Pensée Of Anemones

...unreasonable

My Lord my heart feels so heavy,

From having to carry the burden of failed friendships

Which I ended with the severe punishment of distance

For the sake of my own sanity that relentlessly dreams and reflects back on the old days

My sensitive soul yearns for the past to rewind

Back to a time when I loved so much it hurt

But that was a good type of pain

Now it's just a gut-wrenching need to let go of my resolutions, my determination

To stand back and stay put

Because wouldn't it be so easy to just forgive and forget?

To let go and make myself vulnerable to yet another strike of indifference?

Don't human become haughtier because they feel mightier over you?

When is the right time to act like the mindless poultry?

Ready to go back to peck as soon as it's admonished?

When will my unreasonable heart finally understand?

That what was undone is forever gone?