Polarized. (DISCONTINUED)

1 - flashing cameras

                          

Selena.

Today was the first day of junior year i was so happy i only have two more years of this hell hole. don't get me wrong i don't hate school i actually excel in every class i'm in it's just the students that ruin the whole high school experience for me.

This summer I went through a really horrible breakup after dating jack gilinsky for almost a year. Yeah i know i look like a clown for dating the kid that use to bully me in elementary school but i thought he had changed.

Of course i ended up looking like a clown when he ended up cheating on me after i didn't want to give up my virginity to him. I want my first time to be with someone i love not someone who treats me like shit.

Today's gonna be my first time seeing him since the break up but i know i got this my two best friends were there for me the entire summer. They were even about to go to his house and beat his ass before i stopped them.

I really don't know where i would be without them they've been there for me since day 1 and have never left my side.

i seriously hate all men (except for Justin and Zayn of course) why is it that all they think about is sex?? it truly disgust me. maybe i just need to be single for awhile and just do my own thing all though i do miss being cuddled at night.

Anyways enough talking about me. a lot of things have changed since we were 6 years old so how bout i catch you up a little bit.

so Justin has a girlfriend her name is Madison Beer she's literally so gorgeous they been together for almost two years now. i love them two together they're the schools power couple you know the basic football player and cheerleader couple.

Zayn was in a really toxic relationship with a girl from our school named Gigi she would always hurt him and instead of talking about it like a man Zayn would just hurt her even worst so it was a whole damn mess and i feel like Zayn has never been the same after that whole situation.

i mean obviously he's still the same person but i feel like he's a lot more guarded of his emotions now and doesn't let people in as much anymore it's sad but everytime i try to talk to him he just changes the subject.

and as for me? well i'm just me the guys always love to call me a "cupcake" because i haven't had as many experiences as them and i've literally only had one boyfriend which i regret.

but this year i'm changing that. this year i'm gonna be wild have fun get crazy you're only in high school once and i've only got 2 years left so it's time that i live it to the fullest.

as i was procrastinating about the past couple of years of my life my alarm went off signaling that it was time to get up.

i groaned as i get out of bed and brush my teeth as i'm about to get in the shower i get a text on my phone.

Zayn 🤴🏻- "good morning love, justin and i will be by to pick you up in about an hour so be ready"

Me - "okay see ya soon!"

i was nervous but excited for the first day of school today and i definitely wanted to look my best so after i got out of the shower i decided to look for something to wear after spending about 25 minutes getting ready this is what i came up with:

i call it "cute but casual" i mean it's not like i'm going to the met gala or anything

right when i was done getting ready i heard a car beeping the horn when i looked out the window and seen it was Justin's white Jeep so i grabbed my stuff and ran downstairs immediately

"hey hun you're not gonna eat breakfast?" my mom said as i was about to walk out the door "i can't mom justin and zayn are already here but i love you bye" i said waving her goodbye and shutting the door behind me.

when i walk out of my house i see justin driving and zayn in the passenger seat and yes i know that they're two attractive guys but i've never really felt that way towards them but they are fine as fuck and today they were looking really good.

"are you gonna stop staring and get in the car?" justin said and snapped me out of my weird thoughts immediately i was kinda embarrassed that they caught me staring i started to blush so hard my cheeks were reder than justin's shoes at the moment.

i just hopped in the back seat without saying a word i was kinda embarrassed what was i feeling back there?  i've never been attracted to them until recently and i don't even know if i'm attracted to them like that maybe they're just looking extra good today.

"Wow junior year next year we're gonna be graduating that's fucking crazy" i sighed in a happy but sad way "yeah it's kinda bitter sweet" justin said

"guys?"

"yeah selena?" they said almost in unison.

"what's gonna happen when we graduate from high school? are we just gonna go our separate ways? live life without each other?" i said kinda nervous of their response

"what no never selena we'll be best friends till we're in the grave" justin said. "okay so then promise me that no matter what happens in the future, no matter what little petty arguments we get into, no matter what junior year holds for us that we will be friends till we're in the grave and that our friendship will never end"

i said sticking out my pinky finger. they both wrapped there pinky around my extra small one "i promise" zayn said "i promise" justin said "i promise" i said.

oh how wrong i was that day in the car. junior year would be the year that tested my loyalty my trust and my well being

we pulled up to the school and parked "are you guys ready?" justin said i nod my head and so does zayn "junior year is gonna be a hell of a ride boys" i say and it as hell was.
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