Jade i sigh sitting down at the pool edge my feet dipping into the clear blue water, the sun burning against my skin. i look down at the book and phone at my side i chew my lip a little looking back out at the view, it's fair to say that my mind is completely refreshed itself but i don't think i'm ever going to be able to get rid of the guilt i've been feeling, i'm guessing no matter what i do from now on it's going to be there. i pick up the phone seeing multiple notifications most from Niall constantly saying how he loves me and how he hopes i'm okay telling me things about Aria, how she's doing and the new things about her, i guess that's why i'm feeling guilty because i'm missing everything but i know this is the best thing for me right now my mental health has to always come first. i jump a little as my phone starts to ring next to me, my favourite picture of Niall and Aria there, i haven't spoken to him in a while i haven't been on my phone in a weeks i've completely disappeared from the world because i can only imagine the hate coming my way right now. Niall "i know bub i know" i sigh bouncing Aria on my hip while she cries, i put my phone to my ear praying that i get an answer. these past weeks have been hard for me because not only did Jade leave but Aria has started teething and has become clingy towards me which is a real struggle for getting on stage on time "i'll get her" Jesy shocks me taking Aria out my arms by only making her cry worse "thank you"i mutter she just nods walking out the room "hello" i jump out my skin again "Jade?"i exclaim a whole smile forming on my face "are you okay?"i mutter falling down on the couch behind me she laughs a little "i'm better now" she says, but what does that mean for us? is she better without us? does she want us back in her life or not? "i'm glad" i mumble chewing my lip running my hand threw my hair "i'll come back when it's best you know" Jade mutters my eyes widening "really?"i ask my heart doing front flips as she laughs again "of course, i miss you guys" she sighs i stand up starting to do laps of the dressing room as she tells me everything "Niall" Paul then shouts my heart dropping as his head pops round the door "sorry but Aria is full on screaming" he sighs i groan a little "Jade i'll have to go, but i'll ring you back after the show when Arias asleep"i tell her hearing her sigh "okay i love you" she says "i love you too" i smile as the call then ends i throw my phone on the side following Paul into the canteen where everyone is surrounded around Jesy with a ear piercing screaming Aria in her arms everyone discussing what they could do "i just feel sorry for him like he deserves a little break but this little princess won't allow it" Perrie sighs her hand against the back of Arias head rubbing her thumb along her hair "yeah but what can we do?" Liam mutters scratching the back of his head. i cough a little everyones heads shooting up "no offence mate but thank god" Louis exclaims making me laugh i walk over taking Aria out of Jesys arms her crying calming when she realises it's me she grips onto my shirt as tightly as she can her head resting on my shoulder "can't wait for round two later" Lou exclaims bopping Arias nose as she walks off hand in hand with Lux i sit down holding Aria close to my chest, it really is only going to get harder until Jades back ———————- Jade "though i try to get you of my head the truth is i got lost without you" i watch Niall sing with slight tears in his eyes as the whole arena sings with him "and since then i've been waking up to" he sings wiping his eyes as he goes my heart breaking for him "only half a blue sky kinda there but not quite" he sings his voice cracking as he sings Liams arm wrapped around him helping him sing "i'm walking around with just one show i'm half a heart without you" they sing as Niall puts his head down and letting Harry and the crowd take over for him as he cries a slight smile on his face as he tries to stay strong, my heart breaking for him onedirection
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