Almost didn't update today. I'm sad and it's that crippling sadness. It's the worst kind. You can feel your heart shattering and the bile rising in your throat. You want to cry but there's no tears to shed. You want a bone crushing hug but there's nobody to give you one because you're moody and chased everyone away. Story of my life. EVERY. FUCKING. DAY!!! Can't I get rid of this thing called my heart and maybe my brain too? I don't want to feel and I most definitely don't want to think. Please make it all go away for awhile. I need a break- an escape, but there isn't one. *Sigh* Alright. Guess I'll go for now. Love you all. Goodnight.
