Be My Reason (A Keaton Stromberg Fan Fiction)

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

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I wake up to Keaton's familiar scent, my eyes flutter open. That's the best sleep I've gotten in weeks, no nightmares, or waking up every 5 minutes. I stretch my arms out and then I remember. Keaton's here.

I feel his arms around me and slowly realize that he's layiing beside me in bed, I roll over so that I am facing him. His hair is strewn around and his cheeks are tinted a deep pink from sleep.

I involuntarily smile at him before I remember that we are broken up, he came here drunk and high last night. So I slip out of his arms and out of bed, he reaches for me in his sleep and finally settles back into the pillow. 

What am I going to do with him.

"Keaton.' I whisper, deciding I am going to wake him up and demand he leaves

"Keaton." I repeat, slightly louder.

He stirs in his sleep but that's it. 

I nudge his shoulder lightly and his eyes flutter. 

"Keaton. Wake up." I say nudging him again.

His eyes flutter open and he looks around confused for a second until his eyes meet my face.

"Rachel." He says, his voice deeper and raspier than usual.

"What are you doing in my bed?" I half ask half shout

"Technically, I'm not in your bed," Keaton says sitting up

"You were in that bed." I say pointing to my actual bed "Why do I wake up with you in this one?" I say and cross my arms over my chest.

Keaton looks like he is concidering what to say to me 

"I was going to leave when I woke up last night." Keaton begins explaining "But I couldn't."

Keaton's sincere words hit me in my already torn apart heart, I have to swallow back all the pathetic things I want to say to him 

"You should have left." I say and his face drops 

"I know."

"Leave now." I demand, keeping my ground

"Rachel, please." Keaton says

"Please what? You've already made it clear you want us to be over." I say and he shakes his head

"I know I did."

"Then what else do you want?"

"You! Rachel. I want you." Keaton shouts at me, he stands from the bed and walks over to me.

"I already told you what you have to do." I say remembering our conversation from a few weeks ago when I demanded the truth from him.

"I can't tell you what's going on, I just need you to trust me." Keaton says reaching for my hand

I force myslef to pull it away "I don't trust you."

Keaton's face shows the pain the words brought him.

"But I love you.. I've never stopped." Keaton says, his words pleading

"I know that. You also lied to me, and are continuing to lie to me." I say and Keaton looks away from me.

"You really want me to leave then?" He asks, his voice sad

"I want you to tell me what the hell's been going on!" I shout and Keaton flinches

"I can't."

"Then go." I say sternly.

Keaton's eyes look up to mine and I try to ignore the clear pain in them.

"It's been fucking hell without you." Keaton says through his teeth

Somehow I feel better knowing he's been going through hell too.

"Then tell me the truth about what's going on." I say

Keaton looks like he is contemplating whether or not to tell me, he runs his fingers through his hair, tugging lightly

"I can't Rachel." He says and his eyes begin to water

"Then leave." I say 

"Rachel I-"

"Leave." I cut him off. "Now."

Keaton runs his fingers through his hair wildly before grabbing his shoes and walking out. Just like that. I hear the front door close, then his car drive away.

The longer I stand here the more my heart hurts.