard chest glued to her soft one and his hands roamed all over her back, sending electric shocks to her body.
N..Nakul we need to talk..please.... Don't stop me from asking you things by getting intimate... I know what you are trying to do here!
But this is not going to solve anything! - Bela spoke cupping his face gently
Bela...just this time...let me Feel you...we will talk about us soon! - Nakul replied holding her closer and kissing her earlobes
Nakul... Please... Let me go? - Bela was getting weak with each passing second under him
No!
Never!!! - he roared holding her by my waist, almost warning her
Bela pleaded with her eyes as words would not come out of her mouth because of the tingles and fireworks caused by Nakul. And Damn he knew how to control her, she was not at all happy how she was responding to him, and thus she was backing away but then she stopped in her place when Nakul spoke hoarsely -
Tell me you don't want me and I will let you go!
Tell me you don't feel the change and I will stop!
And Bela shivered at his words!
I know you want me too Bela....just give in... I promise I will erase all the pain I have given you!
Let me heal you!
Please! - he held her thighs around his waist almost pleading and as vulnerable as a kid melting Bela's determination
And then they both surrendered to each other!
And Bela began to participate, it was like, for once she wanted to trust on his sincerity or may be Nakul was providing a sense of security to her for the first time!
One by one, he removed each and every cloth that glued to their bodies making Bela feel the cold!
But then he immediately hugged her body in his and she then realised that he had removed his inner clothes too!
And Bela Blushed lowering her eyes and he husked - There is nothing you have not seen Wife!
He once again straddled himself with her silky legs and buried his face in her bare chest....then cupping her left one he sucked on them like a child and Bela sucked in a breath, throwing her head back. She could feel the heat in the southern parts and the way Nakul had placed her on his waist did not help.
Things got heated and His gentleness was making Bela feel a different errotic emotion which was unknown to her!
It was like a new Nakul in front of her!
Overwhelmed with his gestures Bela too began to explore him and Nakul's breaths quickened, he was not used to be touched but he knew he had to give in for this moment as Bela deserved to feel the thrill too, even though he was getting panicked by her touch yet he tried to let it be but it was when Bela kissed him hard on his neck and she was starting to dominate the play.
And Nakul could not take this any further as he was scared He would ruin the moment because of his past thus he held her hands tight against him and plunged one of his fingers inside her and held Bela firm by her hips, giving a halt to her advances.
He quickly caught a hold of a string from one of the bathrobes and holding Bela's hands above her head, began to tie them making Bela coming out of her pleasure.
Wh... What are you doing Nakul??? - she asked panicked
Do you trust me Wife? - Nakul asked instead
Umm... N.. No? - whispered Bela gulping
Nakul sighed and then Bela continued - Ask yourself Nakul that have you ever given me one reason to trust you, hold onto you?
Nakul watched Bela intently for a few seconds but then continued with tieing up her arms anyways.
Bela once again stuttered -
Please..
Nakul... Don't force me again?
Shush!
Just calm down Bela...i know you dont trust me......and you are right...i will not understand this....but know that I will not hurt you anymore!
With the string he tied her hands to the rack where a couple of bathrobes were hanging. He then moved his face to her neck and then began to gently kiss her flesh!
Bela arched her back and the sensation he was giving to her body caused Bela to tilt her head backwards in surrender.
He played with her wet folds and hit her sensitive spots and Bela moaned -
Don't stop it Nakul!
And Nakul grunted and pulled her hair more and replacing his finger with his manhood, thrusted deep inside her!
Bela quivered and tried to touch him but with her hands tied she could not, she cried - Let me Touch you Nakul!
But Nakul like the person he is, shut her mouth by kissing her hard and then freeing her hands, led themselves to their bedroom without coming out of her folds and they continued with their love making.
His thrusted deep inside her and Bela just took whatever he did to her as she was melting under his Love.
Yes, Nakul was making Love to Bela!
He knew his wife deserved his gentleness after what he had done to her and thus for the first time, he wanted to put her comfort ahead of him.
They did not realise how much time they spent exploring each other but it was almost dawn when Bela collapsed on his bare chest... Exhausted and Spent!
And then Nakul smiled and stroked her red face tenderly and asked -
Did I give you Pain this time Wife!?!
And overwhelmed with the sensation Bela could only snuggle more closer into his neck and Nakul smiled.
She voiced out - Hold me Tight Nakul!
Mature scene ends here
Nakul stiffened at her demand as he never believed in cuddling women but sighing, he held her anyway burying her more to himself And soon they were silent!
May be he was coming out of his discomfort for his wife!
Why can't you be like this Nakul? - asked Bela caressing his chest
Like what? - he asked lost
Like this...More Tolerable???? - Bela pressed her inner cheeks and smiled
Am I not Tolerable??
