Chapter 5

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Rocco's POV

Nobody understands how it feels to wake up every morning and your first thought is 'is my dad going to hit me?'
But then I calm down, remembering that I'm with Ben now and everything is okay.
And my second thought is 'Is Ben hungover again?'
Nobody understands the pain of never once having anything remotely close to a parental figure.
But now I'm being selfish.
I just feel alone.
There are other people who don't have parents and others who don't have good parents but I still feel alone.

I finally open my eyes and realize that I'm not in my room like I expected.
I'm not even in a room.
That's when everything that happened yesterday come rushing back to me.
Punching, crying, the waterfall, the forest, sitting on the rock, talking, tired, and falling asleep.
And Jak.
Of course he had to be there.
He had to be the one to see me all weak and pathetic in the hallway but, unless in mistaken, Jak cared about me.
He didn't mock me when I cried and he didn't make fun of me for getting bullied.
He's never hurt me.. At least not yet.
But everyone hurts me at some point. It's bound to happen.

A yawn stops me in the middle of my overthinking.
I sit up and take in the scene.
Jak, the most popular kid in school, is laying beside me in the grass.
His ginger hair is messed up and his clothes are wrinkled.
He opens his green/blue eyes as he yawns again and stretches like a cat.
I can't help but giggle at the sight of the boy waking up.
It's just the cutest thing I've ever seen.
He rubs his eyes and looks over at me.
"Hey." One word from him is all it takes to make me flustered.
His voice is deeper than normal and it's rough and scratchy after not using it for a while. His eyes are squinted and tired but somehow the blue colour still shines bright.
I blush deeply but quickly duck my head down to try and hide it.
As cliché as it sounds, it feels like my heart is doing backflips in me.
"Hi." I mumble.
Why am I even so flustered?
I'm not gay, am I?
I've never really thought about it before. I never really had the chance to figure out who I like when for the past 6 years I've been bullied and abused and stuff.
I don't really want to think about this right now. It's driving me insane.
"My house is just down the street. We can walk there, you can borrow some clothes and I can drive us to school." Jak says.
I check my phone and realize it's already 10 am.
"Were already late but that's okay. I just missed double math class which I don't really mind." Jak continues.

We walk back to his house in silence.
He's humming a tune softly and I'm just filled with crazy anxiety.
I'm going over to a boys house and wearing his clothes and he's bringing me to school.
Will his parents like me?
Does he have siblings?
Will they like me?
Will his clothes even fit me?
What if he sees my scars and cuts?
What if-
"Welcome to my home. It's not much but it's okay." Jak says leading me to the front door of a cute little house.
"It's nice." I mumble awkwardly.
He leads me into the house and towards what I assume would be the kitchen.
A lady stands there flipping pancakes.
She's tall, a lot taller than me and Jak, she has long brown hair tied up in a bun, kind brown eyes and she's wearing a black pencil skirt and white blouse.
"Hey, sweetie. Where were you last night?" She says hugging Jak tightly.
"I accidentally fell asleep in the forest again." He says with a small laugh.
"And who's this cutie?" She asks smiling at me.
"Mom." Jak groans.
"Mom? Hi, mom. I'm Jaks mum but you can call me Taylor." She says winking at me.
Jak groans again.
"He's Rocco." He says rolling his eyes.
"Hi, Rocco. Are you boys hungry?" She says still showing off her pearly white teeth.
"Yeah. We'll go get dressed first." Jak says already leaving.
"Thanks.. Taylor." I mumble softly.
"It's no problem, Rocco. Just try to keep Jak in line." She says.
I send her a small smile before following the ginger to the stairs.

Oops. I was going to continue this chapter all the way till they get to school but I'm already at 800 words.
I think I took way too long to update but I'm trying.
Hope you liked it. I'll try to update once more before Monday

~Ellie

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