A Simple Secret (A Cameron Dallas Fanfiction)

chapter 18

I woke up to my phone ringing. It was Kayla.

"Hey," I answered, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

"What's up babe? I miss you," she replied. I smiled.

"I miss you too. When are you coming back?"

"Not until next week," she answered, sounding sad, but then happier. "But, it's so fun here! Lake Tahoe is seriously the prettiest place I've been in so long. I wish you could have come with us."

"Me too," I answered, meaning it.

"Anyways, what's with you and Shawn?" she answered, and I could hear the smirk in her voice, knowing what I was about to say.

"Well, we're sort of dating," I said, a little nervously.

"I knew it! It was bound to happen. It was literally like instant connection. Bam, boom, ba-"

"Shut up," I said, although I couldn't help but laugh. It was kind of true, anyways.

"What about Cam?" she asked.

"What about him?" I wondered.

"Have you talked to him?"

I sighed. "No, well yes, but it didn't go so well, so I'm supposed to try again today."

"Supposed to?"

"Yeah, Shawn wants me to. He's worried about him, Cam that is. He's been really distant lately."

"Really? Shawn wants you to?"

"Yeah?"

"Oh, okay. Well, I gotta go, but make sure you call me and tell me all the details!"

I smiled again. "Of course. Bye! Tell your family I say hi."

"Of course, see you!" she replied, hanging up.

I got up, brushed my teeth, and took a quick shower, slipping on some comfortable clothes.

I left my room and took a deep breath. "Here goes nothing," I say to myself.

I knock on the door that Cam was supposed to be in, and someone opened the door. It was Cam.

He looked terrible. His eyes were red, he had bags underneath his eyes, and his hair was all over the place. And he still looked cute.

What the hell? I had a boyfriend now. I took a deep breath.

"Hi," I said uncertainly.

He stared at me cautiously, before opening the door completely. "Hi. Come in?"

I walked in and sat down on a couch. "Are you alright?"

He turned to look at me. He still looked surprised to see me there, but I ignored it. "Yeah, I'm fine. Why?"

"You look really stressed..." I said, hesitantly.

"Loss of sleep does make you look like a mess," he said, laughing a little.

I smiled a little. Leave it to him to make a joke in a time like this. He looked practically dead.

"So why are you here?" he asked.

"I wanted to, um, check up on how you were doing, I guess," I explained. "And we should probably talk since last time didn't go so well..."

He nodded. "Alright. Wanna go first?"

"Sure."

He leaned back on his chair, folding his arms in his lap. "Go ahead."

"Why didn't you bother trying to reach me?" I spit out. Might as well get to the point.

He took a deep breath. "I can't tell you all of it but I had a lot of things going on, and I thought it was just better if I left you out of it, and let you go. I didn't really expect you to come back into my life, especially not like this."

"What?"

"I just, I thought it'd be best if I left you alone, to find someone else who could make you happy."

"This is sounding like a breakup, and I have no idea what you're talking about."

"I just, I missed you. But, I knew it'd be impossible for me to ever find time to see you, to be a friend that was always there for you, and besides, what you said, well, kind of hurt."

I looked down. What I'd said about him not being my best friend, when he obviously considered me one was kind of harsh. "I'm sorry about that."

He held up his hand. "No, I deserved that."

"No, you didn't. I was so mean to you, and I didn't even realize the effect my words would have on you."

He looked at me sadly. "It's fine. It's all in the past now."

I stood up, and walked over to him, holding my hand out. "Friends?"

He stared at me before standing up, and grabbed my hand. "Friends."

"Wait, there's one more thing. You said you can't tell me all of 'it'. What's it?"

He pulled his hand out of our hold and looked at the ground. "I can't tell you just yet."

"Why not?"

"It wouldn't be fair."

What is he talking about? "Why not?"

"Look Ash, let's leave it for now. I promise I'll tell you soon enough. But, for now, let's just try to make up for the time we lost, alright?"

I let it go because he seemed like he needed some space right now, so I nodded. "Alright."

Someone knocked on the door. It was Shawn. "Hey girl, you done? I was wondering if you wanted to go to the movies with me."

I looked at him. "Yeah sure. Wait, can Cam come?"

"Yeah of course."

Cam walked over to us, and lightly smiled. "Nah, it's okay, you guys go enjoy yourselves. I'm still tired, and I'll probably fall asleep. You guys go ahead."

Shawn nodded, and smiled. "Take care, bro."

Cam smiled back and closed the door after I left.

I had a feeling he was hiding something big, but I didn't know what. But, I knew I'd find out sooner or later.

CAM POV

When Ashley knocked on my door, I was relieved but sad at the same time. I wasn't a mess only because of my stress or the lack of sleep, it was also because of her.

I mean, to have the girl you've liked forever come back and then go out with one of your best friends? It sucked, more than anything.

And even more, I couldn't tell her. It would just be unfair to her and Shawn. I mean, I'd known her for almost 10 years! And I've never even hinted at it. Now that she's finally in a relationship with someone she actually likes, and with someone who likes her back, and is man enough to tell her, I can't just take that away from her.

Oh god, I'm such an emotional mess. Fuck feelings.

And then when she asked me to be her friend, I couldn't help but say yes. It was better than nothing.

I decided to sleep while they went to the movies, because I had to move on now. Because, like I've said a million times, it was way too late for anything now.

I'd never find a girl like her.

****A/N:

lol sucky chapter but I'm dead af because this week was hell which is why this is so late.

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