Hmm!
I will think about this.. May be!
Just for you! - replied Nakul pressing Bela more to himself
Wow!
I am touched dear Husband! - Bela commented sarcastically
And giggled making Nakul laugh!
God, I missed a lady like you in my life!
I never knew I would be laughing with you one Day! - said Nakul kissing Bela's forehead
And then there was silence again!
Nakul then held Bela's face gently and said - Forgive me Bela?
I...i know that I hurt you since the time I forced you into this marriage!
But I had my reasons....but I am past that!
Don't leave me?
I....i will be a good Husband? - he almost pleaded with his moist eyes
Bela sighed and moved closer to his warmth, there was something so vulnerable in Nakul's eyes in that moment that she knew her one wrong move and he would be Broken, she could see the sparks of longing in his eyes and she interlocked her fingers with his and smiled at him.
Say Something! - asked Nakul
Bela looked at his face and then spoke -
Who is your family?
You never speak of them....i don't even see any family photos here?
Avyan told me about your dad....But never about your mom!
In fact, Nobody talks about your mother!
Who was she?
How was she?
How was your relation with her?
Who raised you?
To Bela, these questions seemed the most obvious ones to ask to her Husband as she wanted to know him better as she felt that their marriage could be saved but what she did not know was that these questions were the root cause of Nakul's misery....and her words were triggering Nakul's insecurities and it was like he was reliving those moments and thus unconsciously, he tightened his grip on her and Bela winced!
Not a word Bela!
I think you are tired...you should sleep! - he growled going all red
His sudden switch in the tone irked Bela but she was not going to back down everytime, so she questioned back -
Why?
So this is how it's going to be?
When you need my body you will act like as if you own me.... And then you will crush me till your heart is content!
But mera kya Nakul?
(What about me Nakul)
Am I just a sex slave for you? Will there ever be an emotional involvement between us???
Or it is just that you gonna walk out on me every time your need is fulfilled???
As your wife, do not I have some rights to know about your family?
I am not asking for details, I just wanted to know atleast the names!
Or tell me how was your childhood?
I just want to know you better!
Is that a Crime???
Do not test my patience Bela!
I will destroy you! - Nakul gritted his teeth pulling his hair
You have already caused enough damage Nakul!
There is probably nothing you can do more worse than this! - Bela spatted
I feel humiliated Nakul, the way you treat me after your needs are fulfilled. I want more from you as your wife!
Where is this marriage going?
Is this always going to be like this?
Your body inside me?
If you think of a woman's point of view, this looks so cheap!
A relationship based on just physical needs!?!
No attachments!?!
How am I going to go like this? - she asked in hurt
Nakul watched her for some time and replied -
I have been raised by My Father, he guided me!
My mom was least bothered about us, she was only interested in parties and business!
I can not tell you everything but just know that my childhood was not easy!
Rather I was harrassed!
I was weak!
I was a Coward!
I was nothing like the Nakul, who is your Husband.
I paid a heavy price for being weak And vulnerable!
And I am not going to weak again, ever again, not for you... Not for anyone!
I don't want to get assaulted Again!
Bela was stunned And stilled....never I her dreams, she thought that Nakul must have gone through any kinds of harrassment but the truth was far from this. He did get Assaulted...and then his whole life changed upside down!
She caressed his hair And then Bela felt tears on her neck area!
Nakul was crying in the crook of her neck!
W... What are you talking about Nakul??
How??
Who did that to you? - Bela dreaded the question but asked
Can we no... Not T.. Talk about this now??
Bela... I promise... I will try to open up... It's not easy! - he hiccuped more
Bela could not comprehend what to talk but she patted his head to calm his nerves and whispered -
I know the feeling Nakul!
Trust me I am no better!
May be it is difficult for now...but it's important to let it all out!
She was not sure if Nakul heard or not but she felt him relaxing and slowly Nakul gave in to exhaustion and slept holding her close to himself.
But Bela was wide awake...she knew something was not right with Nakul...she wanted to know more and she was determined that she will get Nakul talk to her in any ways possible. He can not get away by crying helplessly.... After getting intimate with her!
He has to open up to me!
He has to!
May be it's the bitter truth of his life but he will have to open up, for us... For his own self!
I don't deserve this kind of Trash of a treatment due to his past!
If I can set Ishaan and Avinash right, my own husband needed to learn to respect me too!
And I will make sure he does! - she spoke to herself
And giving one last look to Nakul, she closed her eyes too!
Hoping for better Days to come for them!
Both knew things were not good between them, the kinds of secrets they both have, can not be revealed in one night, they must trust each other with their secrets!
If Nakul had secrets, so did Bela!
It is high time they talked about themselves with open Hearts!
And I Hope that day comes soon!
Phew*** more than 3800 words!
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