It's Complicated

CHAPTER 25

Ok get ready!

-Nicole's POV-

I felt guilty every time I saw Michael. What I did was horrible. He probably thinks that I'm over him, but I'm not. I am still in love with him. I just never wanted to admit it. And every time I see him cry it makes me cry. No one does that to me. Not even Zayn. When Michael laid down with me, he probably thought I was asleep. But I wasn't I couldn't sleep. I wrapped my arms around him, hoping he would get the message that I was sorry and still loved him. Surprisingly I fell asleep.

-dream-

Michael and I have been dating for 6 months now, I decided to go out with some friends to a club. I got drunk as fuck and wanted to dance. I ran into a guy that asked me to dance with him. I barley knew what I was doing so I agreed. Before I could catch up with what was happening, I was in a room with the guy. Completely naked. He was on top of me. I was still efected by the achohol so I let it happen. I woke up the next morning with a major hang over. It took me a minute to prossess everything that happend. I started to panic. I got dressed and ran out of the room and drove back to our flat crying. When I got there I say in the car thinking for a bit. How could I cheat on the guy I lost my virginity to? How could I do this to the guy I loved the most in the world? I knew I had to tell him. I finally got out of the car and faced Michael. I cryed the entire time. And when it was over Michael was in tears also. We decided that we had to leave each other and stay away for a while.

-end of dream-

I woke up in Michael's arms. I still loved this feeling. I looked at the clock on the bed side table. It was 1 in the afternoon. Right at that moment Luke opened the door.
"Michael- oh- um -" he closed the door again. Michael was awake now. He quickly took his hands off of me.
"I'm uh sorry" he said getting up.
"Its fine" I say getting dressed. I wish that I could just go back to bed with him. But I couldn't. We went down stairs to see Luke eating cereal at the table.
"Go eat, your going to see Zayn and apologize" he said. I didn't like that. I really didn't want to see Zayn. Michael tensed up beside me. I wish that Luke didn't say that.
"I'll take her".Michael spoke up.
"Ok" Luke said, finishing his cereal.
"I'm not hungry" I say bitterly.
"Ok then let's go get this over with then" he said walking out of the door. I felt terrible. I didn't want to talk to Zayn. I was still mad at him. I knew I was stuck between two worlds. Michael and Zayn. I loved them both.
I told Michael the directions to the hotel. We drove in silence until we got there.
"Do you want me to go with you" he asks.
"You can if you want" I say. I really didn't know how this would go so I wanted someone to be with me. We walked out of the car and to the hotel. I didn't run into anyone on the way to the room so that was kinda helpful. When I opened the door, my entire body filled with anger and sadness. Kiara was on top of Zayn in my bed. Makeing out with him. I stopped dead in my tracks.
"So this is what you do when I'm gone for a while" I laugh bitterly. Zayn looked up at me then at Kiara in shock. I could tell they were both drunk.
"Nicole- I- I can explain" he slurred.
"No you can't, I saw what I saw, there's nothing that can explain that" I snap.
"No it's no-"
"Shut up Zayn I don't want to hear your dumb mouth, all I came here for was to get my things and go anyways" I lie.

-Michael's POV-
"Nicole come on" Zayn started, grabbing her by the sholder. I had stayed silent the entire time. Nicole swung around and slapped Zayn across the face with a loud crack. Zayn's lip started bleeding.
"Leave me alone" she yelled.
Kiara had left a while ago. And now Zayn stood silently holding his cheek. Nicole stuffed all of her things in a suit case. And got her dog on a leash and walked out of the door. I followed silently. We ran into one of her brother's on the way out.
"Hey Nicole, here's your phone, I bought one for everyone, it has some contacts in it already" he said.
"Ok well I'm leaving, I will call you later" she says. "Don't follow me I want to be alone for a while"
"Ok just make sure you call" he said.
"I need to go somewhere" she said once we go to the car.
"You can stay with me Nicole, I'm not letting you stay alone" I say.
"Fine, I need to talk to you anyways" her face emotionless. I didn't know exctly what she was going to tell me. I was excited that she was going to stay with us for a while though
"I'm sorry" I say to her. I really do feel bad for her.
"It's fine, he said he wanted me out of his life, he got what he wanted" she answered bitterly.
The rest of the ride was silent. I checked my phone and saw that Luke had texted me.
"Luke said he's going to be out for a while" I tell her.
"Ok that's good, I need to talk to you privatly anyways"she said licking her lips.
"Ok let's go upstairs and talk" I say grabbing two beers and walking up stairs with her.
"I didn't want to tell you this because I would of felt guilty but now that Zayn decided to tear me out of his life, I can tell you" she said opening her beer and taking a sip and a big breath. "I love you, ok, I never could get over you, I went with different people to try to get over you because I felt to guilty to talk to you"
I was shocked. It felt like my heart had just been glued back together.
"I love you" I managed to say. "I really love you"
I go in to hug her but she kisses me instead. Right on the lips. I was shocked at first but kissed back. Her tounge traces my bottom lip and I allow her access. Our tounges battle until we run out of breath. We have to break the kiss. It upsets me but I am so happy and my whole body is tingling

Wow I don't even know how to react to my own writing, I want to write more chapters and I will rn. Omg I love this.