loved and lost

👀😯Chapter Nine👀😯

Akira's pov
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I had just put the twins to sleep for their nap. I was walking down stairs on the phone with tiana.

"Girl I know michale got more energy than every body wish he would stop running around all the time" I laughed.

"You know damn well he gone play a sport" she laughed.

"Basketball probably" I said as I reached the end of the stairs. I heard a knock on the door.

"Hold on t" i said walking to the door. I figured it was the mail man because I live on private property and its a struggle to get past the gate so I just opened the door. My first mistake.

I opened the door to see scar standing with his hands behinde his back. He looked up at me surprised.

"Hello?" I heard Tiana say from the phone.

"Uh.. yea..tiana I'm gonna have to call you back" I said hanging up.

"Can I come in??" He asked. I shook my head no frantically. The twins had their toys everywhere in the living room. Plus they were upstairs asleep.

"Look..." he sighed running his hands through his hair.it took everything in me to not hug him he looked awful depressed even.

"I just have to say sorry... for everything" he said looking me directly in the eyes.

"You don't have to apologize im over it" I said trying to be convincing but failing.

"I know but i owe you an explanation" he said grabbing my hand. He held my hand for a minute looking at it.

"Remember that conversation we had... the one where you asked me if I was still broken..." I nodded.

Flash back
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When you we're talking earlier i noticed you talked about being broken... are you still broken??"

He still looked confused.

"Honestly i don't even know myself it's like at times I'm not and then other times i am i think there's something missing that i havent found yet" he said looking up at the ceiling.

"Are you still broken??" He asked turning his head towards me. I thought for a moment and then shook my head.

"No I don't think so I think you fixed me somehow I dont know how but you did you make me happy and keep me happy" I said and he smiled.

"Well that's good" he said pulling me into a kiss.

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I smiled to myself at the memory. Those were good times I thought reminiscing.

"I have to apologize because of my actions it's true that I was and still am missing something it's just that I went looking for it in the wrong place" he shook his head letting go of my hand.

"Now I have even more missing from my life now that I don't have you and I want you to know you never did anything wrong I was the dumbass who cheated" he said tugging at his hair.

"And I'm sorry" he said. It was quite for a minute then I heard sniffling was he crying??

"Scar?" I asked. He shook his head no.

"Its okay" I said giving him a little hug and letting go.

"Mommy I can't go to sleep" I heard lexi say from behinde me. Both of us turned to look at her.

"Woah you look like Michael... why are you crying??" Lexi said going over to scar. He looked at me confused and then looked back at Lexi and then at me.

"Kira??" He whispered. I was speechless I honestly didn't know what to say my heart started beating even faster than it was befor.

"Lexi go upstairs and grab your teddy bear okay ill be up in a minute" I said my voice shaking.

"Okay mommy" she said hugging my leg and skipping upstairs.

I looked down at the floor unsure of what to say at this point. The wall that  took years to build was now crashing down around me.

"Kira??" Scar said looking at me. I sighed heavily.

"You should come in" i said. He walked inside cautiously still looking at me confused.

I led him to the living room and I sat down on the couch and he sat next to me. Their was an awkward silence again.

"Who's her dad??" He asked looking at me. I didn't answer I looked down at my lap speechless.

He lifted my chin to look at him.

"Did he leave you... did he hurt you" he questioned a little anger seeping  into his voice. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.

"Is it Michael??" He questioned looking down at his shoes.

"What no!! How do you know about Michael" I asked frantically. He looked up at me.

"Explain something anything because I am confused as hell right now that is  your daughter correct" he asked looking at me.

"Yes" I said a little above a whisper.

"Well then-"

"Mommy mommy I can't find my teddy bear" Lexi cride running down stairs.

She ran over to me and cride into my lap. Scar watched me as I picked her up.

"Calm down lexi" I said rocking her back and forth.

"Calm down and breath it's alright I'll find her for you" i said her eyes lit up as she saw scar. She hopped into his lap.

"Hi I'm Alexis" she said happily.

"Im sorry" I said about to get her off of him.

"No she's fine" he said actually smiling.

"Hi Alexis im mazzi"

"That's a funny name" she laughed he laughed aswell.

"How old are you?" He asked her.

"I'm one. Two. Three. four. five years old" she said counting her fingers.

"Really" he said looking at me.

"Lexi go upstairs and wake up michael" I said looking at her.

"Okay mommy" she said running off.

"Akira for the last time who is her dad?" He said angrily.

"Pause you are not acussing me of cheating are you" I said with an atitude.

"Five years ago we were together and she is five years old what am I supposed to think" he said.

"You want to know you her dad is?"

"Yes" he semi yelled.

"You!!" I semi yelled back at him. I watched the realization on his face. He looked confused and surprised. I finnaly realized what I had just said. Oh my god.