Dating Frost Fajardo | Fin

Chapter 13

#DFF13

"No,Frost! Troy needs me right now." Sino bang hindi maawa kay Troy. Shit! Hindi ba siya nakakaintindi? May kasalanan na nga kaming ginagawa.

"Okay,you choose my brother." he said and turn his back while waving his hand.

Damn? Ano siya sinapian ng pagiging topakin niya? Gadh!

So I decided not to do anything. Wala! Hindi ko hinabol si Frost at lalong hindi ko nilapitan si Troy!

What for? H'wag na. If they want? Puntahan nila ako. Alangan naman ako,right? Hah! Asa.

I went back to my condo and rest for a while.

Nagi-guilty talaga ako. Nakakainis! Bakit ba kasi hinayaan ko,lahat ng 'tong mangyari? I shouldn't let this happen. Pero wala e,nangyari na ang 'di dapat mangyari. So ako nalang ang bahalang gumawa ng way to fix this problem of mine.

Siguro ako ang may pagkukulang sa relationship namin ni Troy. Napabayaan ko e. And I know,it is all my fault.

I hear the door bell rang. I went to the intercom and check who is he/she outside my unit.

It is Troy..

I didn't expect him to come this day. Wow!

"Hi." It is awkward for me. 'Di ko alam,siguro dahil I'm cheating behind his back. And it is really wrong.

"Zendrea..." Troy hugged me, tight. I want to hug him back. But I know,kasalanan na naman 'yun. Ayoko ng dagdagan pa.

Kinakain na ako ng konsensya ko. I know,dapat sinasabi ko na 'yung totoo. But I believe. There's time for this. Masasabi ko rin kay Troy lahat. One is,I fallen out love,two I lied to him. And everything that I did,when he's not around. That I cheat. All of my mistakes.

"I miss you so much,baby." he said and cupped my face and kissed my forehead.

I looked away. How can I say, I miss him too? If I'm not. Yes,I don't miss Troy. Maybe because I don't love him anymore. I'm telling the truth. Ayokong magsinungaling pa. Kulang nalang lumubog ako, mismo,rito sa kinatatayuan ko ng dahil sa pagsisinungaling ko.

Ang gusto ko lang naman sana ayusin na ang lahat. But I know,hindi ko pa kayang aminin 'yung nagawa ko. I think,this is not the perfect time. Time will come at sigurado akong masasabi ko na 'tong kagagahan ko.

Troy,is really a perfect guy. But I'm not perfect for him. 'Di kami bagay kasi sa nagawa ko sa kaniya. Alam kong magagalit siya at kamumuhian niya na ako after he'll knew about us. Frost and I.

Hindi ko yata kakayaning kung mag-away sila sa harap ko.

"Come inside. Magawan pa tayo ng kung anong mga issue." I told him. Sinara ko kaagad 'yung pinto.

"Zendrea.." bigla niyang hinawakan 'yung kamay ko.

Gadh! Halatang stress si Troy,may dark circle sa ilalim ng mata niya. May bigote rin siya. Halatang hindi nagshave. What I have done to,Troy? Paano pa kaya kapag sinabi ko 'yung totoo? I'm hoping na h'wag naman sana siya 'yung klase ng tao na magko-commit ng suicide? Because that's so much. Baka pati ako magpakamatay kapag ginawa niya 'yun. Papatayin ako ng konsensya ko,lalo.

"Troy,have a sit first." I sit beside him.

"Zen,baby. Please. Ayusin na natin 'to. Kasalanan ko naman kung bakit ganito e. Let's forget everything. Pwede naman nating ibalik na 'yung dati,diba?" Sana Troy,but we can't. We can't bring back us,together.

I sighed. Naiipit ako sa pagitan nila. Hindi ko pa yata kayang iwan si Troy. He'll get hurt,too much,kung saka-sakaling sasabihin ko kaagad sa kaniya ngayon.