Pensée Of Anemones

...strange

What's that persisting pain in my chest?

The one I keep insisting is not dangerous that I can handle?

The scary one that could bring about my demise?

And get me lost again?

What is it with the denial?

Or the jealousy ad comparing myself with the others?

Thinking a heart seeking the truth and purity could hold something soiled

As if both could live together in the same place, in harmony
In my heart

Maybe I should stop now justifying

And learn now to thread on a safe line

Everytime I remember there was a veil and shade covering me

For years without me noticing

All of a sudden I'm exposed to myself and my vulnerabilities

Convincing myself I'm in the right

And advising the others from doing the wrong

When I'm still struggling on my own

Is it but a long and thorny path to be human?

Faced with the same level you have to surpass

Time and time again

Then sometimes you flop, you loose

Hopefully more often times you fight back and forgive yourself

And give yourself another chance