Roses Diary [S.M]

Forever home

"Mmhm... you are right." He mumbles as he kiss my neck up and down. "Maybe we should start now before your belly will be in the way."

I roll my eyes. This dude has a problem. "You had enough, Mendes."

"Only two times." He tilt his head back and pouts at me.

"Dude, some guys would thank God on their bare knees for two times a week." Of course, as soon as Shawn had kicked out everyone, we had to have some sex. Obviously.

"Alright. Alright."- he kiss my cheek and pulls away. He rest his head on his hand and stares at me. "Do you want to start telling people already or wait?."

"I think it is best to wait for a bit. Until we have seen a doctor and know if everything is alright. I mean, I only did one test."

"Do you have more?."

"Yeah, in my bag. Why?."

"We can do another. If you want?." He says as he dodges my eyes, while playing with a piece of my hair. I know he wants to see it himself. In all the chaos, I have forgotten the first test at Anna's. So, Shawn hasn't seen any proof that I am pregnant, other than my word, of course.

"Sure baby." I normally would have teased him about it, because that is how I am as a person but this is something so delicate. Especially with the last pregnancy that we both never knew about it. I can understand that he wants to experience it.

He seems happy that I do not tease him about it. He crawls off the large sunbed and holds his hand out for me to take.

Hand in hand, we walk into our house. The house that all of the sudden means so much more to me. Sure, I have always loved the house but now I know that we are going to become a family in here.. the thought only is enough to make me cry. Or the hormones. That is also a good possibility.

Lou lift her head up as she is sleeping in her dog bed but doesn't seem to care about us. She probably had enough of me for now. She had to deal with my crazy ass all night and this morning. I cannot blame her.

Like two school girls we are giggling as we walk up our stairs. I let go of Shawn's hand as we walk into our bedroom. I grab the same test I did earlier out of my bag. The one who was pregnant with words and not one with stripes. If I am confused about how those tests work, I am 100% sure that Shawn doesn't know at all.

"I have to pee over this thing."- I mumble and hold the test up. "Just a moment." Although he is my man, there is absolutely no way he is going to watch me pee over this stick. No way.

I know there are couples who do 'their business' in front of each other, but I will never be one of those people. Do you know how difficult it is to actually pee over a pregnancy test? Without getting it all messy?

Shawn takes a seat on our bed as I walk into the bathroom. Now I know how a test works, it is done within a few minutes.

"Babe." I yell as I lay the test on the counter and wash my hands.

"Nervous baby?." He says from behind me as he walks into the bathroom.

Why does he sound different all of the sudden?

Immediately I spot the camera in his hands. "Babe? What is this?." That's why he had a different tone to his voice. I just knew it.

"These are the moments we want to remember for forever baby."

"Alright Steven Spielberg. Just put the camera down." This is a special moment. The last thing he should be worried about is if everything looks right on screen.

He tries to hold in his laughter as he position the camera in the right angle and stands next to me. "How long until we will see the result?."

"Normally 3 minutes but your whole film producer thing toke some time, so I think we will know soon."

He intertwine our hands and squeeze it softly. I look up to him and smile. He looks back at me with so much warmth and love in his eyes. This feeling is overwhelming.

"I love you, Rose. So much." He says.

"I love you too." He wraps his arms around me and press me against his body. Like always, he is much taller than me so, my head rest against his chest.

Seconds feel like hours but out of nowhere I see the little hourglass disappear from the little display. I unwrap myself a little from his embrace and grab the test.

Pregnant - 1 to 2 weeks.

I read again. I cannot tell you how much of a relieve it is to see that again.

"And?." Shawn asks in anticipation.

With a natural expression I hand him the test. Within a few seconds a wide smile breaks out all over his face.

He reach down and wrap his arms around my thighs and lift me up. With me in his arms, he spins around through our bathroom. Happiness flows from every pores of my body.

He let me slide down his body, until my feet are back on the ground where they belong.

We pull each other close without saying anything. Words aren't needed. All we need is the confirmation we just had. We are going to be a family.

And I cannot tell you how grateful I am to do this with the love of my life. I wouldn't want it any other way. Every misstep, every failure, every heartbreak lead us to this moment and I would have go through it again. Without a moment of doubt.

Shawn is my past, my present and my future. The father of my unborn child, my fiancé but most importantly; my forever home.

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Hi babes,

So, what are you thoughts on this chapter?

I thought that we all needed some adorable Shawn and Rose moments. What are you thoughts on them becoming a family?

Let me know!

Like always, thank you all so much for all your comments on the chapters! You guys make my self isolation time at home bearable.

So, for that I want to speak out my gratitude.

For now, sleep well from Amsterdam.

Stay safe and healthy.

All the love, M.