A Love To Fear || Jimin FF [18+]

1| Lost In Dreams [16+]

⚠️[WARNING: 16+]⚠️

I remember him... Every time I close my eyes, I see his beautiful face. That intense beauty that's almost painful to look at.

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He grabbed my thighs and pulled me closer, I suddenly could feel his breath against my neck. What was happening? It all went so fast I couldn't even think straight. The next thing I felt was soft lips against my skin. He was kissing my neck... And it felt so good. But it slowly turned into sucking, I could feel his teeth as if he was sucking out my blood.

I didn't have any experience in these kinds of things. I didn't know what to do and pushed him away. But he didn't stop, suddenly he grabbed my face and looked into my eyes, the look he had on his face... It was so... Intense. As if he really wanted me, as if he wanted to experience every body part of me. It even made me blush. Looking into his eyes... I could stare the whole day in those beautiful and dangerous eyes of Jimin.

I realized that I wanted more. He made me so thirsty for him just by his intensive gaze.

"Jimin, please make love to me"

I whispered. But he was still staring at me, not moving his face. I got so needy and wanted him so badly.

"Jimin.."

And suddenly he pulled me in so hard that my lips crashed into his. I felt his lips pressed so hard on mine that it hurt, but I wanted more. He was teasing me. I needed his tongue and he knew it. He pulled away and looked at me again.

"You want more?"

He asked. Hell yea I wanted more of this jamless person.

"Yes.."

He gave me a smile, a smile that could kill. Suddenly he threw his lips on mine. But this time his mouth was open. He shoved his tongue in my mouth. I could feel his saliva in my mouth and all over my lips. So hot... It was such an aggressive kiss, I could feel how horny Jimin was but so was I. We were kissing so deep, tongues were moving everywhere and it got so wet.

He grabbed my shirt and unbuttoned it while we were kissing. He took off my bottom clothes, leaving me only in my bra. The wet kiss never ended, his hands were all over my body, feeling my skin. I got out of breathing and needed air. At the same time, I got so horny by Jimins touches and his tongue that was exploring in my mouth. I gasped for air but Jimin quickly put his mouth on mine again. This time he got even more aggressive.

He sucked my bottom lip and then bit on it so hard that it started bleeding. He sucked the blood and started to lick my neck. He went further down, making me crave for more. He started licking my belly button, it felt so good that I just couldn't handle it. He went further down until he got between my thighs. He was about to kiss me at that place. I moaned out jimins name.

"Jimin-ah, Jimin please"

His tongue got closer to that place

"Jimin.."

I wanted more of him and couldn't control myself

"Jimin fast..."

And suddenly I heard a loud sound. I opened my eyes and saw the white ceiling. There was no jimin, no kissing, just me laying in bed. My alarm was ringing so loud that I threw it on the floor. Oh god, it was just a dream. I woke up to the sad reality... A reality where I am just an ordinary girl living in the Netherlands. A reality where Jimin is an idol who doesn't even know I exist and lives on the other side of the world.

Lately, I've been dreaming often about BTS. It's been a year since I became a huge fan. Every time I wake up from a dream, I get this sad feeling. I just know I'll never be able to meet those seven sexy dorks who have changed my life. I have been desperately dreaming about them. The one time it'll be Jungkook I'm dreaming about, the other time it's Suga and so on. I feel so pathetic that I'm dreaming about the members. Even though it's impossible for me to meet them, Jhope taught me to never lose hope so I'm still waiting for a miracle to happen.

I sighed and got out of bed. I graduated from University after studying very hard. These days I started looking for a job, but nothing looks interesting to me. I never really knew what I wanted to become, what kind of job I wanted in the future so I chose to study Economics. Now that it's time to work I realize it's not even something that I like. I feel so useless but I don't want to regret anything. I'll just find a boring job and earn money so I can buy Kpop albums and more. Maybe I'll be able to go to South Korea one day. It's the only motivation I got to work. I realize that I have such a boring and meaningless life...

If only one day... I'd get to meet them.

I got ready and went downstairs, I saw my parents sitting on the couch. They were arguing about my brother who always made my parents worry by doing bad stuff.

I ate some food and had to go because I had a few job interviews. I didn't feel like being home anyway listening to my parents' arguments. That'll only make me more depressed.

I put my earphones in and listened to House of cards. All the moaning in the song got me thinking back on the dream I had this morning. I felt a little ashamed by it... What if I really moaned in my sleep and someone heard me... I do live in a house with three other people including my two brothers and a sister.

I stopped myself from thinking about it and walked towards my mothers' car. I'm 21 and got my license a year ago.

I drove to different city's for my job interview and got back home late at night. I wasn't really good at interviews cause I've always been so awkward and not social at all.

It went so bad... but all I had to do now was waiting for their phone call even though I already knew the outcome.

The next day I opened my mailbox and it was full of emails saying they're not looking for employees or just simply rejecting to offer me a job. I kinda gave up on the idea of finding a good job here in the Netherlands. So I have to convince my parents to let me look for a job abroad, although that seems impossible.

My parents don't want me to go far away and are kinda strict at some things. I'm a foreigner living in the Netherlands so our culture is different.

I lay in bed and grabbed my laptop, I looked for jobs and looked up what countries would be a good place for me to work.

Japan, China, Korea, and more. It would be a dream come true to work in Korea... At a big company where I have to do the administration. When I thought about it, it wasn't even a bad idea. But it was impossible for me especially because of my parents who would never let me go all the way to Korea...

I closed my laptop and looked at my phone screen with BTS at my background. If only the dreams I had about BTS would become reality...