OHMYGOD I am freaking out!! My grandma wants me to go to this job place and I don't want to go! I'm terrified and I don't want any of the jobs that's in this dumb town. I just know that if I go there, I won't be able to leave until I accept something. I'm not ready for that shit. All I want is to be back in school and in a time where everything was easier and the only problems I had to deal with were the drama and the fights and shit. I hate everything! I CANNOT DO THIS!!!! II hate my entire stupid family for breathing down my back. If I don't do this, my grandma is threatening me that she'll have my dumb fucking grandpa come over and he'll be a lot worse- like THAT DOESN'T MAKE ME WANT TO DO IT EVEN MORE!!! I really need a stable parent figure in my life or my parents in general but I fucking don't. God help me. The anxiety is rising and I'm panicking more and more. I don't know what to do. I'll really have to talk myself out of this one. I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!! Welp I think I'm gonna go have a panic attack mixed with an anxiety attack- oh look it's already here- Bye.
