Dating Frost Fajardo | Fin

Chapter 24

#DFF24

"What the hell are you doing here?" I think, I need to change my passkey or much better, move in to a new house or condo. Ayoko na rito.

So many memories that I freaking need to forget.

"Zen, please..." Hinagis ko sa mukha niya 'yung dala niyang bulaklak pati chocolates. Hindi niya ako madadala diyan.

I went to the kitchen. "Why did you quit on the movie? To avoid me, naduduwag ka ba?" Sa inis ko, dala narin ng pagbubuntis ko. Tinapon ko sa mukha niya 'yung laman ng baso ko.

"I did that to save my heart, Frost. Because everytime I see you? You're fucking killing me, you dig a grave for me. Nilibing mo na ako ng buhay! Now, tell me? Masama ba na sagipin ko 'yung sarili ko mula sa'yo?"

"I won't give up, I will win you back." I rolled my eyes.

Come on, win me back?

"Oh yeah, whatever Frost. Umalis ka nalang sa harapan ko, dun kana sa Keira mo. Total, magkaka-anak naman na kayo, right?" Alam kong nasasaktan siya sa mga sinasabi ko. But hell, I'm just saying the truth.

And besides. I will never tell him na buntis ako! Never.

"You're jealous, don't deny it." Selos? Gosh! Selos ba 'tong nararamdaman ko para kay Keira? Urgh. Eww. I'm not jealous.

"Go on, think whatever you want. But you can't deny the fact that I hate you, mabilis kitang minahal? Mabilis rin kitang makakalimutan!" I shouted on his face.

"Really, huh? Dare me, Zendrea. Dare me." And lean on me.

"Talaga!" Ngumisi siya. Ang kapal niya para ngisian ako! Ang kapal-kapal!

In an instant, he grabbed me and kissed me. Damn! Nagpumiglas ako, but my body is a traitor. My lips is a damn traitor! I kissed him back.

Gosh! "I told you," Gusto kong iuntog ang sarili kong ulo sa pader! Why, bakit ang hirap? Akala ko kaya ko, but hell I'm not.

"Frost," I wrapped my legs around his waist. Mas hinigpitan ko rin ang hawak ko sa leeg niya.

When we reached my room, he pinned me on the bed and he started kissing my neck. Shit!

Don't, Zendrea. Pangatawanan mo 'yung sinabi mo.

But I miss him, I know, he miss me too. We need this. But my mind says, that I shouldn't gave myself again. Pero 'yung puso ko, my heart is sreaming his name.

Pero tanga na yata ako, I gave myself again to the person who breaks my heart.

I thought, avoiding him is the best thing to do, to save my heart. But hell it's not.

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"Gosh! Ano ba, bakit kung anu-anong pagkain ang pinabibili mo?"

"Just do what I want, go now. Buy me a strawberry." I said. Saka humiga sa sofa niya and I turn on the tv.

"Ouch! What the fuck is your problem!?" Binato niya ako ng unan.

"Ano ba kasing nangyayari sa'yo? Bakit lately, napaka moody mo o 'di kaya naman, sobrang bossy tapos ang hirap ng mga pagkain na pinabibili mo! And besides, bakit ako?" I sighed.

Gosh! Naiiyak ako for no reason. Urgh! I freaking hate my situation! Bakit kasi ang landi ko! Tapos may nangyari pa ulit sa'min ni Frost, gosh! Isang linggo narin 'yung nakalipas, and I really hate myself for...nevermind. Ayoko ng pag-usapan. I'm rejecting his calls and messages again. Tama na 'yung huli na 'yun. I won't be stupid again.

"Hey, bakit ka umiiyak? Seriously, Zendrea. Anong klaseng mental disorder 'yan?" She wipe my tears, I hugged her.

"Please, drive me home, Kelly." I notice she arched her brows but I ignore that and stood up and went to her car.

"I don't have an idea what is your problem, Zen. But please, don't forget that I'm here, you can tell anything to me. 'Wag mo rin pabayaan 'yung sarili mo." She said and she started the engine of her car.

Things happens for a reason, and sometimes, it's unexpected.

We stuck on that freaking traffic so it's almost past 8 pm when I got home. Naaalala ko lang si Frost sa bawat sulok ng unit ko. I really need to move in to a new place, that there's no sign of that guy.

Wala na akong balak buksan at pansinin 'yung kanina pang nag-iingay sa tapat ng unit ko. I guess it's Frost. Hanggang sa na-inis ako at wala ng silip-silip pa sa intercom, diretso ko ng binuksan 'yung pinto.

"I told yo-----what are you doing here?" Damn! Anong kailangan niya?

"Hindi mo man lang ba ako papasukin?" I rolled my eyes. And told her to bring her ass inside.

"I won't make this long, Zendrea. I want you to get out of Frost life, maghalo ka ng parang bula." Ang kapal naman niya para sabihin sa harap ko ngayon 'yan at dito pa mismo sa pamamahay ko. Gosh!

"I'm avoiding him, ayokong ako pa ang lalabas na kabit, hah! Hindi ko alam na si Frost pala 'yung binalikan mo rito, nakakaawa ka lang kasi gumawa ka pa talaga ng desperate move..." I said. Saka ko tinitigan 'yung tiyan niysng nakaumbok. "Para hindi ka niya iwan, nagpabuntis ka pa talaga."

She was about to slap me, pero naunahan ko siya. "Don't dare, Keira. Sa'yo na si Frost. Pinauubaya ko na siya, 'yan naman talaga ang pinunta mo diba? Sana hindi ka na nag-abala, ibibigay ko rin naman siya sa'yo." Tumawa siya na parang baliw.

"You're not Zendrea, 'yung ikaw na kilala ko, palaban. What happen?" I give her a small smile.

"I'm just saving myself from pain. Ayoko pang patayin ang sarili ko dahil sa kaniya, I love him but it's not enough, and I'm not yet desperate to do crazy things. Just keep this thing in your mind, kahit wala akong gawin, babalik at babalik siya sa'kin, Keira." I turn my back and sat on my sofa.

I don't believe in second chances. Once is enough, if your relationship can't sail anymore. So be with it. 'Wag kang tanga, lulubog na't lahat 'yung sinasakyan mong bangka hindi ka pa tatalon para iligtas ang sarili mo? You're not stupid. So do the right thing and decision.

I looked at Keira. "We'll going to have a baby, hindi na siya babalik sa'yo. I won't let that happen, Zendrea." She said.

She's so desperate. I pity her. Nakakaawa siya, sa kaniya na si Frost. Magsawa sila sa isa't-isa. Ayoko na, I'm so over with this kind of drama in my life. Hindi ako sanay.

"Is that all? You can leave, now." I told her. Napansin kong nakatitig siya sa leeg ko.

"Oh, ito ba?" Tukoy ko sa necklace na suot ko. Remember, Frost gave me a necklace.

Hinubad ko 'yung necklace saka binigay sa kaniya "Tell Frost that I'm bringing back his gift, I just don't need that thing, anymore."

Pinaningkitan niya ako. I don't have any energy to make an argue so I just stare at her.

"I don't have an idea, why Frost loves you so much. I envy you, Zendrea. But I will do everything to make him mine, again."