Love Exists {BxB}

Chapter 3

Rocco's POV

That afternoon, after school, I walked home just thinking.
Why was Jak so nice to a pathetic depressed loser like me?
But then again he doesn't know I'm depressed or anything...

When I get to my cousins house.. Or I guess my house too now... Everywhere is littered with empty alcohol bottles and my cousin, Ben, is passed out on the couch... Again.
If you hadn't guessed it yet, he's an alcoholic.
Yeah, it kind of sucks that I ran away to go live with an alcoholic 21 year old but anything is better than my old home.
At my old house, my dad used to hit me all the time and he yelled at me and hurt me emotionally, mentally and physically.
So, I just left. I didn't want to be around him anymore.
I'll have to get a job soon because I don't think Ben is financially stable enough to afford himself let alone another teenager.

I walk to my new room and fall back on my bed.
Everything is just too much right now.
I can't believe that my life had to turn out as awful as this.
I just hope Jak will keep helping me.
He probably hates your guts!
No he doesn't! He was being perfectly nice to me earlier.
It's probably just a set up!
But-
He hates you! Everyone does!
But-
Your a pathetic, lonely, depressed, selfish, worthless loser that no one likes!

The shower stings my fresh cuts the next morning. But it feels somewhat satisfying.
Sometimes my demons are just too much because I know they're telling the truth and I can't stop it.
After my shower I pull on a black hoodie and a pair of dark blue jeans.
I wrap my arm in white gauze and pull my sleeves down again.

That day at school a blond kid walks up to me right before first period.
"Seth, is it?" I ask.
"Yeah. Jak and me had a talk and we were thinking that you could be permanent. Sit with us at lunch, k?"
"Uh. Yeah. Okay. Sure."
"Cool. I'll see you later, Rocco." He says smiling at me then he leaves me, shocked, in the busy hallway.
One thought echoes in my head all class: I have friends.

I know it's short and all but I just wanted to update...
Hope you liked! And don't worry, the gay will be coming. Lol. I'm so awkward.
And I'm trying not to swear in this at all even though grade 12's would probably swear but Gnomi's probably reading this and if I swear she might get mad... Lol.
Why am I so weird😂😂

~Ellie