Struggles ✔

Chapter 47.

Alexa's POV

After I explained everything to Cole, he made me rant about what I was feeling. He made me pour my heart out, and the result of that was me crying me eyes out. All the pent up feelings  I had burst out when I started telling him about what I felt. He comforted me and stayed with me the whole night. I fell asleep at some point.

When I woke up it was peacful and Cole was sound asleep next to me. Recently Cole and I have been sleeping together in the bed. We either slept at his bed or my bed. This started because of that one night when we fell asleep on the couch  while watching a movie.

Flashback

I woke up in the middle of the night. I felt the my bed move and as my senses came back to me, I heard quiet sobs. I realized then that I was in the couch and laying on Cole's chest. I turned  to look at Cole and saw him crying in his sleep. I shook him and desperately tried to wake him up. He opened his tear filled eyes and when he saw me the tears fell even more

"Cole? Cole, what's wrong?" I ask. I wrap my arms around his arms and let him cry on me.

"Okay okay. I won't push you...just calm down. Calm down..." I whisper in his ear. He kept crying and shaking. I was about to get up to get him some water, but he grabbed my arm and stopped me.

"Don't leave me..." he pleads

"I would never." I say. He nods and sniffles

"I was just going to get you some water"  I say

"No. I don't want it. I just want you in my arms." He says. I smile lightly and nod. I crawl back into bed and wrapped my arms around him. He hugged me back tightly.

"You wanna talk about it now?" I ask. My heart was hurting to see him like this. It pained me to see him crying and sobbing.

"It was just another nightmare of a memory...I...I was standing far from the car and watched Aurora yell and plead for me to help her. I tried so hard to, but I couldn't move. Th-the car exploded and burned her. Sh-she d-died a-and I couldn't do anything." He cries again

"And then..."he couldn't finish talking because of his sobs.

"Then I saw her crying her eyes out. She was telling me that I failed her. That I was the worst brother ever. She said that I couldn't save her and that it was all my fault. She repated those words over and over." He cried

"Cole...it's not your fault. Okay?" I say. He just keeps crying in my arms.

"Cole...stop it...Aurora is watching right now. I'm pretty sure she's hurting just as much as you. How can she not, when her big brother is sad and thinks that she blames him for her death." I tell him

"Your sister can't rest in peace when her brother is depressed like this."

Cole calmed down little by little. He looked at me with teary eyes.

"Do you think it's true?" He asks. My heart broke when I saw and heard how depressed he is. He looks so broken.

"No. None of that is true Cole. Believe me."  I look at him straight in the eyes to show him how serious I am.

"You should go back to sleep Lex...I'm so sorry for waking you up." He says after a moment of silence.

"Come with me to bed first" I say. He says nothing as he follows me upstairs. We lay down on the bed and instead of being the little spoon, I figured Cole should be the little spoon today. I kissed his shoulder and whispered