The inside of my head was a mess. I should panic because Chloe was in front of me. I have never called or texted her back. So I guess she must be pretty mad. She looked better than the time we kissed in the bathroom. I figured she was wearing much more make-up that time.
The blond was heading into my direction and gave me a quick hug. 'Long time no see Ashley' and she gave me a peck on the lips. I was paralyzed for a moment. What was happening?
'You never called me since our kiss Ashley. Im happy I see you again'.
Chloe's blue eyes went to Demi. 'Are you her new 'hook up? I saw Ashley gave you a quick kiss on the field'.
Demi looked at me, confused. 'Ashley what is this?' she asked me.
I opened my mouth but Chloe replied for me.
'You see I had a date with Ashley, we made out in the bathroom and I gave her my number afterwards. But she didnt call or text and here I am, seeing she is hooking up with you'. Chloe turned to me and said 'you practically used me Ashley, you're a heartless bitch. I cant stand you would so the same to this nice girl. But if you're wondering, we're done Ashley'.
She turned her back to me again and said to Demi 'Sorry you had to see this but I hope you understand, good luck'.
Chloe looked at me once again and left.
Brandi, Drew, Demi and Riley stared at me. There was this awkward silence. Riley cleared her throat and said 'I see you at school Ash, we have to go'. She pulled Drew and Brandi with her.
'Thanks for attending the game' I said and saw them walking away. Which means only Demi was left right now. Normally I would like that but at this time I couldnt find the right words to explain.
Demi crossed her arms and looked at me. I think I saw a little sadness in her eyes but that was mixed with anger too.
'Ashley, please explain. When you told me you never called her, it turned out you didnt lie. But you kind of used her and hurted her. How could you do that? And how can I know you wont do the same to me?'
I have to say it was very clear what pissed Demi off. But Im not going to do the same to her, Ive never thought about that. How can I say that to her with the right words?
'First of all Demi, it was a double date. Drew forced me to go I couldnt say no to him. Demi the fact that you think Im that person who Chloe says I am, that really hurts. You are so different from others Demi, I'
Woah I almost was going to say I loved her. We just had our first date so that will be too soon. I cant tell her now what I feel for her. A part of me said maybe if I didnt Demi will be gone. I decided if I would lose her, I can always tell her what I feel. Those feelings arent going to leave.
'Demi why would I do that to you? You and I are in the same team and we are going to the same school. Would be really stupid because I would have to deal with you most of the time. And if you are mad that I kissed her, sorry but Ive kissed more girls in my life. None of them are good compared to yours. Tell me Demi, do you really think I did all these things for you to leave you at the end or I would use you? Tell me Demi, had you ever thought about that before Chloe showed up?'
My rant was finished. Maybe I was a little too hard on her but now she could see it pissed me off. I thought of all persons, Demi could see I was different and not the person people were afraid of. Karen used that image of me, so she could more popular too. I know that now, how could I be so stupid? But I know the answer I was stupid in love. Just like I am now with Demi.
Demi was speechless. I could see she was thinking of what to say to me.
'I dont know where all of this is going, I mean Ive never been with a girl. How will people respond? Is it going to work out for me? I need time to think Ashley but I want to thank you for your generosity for letting me stay over. I didnt know I would actually enjoy a date that much. That is also why Im so confused'. She gave me a small smile.
'I also need time to think of your questions, you made a really clear point. But I have to go now, I texted my mom if she could pick me up and now she is here. So I see you Monday at school'.
She walked towards the car her mother was in. Her mom waved at me, I waved back. When Demi said those things I could see she was almost crying. I didnt want to confuse her or be the one who almost made her cry.
The car drove off. Demi was gone, not really gone because I would see her Monday but she wasnt with me anymore. I was relieved I didnt confess my feelings because if I had opened and she would say she has to think about it, I dont really know but it would have really hurt my feelings.
Riley and Demi were gone. I needed to go home too but Riley took me here. I decided to walk home. That couldnt hurt me and maybe it was good for me at this time.
It was a good thing I could see the front door. I was really tired, I didnt know the distance from school to my house was that long. The basement, that was where I was heading next. One of the rooms in the basement was full of alcohol and liquor. My parents werent home and I really needed a drink. Well more than one drink actually.
I drunk a whole bottle of scotch when I started to feel a little bit dizzy. Taking another bottle with me, I was walking on the stairs again. My plan was to sit in the living room but I noticed my sister, Amber, was there. She sat on the couch but not the usual 'sitting'. There was a guy next to her, they were making out but when they saw me, they stopped.
I didnt feel the need to see that and Amber told me to leave the house. That was a good thing because when she asked that I already know what she was going to so with that guy. Amber calls me names like slut and stuff but thats kind of ironic because she is the real slut here.
Usually when Amber told me to leave I would go to Riley's or Drew's. It is Saturday evening, almost night so I figured they would have a date or something. I walked to the park near my house to continue drinking my other bottle of scotch.
The next morning I woke up, I didnt woke up like I usually did. I wasnt laying in my bed, I was laying on the couch with my clothes on. I felt dirty so I went upstairs to clean myself. I removed my clothes and took a shower. After that I looked at myself in the mirror. To my surprise it looked like something black was on my arm. I shoved my arm in front of the mirror to get a clear view. Holy shit, I got a tattoo last night. There was this word 'Be strong' written on my arm. Good thing I liked the tattoo it wouldnt be so good if there would be a massive skull or something on my arm.
My headache was killing me, I drank loads of water. It helped a little bit but not as much as I hoped it would.
I can remember I was going to the tattoo shop. The same one where I got the tattoo on my shoulder. What I cant remember is where I told the man what kind of tattoo I wanted and he wrote it on me. And also the way home, I couldnt remember that either.
I was trying to watch the new episode of Orange is the new black but my thoughts interrupted. What if Demi thought this all through and didnt want to be with me?
My mind was doozing off and didnt take long before I was sleeping.
It was Monday morning when I woke up. I wasnt ready to go to school and to 'face' my problems.
I was planning on putting a long sleeved shirt on so people couldnt see my new tattoo. Why does the sun feel the need to shine and to be extra warm? Now I have to wear a t-shirt or I will be too warm.
My first class was geography with Riley. She asked me how Demi reacted. I told her Demi needed some time.
I listened to the teacher who was explaining stuff to avoid the conversation with Riley.
'Oh my god Ashley, you have another tattoo! What were you thinking?'
'Actually I wasnt thinking. I drank too much and it happened'.
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Riley's p.o.v.
I felt sorry for Ashley. She doesnt want to admit she tried to drink the pain away. She was really happy with Demi and that Chloe girl ruined everything. I should ask Drew why he brought her along. Drew can be stupid but he could have known Chloe was gonna ruin it.
It was time for lunch. I noticed Drew was standing by the lockers. I grabbed his hand and dragged him to the corner. 'What were you thinking for bringing Chloe?'
He brought a hand through his hair and winked at a girl who was passing by.
'Drew listen to me' I yelled at him.
He shrugged and said 'She begged me to see Ashley again and Brandi would appreciate it'.
'Well how smart of you' I said annoyed.
'Look I know what happened I was there. Dont you think I feel bad for doing that to Ashley? I tried to apoligize but its hard, I think she is really mad at me'. It sounded like he was being honest.
'I know something I will tell you because I hate seeing Ashley like this'.