18

September 16'

I'll stand by you- The Pretenders

"Oh, why you look so sad, the tears are in your eyes,
Come on and come to me now, and don't be ashamed to cry,
Let me see you through, 'cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less,

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you."

I can't comprehend what happened.

No matter how much time I let to waste, I can't understand what happened during this month. I don't know how else to say it, but I felt like a switch turned inside of you.

You started acting differently.

I silently observed this for some days but I had to get it out of my system. So as usual I typed a log-ass message and sent it to you and waited patiently.

I remember exactly how it went.

"Muje samajh ni aara."

"Kya?"

"Kuch bhi."

And after this you told me something.

I don't wanna type the conversation here so I'm just gonna say that; you said something along the lines of 'everything feels like a dream.'

I couldn't understand for a seconds what you had said but I knew whatever it was, it wasn't good.

So I said that we'll go through it together and,

"You are not crying are you?"

"No. But you are."

"Am I?"

I wasn't. I wasn't crying but I knew I was gonna in some time. But that's not what I am trying to show you here.

Do you remember yourself saying this?

"I'm happy in that dream world."

Do you remember what I said?

"Then stay there. If it makes you happy, then that makes me happy."

And it is true.

I don't care about anyone else's happiness as much as I care about yours. It is the most important thing to me in the world. Wherever you are happy, whatever makes you happy makes me happy too. And I don't care what you tell me, I don't care what you have done, or are gonna, I'll always stand by you.

Because that's exactly what I am here for.

Because that's exactly what we, you and me, stand for.