New Beginnings

Chapter 17 : A stressful night

Chapter 17

Alex POV

I found my poor boyfriend sitting on the floor just outside of the room the dance was held in.

"Jeff, what happened?"

He started crying again. I sat down next to him on the floor.

"I-I don't k-know!"

I put my arm around him, and he laid his head on my shoulder.

"Jeff, if you felt like cutting, why didn't you tell me? I told you, we could talk it out."

"Because you just wanted to go to the dance with Nick and Sebastian!"

"Jeff, I asked if you wanted to come."

"I know... But I couldn't. There's too many people, and I get anxious, and I already feel so anxious from yesterday, and I just couldn't, ok!?"

"Hey. Calm down, Jeff. Take a deep breath."

He cried into my shoulder.

"Jeff, do you want to go back up to our room?"

He nodded into my shoulder.

"Ok, come on."

I helped him up, being careful of his wrists, and then we walked upstairs together. Jeff collapsed on the bed, still crying. I sat down next to him.

"Why'd you cut, Jeff?"

"B-because I-I'm not g-good enough!"

"Good enough for who?"

"You!"

"Me? Jeff, you're more than good enough for me. Why don't you think you are?"

"B-because Sebastian is s-stronger. H-he doesn't cry. A-and he d-doesn't get scared."

"Jeff, I don't care about any of that."

"You don't?"

"No! I love you, Jeff. And I love you just the way you are."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm positive. The only one you weren't good enough for was your dad. And that wasn't even your fault."

"I just feel like you like Sebastian more than me..."

"Jeff, I don't. I like Sebastian. But I love you. Ok? And that's how it's always going to be. Don't second guess anything. I know you're thinking about absolutely everything, but you need to understand that I love you, and that won't change, ok?"

"Ok..."

"Come here."

I pulled Jeff into a very tight hug. And he hugged me tightly too. I could feel the tension in his body though.

"Why are you so tense?"

"I'm just anxious."

"About what?"

"Sebastian and last night..."

"Can I do anything to help?"

"No, I just..."

Jeff sighed.

"What is it, Jeff?"

"I'm just so embarrassed... And I'm trying so hard to believe that he's nice. But I'm just scared that he's pretending."

"Why would he be pretending?"

"Because he likes you! Duh! And maybe he's just like... using me to get to you... I don't know..."