A once called ignorant, selfless wife, is ignorant and selfless no more. And from all the pain she had been through, hindi na siya makakapayag na matapakan muli ang pagkatao niya. Hindi niya hahayaan muli na maisahan siya dahil sa kahinaan niya noon...
"Ah... Did I say, your butt?" I denied even though I knew he was listening.
"Yeah. I heard it very clear."
I'm doomed.
I looked away.
"You're just hallucinating, Dominic." Palusot ko.
"Okay..." I looked at his reaction and saw a playful smile spread on his lips.
I know what he meant by that smile. Maybe he's secretly celebrating because of what I said earlier.
A few minutes later, the food he ordered came in one by one.
"Grazie." (Translated into Italian) I told the waiter after serving the food ordered by Dominic.
There was so much food in front of us. It's like we're having a feast!
"Mauubos ba natin 'to lahat?"
"Don't worry, babe. We can take these out if you want."
I just nodded and started eating. We were both quiet and waiting for anyone to open up anything.
"So, how long will you stay in our house?" I broke the silence.
He stopped eating for a moment and looked at me.
"I... I don't know. I'm still looking for a house near you."
"There are many beautiful houses here in Geneva, Dominic. If you're not looking that is near to me, you might have found one."
"Yeah. But I want to be close to you- "
"Ikaw ang bahala. I'll give you a month to stay in our house."
He stared at me for a quiet moment, so I just continued my meal. I was lost in his eyes.
He sighed.
"Alright."
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After our private dinner, we decided to take a walk on the street. This is one of my favorite sights. The scenery is super nice even though we are in the city. Even though in some parts, it's quite dangerous because of the Paquis. The Paquis is a center of drug dealers and fights between warring gangs. Although many of the robberies have happened in some areas, it still looks good for me.
"This is my favorite spot," I told Dominic as we stood and watched the view.
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"Oh, really? No wonder. This place is kinda romantic."
"Indeed–" I couldn't keep up with what I was saying because he might misinterpret what I am saying.
"Why did you stop?" He asked.
I just shook my head in a deep breath.
"Elisa... I want to say sorry."
Nilingon ko siya.
Sorry na naman? Ilang beses ko na ba siyang narinig na sorry ng sorry.
"Dominic, please. Stop saying sorry. What you have done. Is done. Kaya kahit anong sorry mo, hindi na maibabalik ang dati. I can accept but I can't forget. Maybe someday... Tuluyan na kitang mapapatawad."
"Yeah, I'm hoping. What important for me now is our current status."
"Exactly," I answered.
"Just always remember that I love you, Elisa. I really do. Please don't doubt my feelings for you."
"When do you realize that you love me?"
"After you left me."
"Totoo pala talaga ano? Na nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Kung hindi ba kami nawala sa'yo, malalaman mo kaya na mahal mo 'ko?"
"I... I don't know."
"I think that you're still not sure about your feelings for me. Maybe, you're just guilty because of what you did–"
"No! I really do, Elisa. I feel it and I know it. Halos mabaliw ako ng mawala ka. At alam ni Alex lahat ng pangayayari sa'kin."
"Alex told me that. That's why naisip ko na pakinggan ang side mo. Be grateful to him. Because if he didn't tell me what really happened, malamang ay hindi kita kaharap ngayon."
"Yeah, I know... I'll be forever thankful to him. He's gay, but he's my friend."
I smiled. Parang dati lang kasi noong nasa Disneyland kami, inis na inis siya sa presence ni Alex. Pero ngayon, sila ang naging maging magkaibigan. Hindi ko tuloy maiwasan na maniggit ng kaunti.
"Until now, hindi pa din ako makapaniwala na naging magkaibigan kayo. Magkaiba kasi ang ugali niyong dalawa." He chuckled.
"Yeah. Me too."
I looked at him.
"Let's go home? I'm tired—" He grabbed me by the arm and hugged me very tightly. I can hear his heartbeat.
"Just stay. I want us to stay, Elisa. Pagbigyan mo na 'ko." Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba ko o maiinis dahil sa request niya. Pero sa huli, hinayaan ko na lang siya.
Kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap sa kanya at tiningan siya sa mata. Kita ko ang lungkot at pagkadismaya niya dahil sa pagkalas ko mula sa pagkakayakap niya sakin.
"I can't breath..." I lied.
Because to be honest? I felt secured and love when he hugged me with his warmth. Natakot ako sa pamilyar na pakiramdam na bumabalik sakin.
"I'm sorry..." He said.
Hindi niya pinakawalan ang kamay ko.
"I wish I can hold you like this, forever... So you can't leave me." Ramdam ko ang sakit dahil sa sinabi niya kaya nag-iwas ako ng tingin para hindi niya makita ang mukha ko. Na nasasaktan din ako.
