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I'm in a good mood tonight.
Even mom notices it.
It's hard not to with me twirling through the kitchen
As I empty the dishwasher
Humming Broadway love songs.
"Something good happen today?" She asks.
"Yeah," I say and leave it at that.
It's difficult to explain to your mother that after making out with a girl
After school
In an empty dance room
You tend to smile the whole day.
I've never really talked to my mother about my sexuality
Or for that matter, anyone.
I've told my mother about my crushes,
Omitting gender pronouns
And names.
As far as Ella knows, I've never had a crush on anyone.
I trust her
It's just a hard thing to explain.
But sitting here
Washing plates in the peaceful silence
With my mother
I want to tell her everything.
How I'm dating a girl who I love more then I can comprehend.
How I don't want anyone to know
But at the same time I want everyone to know
Because I don't want that to bother me.
But all I do is give her a small smile
And go back to washing the plates.

A/n: so sorry for the late update guys! I hope you all had an amazing new year.

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