Pensée Of Anemones

...vulnerability

Please keep coming back no matter how many times I push you away or give you a choice.

No I don't want pity nor help please let no one see me

Please share with me my burden feel my pain for me, relieve me from it

No you can't you're only as human as me you want to forget your own pain

It's easier to take a distance than push a person away

It's easier to selfishly try and move on with your own life and refuse to face reality when the one you promised to support shatters quietly behind

Please my conscious don't keep erasing them from my heart

No my heart they chose themselves as always learn to let go

But what will be of my feelings, what do I do with them now that I now who's who?

Do I fake it?

Or do I desperately keep pursuing something that won't happen?

Should I change then?

But I know one thing for sure for how long I've known them, for how long they have chosen to stay for how much they were more sensitive, for how much they have tried to keep some cool in front of my panic in fear of the cruel truth of life, none of that will matter anymore.

No one will never matter anymore.

I think that... I think that I'll take what I get but won't ask for it.

I'll let my heart behave on its own

And let humans be humans

The ones that had it hard can only have back others that went through the same

Or if they are sincere friends

And those are rare but I won't go looking for it

From now on I won't blame anyone. I will blame no one who refuses to accept that life's is hard. Neither the ones that delude themselves into thinking it'll always be sweet and it'll only be enough so it won't hurt, nor the ones who just like to forget

I'm disappointed, but I understand them

That's why I won't ask anymore

No one will never be there when it really matters

They are either in cowardly flight or blissful and fearful denial