Pain is all I feel
Swirling all around me
I hate it
I want to feel love again
I want to feel needed
I want to scream
But it feels like I'm underwater
Drowning
Just going deeper and deeper
Until I meet a watery demise
I hate it all
I hate life
Why does it have to be so confusing?
I don't know
That is the thing that scares me the most
Not knowing what tomorrow will bring
I'm scared of the future and it's brother time
I fear that getting older will be my demise
Yet I know that death is coming for me
I love the thought of not feeling anything
I love the thought of being free from all the pain
I love you
I love my friends,
My family,
and I love the pain that comes with loving you all
I hate that I feel too much
I hate that I don't know how long
I'm going to last
I don't like being the flight risk
I don't like being looked at with empathy
with regret
with sorrow
I don't like any emotion
Yet I want to feel them again and again
Maybe I should listen to the voices in my head
Maybe I should think with my heart and not my head
Maybe just maybe I should open my eyes before jumping off the cliff
JE LEEST
Poetry of the Disturbed
PoëzieTeenage Anxiety... Teenage Depression... But what happens when its a male... What happens he can't admit it... Because of his gender... The worst thing of it all... He's diagnosed with Schizoeffective disorder... The feelings are just...
