Undefined feelings
I stood up and went on his terrace. I don't know if it's alright to just leave him there after what he said.
I don't know what to say. Should I be happy, sad, or surprised? I don't know! I didn't expect this.
Inayos ko ang buhok ko dahil sa lumakas ang hangin. Naramdaman ko siya sa gilid ko at nilagay niya ang magkabilang braso sa barandilya.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know how to react," Pagamin ko.
Tahimik lang siya at malayo ang tingin. Hindi ko siya matingnan ng diretso.
Ayaw ko ng binibigla ako ng ganito dahil hindi ako nakakapaghanda kaya hindi ko alam ang sasabihin.
Humaba ang katahimikan at nakatanaw lang siya sa kalangitan.
"I guess we're ending this.." Bulong ko habang nakatingin din sa mga langit.
I felt him looked at me so I looked at him too. His eyes are so mysterious to me.
"Yeah.. let me be your boyfriend because I love you, not because of something else," He said with his menacing eyes.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at napatakip ng bibig. He love me?
All the things that Nora said is now coming to my head. She always says that I like Darko. I don't know,
"I... wh-"
"It's alright, you don't have to answer now. I'll make you fall for me too, Heaven," He said then grabbed my waist and now my back is on the railing and his arms are on both my sides.
I arranged my hair and put it on my left side because the of the air.
Even though it's noon, it's not that hot. It's a cloudy day. Hopefully it won't rain today.
"Why do you like me?" I asked when I felt his hand sliding on my back.
"I don't know," His voice is hoarse and his eyes are soft.
"I will court you, you'll let me, right?" He whispered.
His thumb in now on my cheeks. I hold to the sleeved of his white tank top.
"Did we had sex because you love me?" I asked.
His right hand is already on my thigh. I'm just wearing his white shirt with my bra and undies on.
Nagdilim ang ekspresyon niya sa narinig. Mali ba?
"We made love, baby," He kissed my cheek.
Hinila niya ako at ipinasok sa loob. Umupo siya sa sofa at ako naman ay nakaupo paharap sa kaniya.
"Hazel said it's alright if you fuck me," I said because Hazel said that it's really alright and I will have fun.
"I can fuck you right now, Heaven," Aniya na may halong gigil.
We are being intimately close. I hold on to the sofa where he's leaning. I noticed that whenever we're doing this, he doesn't want me to touch him.
"But I wouldn't, unless you say so," He breathed on my neck,
"Is it fun?"
"If it's you, it's more than that,"
Niyakap ko nalang siya at pinulupot niya naman ang mga braso niya sa bewang ko.
"It's feels nice after I said it,"
"I'll be leaving next week but I'll always comeback every Sunday, I'll make sure of that," He planted small kisses on my neck.
