Missing you is the worst feeling ever.
Date: 12 January 2017
Place: Los Angeles
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I stiffened a little when I feel someone stroking my hair gently.
Fingers were brushing against my ear and I buried my face more on something that makes me feel warm and comfortable, taking in a fresh rain scent that soothes me.
It didn't take me long to feel a thumb brushing my cheeks lightly.
I whined when I feel him hugging me closer to him as he wrapped his arms around my waist, "H-Hmm," Gosh, I wanted to greet him morning but my throat felt too dry that I can't even mutter a word.
His chin was on top of my head, "Morning." He almost whisper and I cleared my throat a little before speaking, "You are so warm." I whined again.
He chuckles, "Am I?" I nodded lightly against his neck.
We are not in a hurry right? I feel like I could stay in his arms forever.
"Hui Xin," He muttered, "Hmm?" I hummed a tone.
It took him a moment to continue, "Who is Jing Hui?" I shoot my eyes open.
I pulled away from him a little to look at him, "You were dreaming last night." I look at him in dumbfounded, "And you were calling that name while crying."
Huh? I did???
"You don't remember?" I shook my head; I don't even know that I had a dream.
"You only stop crying when I hug you." He said while looking at me in curious, "But who is Jing Hui?" I furrowed my brows again.
"I don't know." He raised an eyebrow on me, "You don't?" I shake my head as a no.
I really don't.
I looked away from him when I remembered something.
Yi Lin, who are my friend in the orphanage used to tell me that I dream while crying too when we are still staying in the orphanage. She told me that I kept screaming that name.
But I really can't seem to have any memories about that person as you know I can't remember anything before the age of 8.
"Are you dating another guy other than me?" I almost got choked with his question, "No." I frowned and he obviously has doubt in his eyes.
"Or you were hurt by this guy before when you are in a relationship with him?" What? He thought I'm acting stupid by saying that I don't know him?
"No, I really don't know who Jing Hui is. It happened before when I'm still in the orphanage but I really can't remember." I stated and he pulled his arms from me now.
"Really? You are not hiding anything from me, right?" I shook my head while still frowning.
I don't like him doubting me for having another guy other than him.
I didn't even date anyone before and he is my first. I just didn't tell him.
I know anyone would have dated someone when they are in high school but I don't have that leisure time to do so because I need to work to raise myself.
I worked until midnight just you know so impossible that I have time for a guy.
I don't even have time to study already.
"You don't trust me?" I questioned after I explain it to him and he took in a breath, "Just," He paused and said nothing after that.
I bite my lips in disappointment; he really doesn't trust me when he chooses to lay flat on his back and stare at the ceiling.