Love Looking For Words

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"You're joking, right?"
She laughs for a while, before looking up at my face and realising that I'm dead serious.

"Aw, come on!"
She yells, throwing her hands up.

I slowly lower my guitar onto the ground to show how serious I am.
"Either you do it too or I don't."

She glares at me for a while.
"Fine."
She pulls over a mic stand and bends it to suit her sitting position in front of the mixer.

"Alright let's do this."
She hits record.

I let my fingers do their thing, strumming the guitar to the tune of the song I've been recently trying to complete.

"Ooh ooh ooh ooh..."

Her eyes widen at the sound of my voice.

"yeah...
  You made me feel like even I lost the
  whole world, girl I would always have
  you
  It felt so real, you made me feel so alive,
  girl you made my dreams come true
  So even when you ripped me apart and
  hung up my heart
  I still can't get over you"

I know what y'all are thinking and yes, I wrote this song when I was at my lowest, when I realized I had lost Kendra.

Kharise moves a switch and a steady beat begins playing. She moves a few more, modifying the sounds to give them a steady groovy feel. I close my eyes, getting into the emotional part of me.

"Girl I need to understand how you
  drive me crazy
  Girl don't leave me hazy
  Tell me something baby
  Girl I need to understand, 'cause girl I
  can't explain it
  Worse I can't contain it, yeah
  I can't get over you oh oh oh"

I point to her, signalling that this is where she comes in.

She rolls her eyes at me.

Come on, I mouth to her.

"You know I've never felt so hurt
  Worse, my world's comin' down
  Been watching you so happy, man I'm
  fucked this time around
  You're going places man and all I've
  been is sitting down
  Feels like I'm about to drown while you
  gon' wear a fucking crown..."

Watching her while she's rapping is totally something else. She belts out the words like she's in another place, telling a story through her rhymes moving so animatedly that you can feel every damn emotion.

She looks so alive and free, rhyming her feelings with each other and the sight of it is just...

Beautiful.

" 'cause I'm in the crowd
  I'm losing myself, it's fucking loud
  I made excuses for myself
  Guess what? I'm fucking proud
  Scream at the top of my voice
  Hope you can hear through all that
  noise
  I've proven it that was my choice
  So I'm gonna fucking shout"

She leans down and softens the beat, and her bars shine through.

  "shit goes down how it is
  I take a lot of crap with it
  'Cause lovin' you is like starting an
  apocalypse, boom
  But I go through with it
  I've been depressed, been disappointed
  Been through all this bitch is haunted
  Fucked up by the nigga that
  disregarded uh.."

She signals that she's done.
And I come in with a bridge.

This is a lot better than I expected.

***
Friday...

"What's up, Brent?"
I lock my car and walk over to where he is standing in the parking lot of Range.

"Carson! Man, where you been? It's like you just up and disappeared. School finally getting to you?"
He slaps me lightly on the back as we walk up to the building, pushing past the revolving doors.

"Nah, man. It's a long ass story."
I sigh recapping the past week in my head.

"Something to do with Mike and Kendra teaming up against you?"

"Sorta."

We step into the elevator and he presses the button to the first floor.

"It's complicated."

The door opens and we walk through a hallway before stopping at the door to the recording studio.
He slides his access card and opens it.
I step in after him and shut the door behind me.

"You here to record?"
Brent asks, turning on the equipment.
I take a seat beside him and pull out a flash drive from my pocket.

"Not exactly."
I hand it to him and he plugs it in. The recording plays from the top and I watch as Brent taps his foot to the rhythm at first.

When Kharise's part comes up, his brows pull together in what I assume is either confusion or surprise.
"Who's she?"

I sigh, leaning back on the seat.
"Something new."

"Whoa, dude! With this chick, and a few modifications to both your vocals and the instrumentals-"

He leans back in his seat, his smile growing.

"You're going back to the top of the charts, man!"

"I know, right?"

Then why do I feel like shit?

***

Sorry for the short chapter.

So what do you think is gonna happen next?

How do you think Logan is going to break the truth to Kharise?

Do you think she knows already?

Will he be able to fulfill the final part of Earl's conditions?

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Stay beautiful and safe.
Xoxo
Dhavié