Stonehearts 2: Amethyst

Twenty Nine

That can't be right. We are always been sure we did it with protection. Except for the first time we had sex. At hindi ako nagkakamali na safe ako ng araw na iyon.

I brought my phone out and counted the days. No, I can't be wrong. Pero kahit ilang beses kong bilangin ang araw ng paulit-ulit, the first time we did it still landed on my ovulation. I was fertile then. Nagsimulang manginig ang mga kamay ko. I was already a week delayed. Hindi ko na napansin dahil busy ako kay dy, kay Chance at sa business ko.

Napabili ako ng pregtest kahit hindi ko pa alam kung ready na ba akong malaman kung buntis ako o hindi. Napahawak ako sa tiyan ko habang nagmamaneho. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled na magkakababy na ako. But this not really the best time for it. Dad's condition won't be able to take this in. Dagdag mo pa ang pagkakamalabuan namin ni Chancellor.

I was clouded with so many things when I arrived back at the hospital at 4 pm. Nasa pinto pa lang ako nakakarinig na ako ng usapan. Sino nanaman kaya ang bisita ni Daddy?

I pressed my ears at the door, not minding if I look like a freaking criminal by doing it.

"Cael alam mo namang hindi kita inayawan para sa anak ko. You have proven yourself to me, pero hindi na ikaw ang gusto ng anak ko." Cael? Why is he here?

"Alam ko po yun Tito Riq, I don't want to push myself if I am not wanted. Gusto ko lang maging kaibigan sana si Amy, kung yun na lang ang magiging lugar ko sa buhay niya, I'll be most willing to take it."

"Kuya, wag mong pwersahin ang sarili mo." Rinig ko ang boses ni Tito Matt. Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko, binuksan ko na ang pinto.

They all looked at me as if they are caught red handed. "A-amy, k-kanina ka pa?" Utal na tanong ni Cael ng nakita niya ako.

Sandali akong nagisip kung tatango ba ako o iiling. "Hindi. Kararating ko lang. Bakit ka andito?"

"Bumibisita lang siya anak." Daddy said, answering fro Cael who looks as if he was about to be sentence for death.

Tumango ako, I read daddy the news habang andoon ako. I know hindi nanaman ako papayagan nila Tita Wil na doon magpalipas ng gabi. They are afraid that I may develop the same disease as my dad. Lahi daw kasi nila yun, eh diba sila dapat ang nag-iingat dahil sila yung mas matanda? Pero wala naman akong magagawa. Hindi ako mananalo kapag nakipagtalo ako kay Tita.

Hindi naman nagtetext sa akin si Chancellor. Nasanay na rin ako. Pagod na rin naman akong umasa na maaalala niya ako habang kameeting niya itong sila Cynthia. I'm just too emotionally drained about everything. Besides getting cheated on is not new to me, I've been through this before.

Cael was leaning on my car when I arrived at the parking lot. Akala ko umalis na siya. Has he been waiting for me? Tatlong oras din ang itinagal ko sa kwarto ni daddy.

"Wala ka bang trabaho?" Inis na tugon ko sa kanya habang hinahanap ang susi ng sasakyan ko.

"I'm on leave." Kibit balikat niyang sagot. "We need to talk Amy."

"Lagi naman tayong nag-uusap Cael. Now can you please step out of the way? Uuwi na ako. Pagod ako." Sambit ko when I pushed pass him.

"Amy, wait-" Sabi niya sabay hatak sa plastic ng Mercury na nakasukbit sa kamay ko. Napunit iyon kaya kumalat ang laman nun.

He just stared at me, his eyes wide in shock. He was looking at the boxes of pregnancy tests I bought earlier this day. Nagmadali akong pulutin iyon.

"B-buntis ka?" He faintly asked. Tinalikuran ko siya at agad sumusi sa sasakyan ko. I need to get away from him. But the key doesn't seem to fit.

"Amy, buntis ka ba?" He again asked. His voice harder this time before he spun me around.

Marahas kong tinanggal ang pagkakahawak niya sa balikat ko. "Hindi ko pa alam! At kung oo man, wala kang pake okay?!" Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako galit na galit sa kanya.

Hindi siya nakapagsalita, I glared at him before I slipped inside the driver's seat and drove away. My drive home seemed to be longer than usual. Butil-butil na ang pawis ko kahit naka-full ang aircon ko.

Muli akong napahimas sa tiyan ko, may baby na ba ako? Ganoon ba talaga katindi itong si Chance at mabubuntis niya ako sa minsanang gawa lang?

Katulad ng lagi, madilim nanaman ang bahay pagkapasok ko. Agad akong nagpunta sa banyo, habang nakahawak ng mahigpit sa tatlong magkakaibang brand ng PT kit na binili ko.

I inhaled before I tore all the packaging. Isa-isa ko silang inihian. My heart pounding like crazy. My stomach taking a churn. I am also getting dizzy.

Inilapag ko lahay yun sa lababo as I fix myself. Pumikit muna ako bago ko dahang-dahang nilapitan ang mga puting bagay na inilagay ko sa sink.

Natatakot ako na hindi ko malaman. If I am pregnant, paano ko sasabihin yun kay Chance? What will his reaction be? All of it dawned on me like a heavy brick. I was unable to breathe well anymore. Saka ko binuksan ang mata ko, I need to put myself out of misery.

Then I got stuck from where I was standing. My lungs becoming uncooperative. All the three kits showed the same results. Two strong pink lines. I am positive. I am positively pregnant.

Saka ko narinig na bumukas ang pinto, napabulsa ako sa mga PT kits at napatago sa mga packaging nito na nasa banyo. I came out of the restroom not knowing what will I do or say.

I was like a baby learning to walk when I approached tiredly looking Chancellor on the door. "Nauna ka palang umuwi." He said coldly as if saying I did something wrong.

"Ah oo. Kamusta ang araw mo sa opisina?" Tanong ko sa kanya, just like what I do always. Pinapawalang bahala ang kaibahan ng mood niya ngayon.

"Maganda, I met Cynthia again at work. We talked about the partnership and some other things." He said in a sarcastic tone.

I felt a pang of ache hitting me straight in the chest. I don't know why he is acting like this. Napahawak ako ng mahigpit sa bulsa ko kung nasaan ang tatlong PT Kits. Paano ko sasabihin sa kanya ito ngayon?

"Eh ikaw? How's your talk with your ex-fiance at the parking lot?" Hindi ko alam kung nakita niya ba kami, narinig yung pinagusapan namin, o may nagsabi lang sa kanya. Pero yung tono ng boses niya mapamintang. Parang nagsasabi na may ginawa akong masama. "Ano? Hindi ka sasagot?" He asked again his tone stiff, before I knew it my palm connected on his cheek. I slapped him hard that his face moved involuntarily on his side.

Saka ako nag-walk out papunta sa kwarto namin. Icurled myself into a ball. Don't worry baby, kaya ka namang buhayin ni mommymagisa. But I still cried myself to sleep, this is not how I pictured thenight. I was going to tell him, I thought he was going to be ecstatic about it.But we ended up fighting.