Hi guy's!!! So this is my first book and i started it when i was in like 7th grade so the beginning chapters are not that great, but once it's finished I'll probably go back and edit them -maybe? I'm not sure yet- But please by all means still read...
Pic of Carter⬆️ \____\_\_\_\_\___\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\ Catalina's POV: "Catalina!" oh no I know that voice from anywhere what is he doing here!! How did he get out! I turn around slowly and shut off all of my emotions "Carter" I spit his name out like as if it were poison "I didn't think you would have moved on from me so fast." he says pointing towards Felix "I thought you would wait for me." he continues I let out a humorless laugh "Why would I wait for someone who destroyed my life? please do tell me why I would? you made my life a living hell so tell me why I should have waited for you?" I asked in a cold hard tone, tears prickled my eyes, but I would not cry that's what he wanted and I would feel weak and pathetic especially in public. "Because you love me and you enjoyed every second I spent with you especially when I made love to you." he shot back "Made love to me you RAPED me in In my own house and abused me even though you knew what my dad was doing to me!" I yelled to him "And don't think I still love you that love died the second you laid a hand on me." I said walking away I grabbed my stuff and walked towards my bike I put my clothes on over my swimsuit. I was about to get on my bike when I get pulled into a tight hug I knew it was Felix so I hugged him back. I couldn't help the tears that rolled down my check and not to mentioned how weak I look. I don't care what people think of me right now because I broke down I couldn't help all of the memories flooding my mind from when we first meet, when he said he loved me, when he started to abuse me, and when he raped me. "Shh it's okay Catalina everything will be okay." Felix said to me I laughed "How is everything going to be okay huh? How can I believe you? everyone says it, but it's never okay it never was tell me why I should believe you?!"I yelled/asked him he hugged me tighter. "It will be okay because I'm with you and I won't let anyone hurt you while I'm with you." He said without letting go "Do you promise?" I asked. "I promise" he told me. "Okay," I say holding on to him a little longer "Come on we're going to John's house you at least need an explanation." I said whipping my tears. "Okay but who's John?" He asked "My dad" I say before starting my bike and going towards my so called home. Home "Are you hungry?" I ask Felix walking through the door. My house is an okay size I guess it's nice both in and out I love it! I just wish I had better memories in it
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"Do you have Mac and cheese?and if you do while you cook it you can tell me everything." He said. "Okay yeah kitchen is this way follow me." I said and got everything I needed to make the Mac and cheese.
"Okay so I was 7 when my mom died she was on her way to pick me up from school because I ran away and someone saw me and called my parents it was raining but the rain wasn't what made her crash it was a stupid drunk driver that crashed into her I was devastated I cried for weeks only ate when I really needed to but it was worse on my dad I got better but he went into deep depression so he drank to cope with my mothers death once he said he was feeling better he went back to work but I was only seven and I didn't know my dad was in that much pain he couldn't even look me in the eye," I say as I feel a burning sensation in my throat and my eyes become blurry from the tears threatening to come out, but I continue anyways. "if it wasn't for me she would still be here it was all my fault and the funny part is I ran away because I was mad I didn't get to go to my friends birthday party." I say and a lone tear rolled down my cheek as I remember the memory "2 months past until my dad stared abusing me he would keep repeating that it was my fault she was gone and I slowly started to accept it that it was my fault she was gone anyways by 13 I meet Carter he knew I was getting abused but he couldn't do anything about it so in 8th grade he asked me to be his girlfriend he thought it would bring me happiness of course being me I said yes he started to abuse me by the end of freshman year and he went to juvie mid sophomore year I was relieved to say the least. I was 14 when I started training for street fighting so when I got the chance I would be able to fight back but I also figured out Carter was in a gang back in London that's why he scared me even more and why I didn't fight back. I went through depression after Carter raped me but Ellie and Jake were there for me and they knew what my dad was doing to me but I told them to act like nothing was happening especially after my brother and grandparents left they also thought it was my fault anyways that's pretty much everything you need to know right now." I say finishing the story as I add the cheese to the macaroni. Through the entire story I didn't face him so I wouldn't be surprised if he up and walked out on me; my older brother and my grandparents did they blamed me for my mothers death so they up and left I feel strong arms wrap around my waist "I don't think it's your fault and the next time I see that Carson dude I'll make sure to beat him up." he said lightly kissing my cheek I chuckle because he got Carters name wrong. I turn around in his arms and hug him "Mac and cheese is done." I say earning a chuckle from him "Let's eat then." Midnight Well Felix left around 9 now I just lay in bed not being able to sleep at all. My dad hasn't come home yet probably staying at a cheap motel for one of his nightly whores but that's just my life my beautiful reality. Ring.Ring.Rin- "Hello?" I say into the phone because I have no clue who the hell is calling me its the middle of the night for crying out loud "Just because you have a gangleader boyfriend now doesn't mean I won't get you back I'd keep watch if I were you." And then nothing they hung up but I'm not scared being a streetfighter I get plenty threats this one doesn't faze me but I won't let my guard down I'll keep watch and I'll figure out who this person is that's for sure. ^^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^^*^**^*^**^*^*^******^*^***+^*^*^*^***^***+^**^*^**^* Hey guys!!I hope you guys liked this chapter plz tell me any ideas you have I really need them this is all I really have to say I guess until next time bbbbbbbyyyyyyeeee!!
Ps You guys should so check out my best friends story The Gangleader Wants me
