I Love That Blue Nerd (A Sonadow FanFiction) ||✔️||

Chapter 39

Sonic's POV

I sighed looking at my pen. I was...writing my journal,of how I feel. It helps me a lot when I write down  my  feelings. There are so many things being stuck on my mind,not being able to know how to relax. I don't know...this is me,I overthink a lot even if I don't want to. I'm so problematic. As much as I want to be calm,relaxed,I can't!I have so many things to think,to do,everything!!

I sighed

Not knowing how to fix my mind. How to fix myself right now. Oh,I feel like my head's going to blow up in any second

"Sonic?"A soft voice called

I looked at my mom,standing at the door,looking at me. When she entered,I tried my best to look fine. Even though my head now hurts from overthinking

"Are you alright?"She asked while staring at me

Staring right at my soul

"Y-yeah..."I said quietly

"You don't seem to me. Come on,Sonic. You can always tell everything to me. I can help. I'm your mother after all. Besides,if your going to keep into yourself, you'll be thinking of that more and more frequently"Mom said

She's right

"W-well...sometimes-i mean I always overthink of things. Sometimes,there are mixed emotions that I can't even understand. I don't know why"I said

"You know,what you need is to relax. Being a young will not always be there. That's why you should relax. Should enjoy. You can hang out with your friends if you want to,just tell it to us. You're always in your room,I don't even know what's happening to you here inside. You need to calm yourself,"

"But how?How can I mom?"I asked

Desperate for answers

"By doing things that you enjoy. I was like you when I as a kid,my favorite hobby was to play with my toys,in that way I forgot about what I'm thinking. Or by doing what can distract you"She said

I nodded. It made me feel better. She's right,I should talk about my problems with someone too,not by just keeping it myself

"Thanks mom"I said hugging her

"You're welcome,Sonic. Anytime"My mom said hugging back and smiling

Shadow's POV

"Hey,you alright?"Mephiles asked me

"Yeah..."I asked

"You don't seem to me"Mephiles whispered

I stood up and walked out of my room. I need to refresh my mind. Me and my father argued again. Because of his damn business,again. It's like father doesn't care for anything but money. It's like he's absolutely OBSESSED with it...that he even forgot about his family. Tch

"Care for a walk?"Mephiles asked

I nodded

I don't know what to feel

I took out a cigarette and my lighter. I started to blow some smoke whilst walking

"Stop that"Mephiles warned

I rose my brow. He suddenly grabbed my lighter and cigarettes,I growl

"What the fuck?"I said

"Smoking doesn't help you to get out of your problems, Shadow"He said

I scoffed

"I know, that's why I'm making my ways to get out of those"I said

He furrowed his brows. He opened his mouth to say something,but no words came

"So,you want to die?"He scoffed

I didn't answer. I don't know what to answer

"Answer me"He growled

I remained silent

"Killing yourself doesn't solve anything Shadow,messing yourself doesn't give solution to every of your problems. You can talk to Rouge, me, Shadow,than keeping all by yourself. Your right,it sucks right?I experienced that too,my father,forgetting about me and just caring for his money,I know how it feels Shadow. When I'm young,I only wasted myself. Until I realized the I'm only getting worse,and worse,and even worst. If you need any help Shadow,I'm here. Your not alone. If you want to talk,I'm here Shadow. Nothing's permanent in the world...so does your problem and pain too"

His words,made me burst into tears. He's right. I'm only making myself more messier than I am. I hugged him, he's like my brother to me. He knows me too well...

"It's alright. Just forget about him for a moment. I know he can be like...crazy sometimes"Mephiles said

I smiled

"You sound like a girl sometimes"I chuckled wiping my remaining tears

"Oh come on"He rolled his eyes and played along

"I want to visit mother"I said

He looked at me

"Are you...sure?"He asked

"Yes. I just wanna...talk to her"I said

"Okay then"He said

(Time Skip)

I placed the flowers on my mother's grave. I kneel down and closed my eyes

"Mom...I wish your here. Dad's been so obsessed with his money. Forgetting everything...including me. It pained me so much. What to do mom?I feel like a lost kid. Not knowing what path to walk into..."I whispered the last words

"I know,as you can see me now,I'm a mess. Smoking...bullying...got into fights. I can see that well too mom,on what I am doing,and what I am now. Luckily... there's Mephiles. Who I can lean too. I felt a little bit of fine,to say at least. Mom...I love you"I said before I stood up

Mephiles was there,waiting on the car as what I asked him to. When he noticed me,he quickly gave me the questioning look of 'are you done?'

I nodded

I took my last glance at my mom's grave,I sighed before I ride on the car