Pensée Of Anemones

...troubled waters

There's no miracle left for me

I'm not allowing it

I've been there in my daydreams for too long

What's left was just the echo of a feeble voice

Help! help!

I see you smiling pitying me and my last moments on earth as if your own turn wasn't coming

Even the biggest distress of mine doesn't make her come back rushing for me

I gave up

I will for the time being

All the doors are closing in

Help! help!

It's too dark I see nothing

I hear nothing

Please I don't want hate, grudge, a hard feeling

Let me go! let me go!

Set me free

O world give me a breather

Let me heal my heart

How sad it is that the Most Merciful created among you ones that turn merciless?

Have you forgotten where you came from?

Don't you know where you are heading back?

A single scream of pain is not enough

I'm not letting you into my heart

I won't let you clear your conscience  trying to help me feel better

I gave up on you, I gave up on myself

I'm staying selfish now no one can force me

Let the ones who don't know the curse of empathy feel it for once

Let their pain begin

Even if only mine always stays