Good in bad // the joker Jared Leto fanfic

1 - New start

I hang up the phone and sit on my couch opening the new water bottle and take a sip.

Maybe I should just go for a drive. Those days always clears up my mind. I take a glance outside of the window to see the weather. Eh it could be better. It's just really cloudy.

I put on my leather jacket and grab my sunglasses. A couple of moments later I leave the building holding my keys and my phone

I walk to the side of the building and remove a plastic blanket off of my motorcycle. And yes I ride a motorcycle. Many people always give me second stares whenever I ride it as if they never seen a girl ride one before.

I always loved the motorcycle. I feel invincible and powerful whenever I go on it. I feel it takes me places faster anyways.

I sit on my motorcycle and insert the keys. A loud vroom strikes out of the bike. The loudness is so satisfying to me. I don't know why. I grin to my thoughts.

Hmm.. Where should I go I think to myself while slowly backing out of the driveway. I slide on my pair of sunglasses and hit the road.

Oh I know where to go. I then speed into the road further. I'm gonna go visit my parents grave..

And I know what your thinking. Why? Why am I going to a grave to clear my mind? But honestly i don't know why.

I always felt more connected around my parents grave. I always felt like being there makes me feel less lonely and it oddly does clear my head.

I hit a red light. "Ugh great.." I mumble to myself as I slow down.

Suddenly a big blue truck pulls right beside me with loud music playing. The window rolls down.

"HEY PRETTY LADy" a man yells out the window. His other driver friend whistles loudly.

I roll my eyes and turn my head back straight.. Men like them piss me off. "HEY! wHY ArE YOu IGNORING uS?" The man slurred he sounds like he's been drinking. I look at the man.

"Fuck off." I say in a serious tone trying to control myself. I have a strong hate for men like him. It's a long story but I'd rather focus on the present for now.

The red light switches to green and I race off hearing the men whistling behind me. I take a deep breath.

- at the grave -

I approach my mom and dads grave stone slowly. I look at my old roses that I bought 3 months ago that have dried out and shrivelled. I sigh.

I bend down and pick up a dead rose. "Hi mommy.. hi daddy.." I whisper shutting my eyes.

"I miss you." I add setting the rose back down. I look around the whole entire grave.

Do I want to leave yet? I grew up around here in Ohio as a child. I spent so many memories around here.

I huff as sit silently on a bench that is a couple feet away from my parents grave.

Everything is strongly changing so fast. I kick a rock and stare into the clouds that are turning slightly pink and orange.

Maybe change is good. Maybe things happen for a reason. But I still don't know if this change would help me.

I have a problem with people. Rude people. I have what people would like to say "attitude" problems.

But can you really blame me? I've got hurt so many times by people, I have gotten so tired of it.

I'm am definitely a changed person by my passed. But now the only thing that hasn't changed is where I'm standing today. Ohio.

I'm just scared to let go for some weird reason. I daze out of my thoughts and turn my head to see a beautiful white dove land on top of my mothers grave. The dove is looking at me.

I randomly get goosebumps all up and down my arms and legs. I smile at the dove and it seconds later flys off into the sunset.

I close my eyes and stand up. I think I know what my choice is now. It's as if the dove was a sign. I need to be free.

I need to let go. I then head back to my motorcycle and lift my leg over it and sit.

About twenty minutes later I finally get back to my apartment. I head straight into my room and plop down my keys onto my bed. I reach into my pocket and take out my phone.

I guess it's time to call back Lindsey. I dial her number and call feeling this is best.

"Hello?" I hear Lindsey pick up.
"Hey it's Violet again!" I say looking down at the ground.

She giggles. "Oh hey Violet, did you figure out what you wanna do yet?" I smile.

"Yes I did, and yes I would love to go to New York and live with you!" I say feeling pretty weird saying it out loud.

"Oh my gosh!! Yay!! That's great!" She says overjoyed. I laugh "yeah it is, but I just hope New York doesn't get too overwhelming." I say jokingly.

"Don't worry about it, trust me!" She reassures. "Okay good!" I laugh off.

"So when do you want me to start living there?" I say trying to figure everything out.

"Basically as soon as possible!" She answers. "Well sounds good to me." I reply.

I don't have anything to lose. I can leave right now and it wouldn't matter.

"Alright, I'll text you tomorrow about
details, let's try getting you here by this Friday?" She asks seeing if Friday is ok.

"Yeah I think I can be there by Friday-" I turn over and look at my calendar on my wall.

"-yeah Friday can work for sure!" I say confirming it. "Alright then, start packing soon! I'll talk to you later. Bye!" She says happily.

I smirk "hah yeah definitely, bye!" I hang up the Phone. Its official. I'm leaving to New York.

Maybe this will be one of the best decisions I'll ever make. Maybe..

- A/N -

Hey! I'm truly excited for this story to be made and start getting more in action. I really love the joker at the moment so I have so many ideas I'm planning for this book. And to make things clear this joker in the story is the one from suicide squad JARED LETO and this is a love story. Please vote and comment your thoughts. The more votes = the more I'll write :) hope you liked chapter one!!