What Would It Be? (COMPLETED)

#44

Is he really that heartless and inconsiderate that he immediately finds a new way to be happy without knowing that me... still trying to exclude in my system everything they did?

My heart is constricting inside my chest. I close my eyes and faced the ceiling, catching my possible tear drops.

My point finger slipped and put me in Von's tweet. Something about inside of me went into manic places because he posted a new photo.

Not his dog.

Not of himself, smiling for the camera.

It was a quote written on a windshield, with the words that made me feel levity and all. Fuck.

How can I be so wrong to everything?

I just wish I could lose these feelings as fast as I lost you

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"Dumating na 'yung invitation mo, ah? Have you seen it?"

That's what I asked when I got inside Trent's car. Sinundo niya ako dahil kukunin ko 'yung susuotin ko para sa kasal nina Paul at Orin sa susunod na linggo.

God, I didn't even know that was fast and all I can think now is they are getting married in just a few days!

Parang kailan lang noong last kong nakausap si Paul and he knew we are ovee already. But after weeks of getting okay, sinabi ko kay Paul na Trent and I are okay now so if the invitation is still open, I'd gladly accept it.

"Talaga?" he revved the engine. "Akala ko nga hindi na ako bibigyan.."

"Bakit naman?"

"I don't know.." humalakhak siya. "Malay ko kung hindi pala ako napatawad 'nun?"

Naningkit ang mga mata ko. "And why would he not forgive you?"

But he never responded to it. "Look, if what you're thinking is true, then hindi na sana sila nagpadala. But they still did. Look, Orin, the bride is a big fan of one of the movies you did before. Kahit para sa kaniya na lang.."

Orin told me that one time on the phone, nabanggit siguro sa kaniya ni Paul iyon kaya nasabi niya na favorite niya 'ung movie na ginawa nga niya noon.

"Tss.."

"Ano bang problema mo?" taka ko.

"Wala. Ginagawa mo naman kasi na dahilan iyong babae.."

"So?"

"Pupunta ako dahil pupunta ka, okay?" bigla siyang ngumiti. "Cute mo pa rin kapag nagagalit,"

I can't believe what I'm hearing so I startef throwing punches at him. I only stopped when it hit me in the head that he's driving. Fuck.

If I continue punching him, baka sa langit na lang kami magkita pa ni Paul.

Pagkarating ng mall, dumeretso na kami kaagad sa shop kung saan ko kukunin ang suit. Trent still has no idea what he'll wear.

Even if I told him about what's the motif and how he should be like when we showed up, wala pa rin siyang alam.

"Titingin na lang siguro ako.." sagot niya sa mga tanong ko tungkol doon.

When I finally grabs what I will wear, he still has no idea what he'll wear. Trent will just stare at me and tend to just look away when I'm giving back what he's throwing at me.

"Kumain ka na kanina?"

"Not yet.."

"Okay.. Kain muna tayo.." bigla niya akong hinigit sa bewang.